It's weird

[wolven7]

LUXT - [Cease]--- I honestly don't know how many of the people around me accept, understand, or want to, for any of the above, what i'm trying to do, with the universe, and my life. I don't say this in the "Oh! My Lonely Path," kind of way, but rather the "Well... that's fucking weird... what are they still doing here?" kind of way. (Hum - [Ms. Lazarus]). And that is not in the "Go the hell away if you disagree," kind of way, but the earnestly asking kind of way.

There are a lot of people who.. i don't know.. think i'm outright Wrong in what i believe and what i'm trying to do, and, quite probably think i'm insane, for trying to do it. But they're still... Uhm... around. In their ways. They hang out, getting bits and pieces, and so on, but it's all interlocked. The facets are representations of the whole. I can try to bottle up the things on my mind, but that only guarantees that, one day, i'll explode and rant, at you, or around you. (Blue Öyster Cult - [Godzilla]). And maybe that thought amuses you. Whatever. I get sick of it, sometimes. So, honestly, i don't like to bottle it up, lock it away, be relegated to feeding it table scraps, in your presenece, to appease your ideal of me... But you know that already.

Anyway, my point was simply the awe i had at the realisation i came to, there, about that stuff... (Yeah Yeah Yeahs - [Maps]). I know that not everyone is going to like or agree but... i'm doing and planning some pretty... basic ideological and practical shifts in the fabric of all that which we know. Not to sound megalomaniacal, or anything... That's simply what i'm planning, and working toward. I'm displeased withthe current state of things, so i want to change them. Simple. The problem is that i don't know how many people disbelieve me, on that score, or simply think i'm insane, and ignore that part of me, for the parts with which they get along, fine.

Arch Enemy - [Enemy Within]--- Well. I guess i'll find out, eventually....

Ta

Comments

[000100010001.livejournal.com]

Just be yourself, believe what you belive and you real friends will love you anyways!!!

[wolven.livejournal.com]

:) I know. Simply something that struck me as odd, for the moment.

Think of it like te mad scientist who, in the middle of her or his work, stops, looks up with total lucidity in her/his eyes and says, to no one in particular: "Wow... What the fuck. I mean, seriously. What the FUCK." Takes it all in, shrugs, and goes back to work.

Something to consider, understand, and integrate. But i'm still doin' what i'm doin'. ;)

[000100010001.livejournal.com]

you should come out to masquerade Saturday, I haven't seen you in quite a while young man!!!

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Only problem being that i have a party, this saturday. As i am organiser and host, i think it could safely be called "Bad Form," were i not to show up. :) But next saturday, i would consider a definate go. If nothing else, it's soemthing to do with my nearly non-existent, atlanta-based social life. ^_^

[momentai.livejournal.com]

Now that I have read a definitive statement as what you want, I wouldn't say insanity is the word. I guess the only thing that comes to mind is that it is weird one person could be so..strained that they really formulate plans as to alter what is fundamentally believed by the Masses. Wierd in its actual sense and probably only weird b/c I wouldn't conider the same path or method. Not that I am aware of your method, just the general idea. Yeah, I think that makes sense.

As for me believing or disbeleiving, I can't rightly say. I don't tend to have an opinion one way or another unless an idea directly impacts me. Whether or not you can and will achieve your goal is irrlevant to me. I can't even say I hope you ssuceed as I have no idea how that plan might affect me and mine later on. I guess all I can say at this point is;

"I applaud your sense of conviction and tally ho onward with your machinations. Just don't do anything stupid."

[wolven.livejournal.com]

That's not really a definative statement. Simply a brief outline of What. I don't plan on forcing anyone to believe anything, simply presenting it in such a way that It is understood, for what it is, and accepted by those who would accept it. And no, that's not already done. It's not got a Public forum, only a less private one, than the confines of my own skull.

Thanks, i will continue onward. And stupid or smart is really a matter of perspective, and context. Ta.

[momentai.livejournal.com]

Ya you may think that now, but just wait till you do something. You'll know it, I'll know it, that guy from down the street will know it and no context in the world is going to make any less stupid.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

oh i've done Pleanty of things that i either A) found stupid, then, and seethe value of, now, or B) the other way around. I don't believe in partial absolutes.

But i could be wrong.