Things i thought.

Dio - [Strange Highways]--- When i was a kid, I always thought that Heaven would be boring. I was told that, no matter what, i'd get to do the thing that most pleased me, and i'd be happy and blissful, forever. My worries included A) Would i even Get to Heaven? B) There would surely be members of my family and friends who wouldn't get to Heaven, under the standards and criteria for entry, which i had been taught, and i would most certainly miss them, and feel sad. C) Why would (and How Could) I be happy, knowing that other people, about whom i directly cared, weren't?

I could imagine zooming around on comets, building galaxies, and all kinds of crazy shit, in heaven, but if the people i cared about weren't there, didn't have at least the option to be there, then what's the point?

Jack Off Jill - [Nazi Halo]--- As I got older, i began to think different things, about Heaven. Not only was it a potentially boring place, but it was potentially a place in which i would be removed from many things, about which i cared deeply. Including my freewill, and ability to learn. (Strictly Ballroom - [Brazil Samba]). I began to believe that not all things were Good and Pure, in the realm of Heaven. Which meant that, maybe, not all things were Vile and Evil, in the realm of Hell. I thought more about Hell. What does Hell do? Why is it there? Not punishment, really. It's not what happens, when you pick the wrong side, so much as what happens when you Think you've fucked up. Hell is there for you to learn, when it comes down to brass tacks, and learning can come in many forms.

Hell can teach through torment, or it can teach through giving you a job to do. (Arrogant Worms - [Jesus' Brother Bob]). It can enlighten, or it can drag you to the darkest corners of yourself, and what you fear, there. And, of course, these don't have to be separate things. But Hell still endeavours toward betterment. Everything it does is in an effort to experience, and not to be settled in a state of perpetual Bliss, which, as we are often told, is the same as perpetual ignorance. And that's why i choose Hell.

Well, actually, i choose the ability to wander wheresoever the fuck I wish, but i choose to chiefly reach those means, through the apparati of Hell.

Noah Stone - [Dark & Brooding]--- I learned a lot of things, when i was a little kid, including that i liked to learn. I learned that good and evil, and right and wrong can be functions of points of view, as well as intrinsic in the fabric of the reality we choose. I learned that God was just trying to do Its best, with what It had made. And I learned, much later, that I wasn't the first to learn any of that...

The Dresden Dolls - [Bank of Boston Beauty Queen (Live)]--- But i was the first to put them together, in my head, in the way that it meant something to me. And that means something...

I really like being able to choose, and to change my mind about my choices.

I'm going to go finish by sociology readings, and go to bed.

Dream Well

Holy shit i didn't sleep enough

I barely remember my dreams. They mostly concerned squating in some old guy's house, while he was gone, and bringing outr own food. This was done, with my sisters, and my dad shoed up, later, to bring us home. It was the house of an old Jewish Rabbi, and we broke in, becuase i really wanted to go to Synagogue, on a friday night. And i was ranting at the people i was with, who weren't my sisters, at that point, but random passer-by, about being true to yourself, and doing what you felt was right. And i really wanted to go to Synagogue. Something, before that, about crossing a busy street, and making everyone wait for us.

Jewish Heaven is a seris of concentric circles, full of houses, with the centre being the closest to God. Everyone goes, and can progress through. Still kind of... off, because it ends in stasis...

Off to class. Ta.

Wolven's 2005 Name to Watch.

Eric Eisenstadt, Ph.D.

He's got his hands in every scientific advance that matters, right now. Quantum Computing, Nanotech, the BI/OS program, Bio-Fabrication, Protein Coding and Synthesis, and others. Keep an eye on his compatriots, and underlings, for potentials coups.

Gotta go.

More Deja vu

U2 - [New Year's Day]--- It's weird when you remember your dreams of fragments of your future, from your past. If you don't get that, i'll say it this way: The bits of dreams that i only get as imperssions of doing something, somewhere i don't recognise, usually come to pass as actual events and then, for a split second, my head hurts like Hel, i see the situation around me, from the perspective of the dream About it, and the events, as they are happening. Then things synch up again, and i continue on, as normal. They are not purely visual. They all have auditory keys, as well as olefactory, and tactile.

For lack of a better term, i call it Deja Vu: The feeling of having done something, before. But it's more than a feeling, to inadvertantly quote a song. I have experienced it, before.

Talked more, in philosophy, about the nature of experiencial knowledge, and no one would listen, as per usual. Just remember, when you dream, and when you remember something, it activates the same centre of the brain as "direct experience." (Moxy Früvous - [Welcome to C]). What does that teach you? Lots of things, really, but that's for you to figure out, yourself.

Prince of Persia - Sands of Time - [The Halls of Learning]--- Also had another long discussion about rape, in sociology, with more people advocating education, more strict penalization, and Vigilante Justice. I'm in favour of all of the above. *sigh* Complicated.

I'm out of here. Enjoy.

{11.05pm: Einstürzende Neubauten - [Headcleaner]--- Oh, and my uncle ships off for his Security job, Elsewhere, Sunday. Hooray.

Ta.}

HO-Leee Shit.

Nena - [99 Luftballoons]--- This Is Not Right. Lying to children, to force them into a specific mode of behaviour: Morally Reprehensible, even if i can see places where it would seem like a good idea. (Poe - [Strange Wind]). If you do it, or support it, fuck you. End of story.

Teach your children everything, and let them make Informed Choices, assholes.

God i fucking hate people....

{11.58pm:Some principals that are supposedly contemporary will start to irritate you today, WOLVEN. Why the change? It may be that your partners gave you a discourse on liberty and that you don't accept what they have to say. In fact, you can no longer stand the idea of individualism, especially when it is justified by ideas that are supposedly spiritual or psychological. If these are modern ideas, then you are going to remain decidedly old-fashioned!

OhGr - [Noreen]--- "And now, Bizzaro World Weather: Tomorrow Hot at -467 Degrees Centigrade. Break out the Shorts!" What the FUCK.}