Things i thought.

[wolven7]

Dio - [Strange Highways]--- When i was a kid, I always thought that Heaven would be boring. I was told that, no matter what, i'd get to do the thing that most pleased me, and i'd be happy and blissful, forever. My worries included A) Would i even Get to Heaven? B) There would surely be members of my family and friends who wouldn't get to Heaven, under the standards and criteria for entry, which i had been taught, and i would most certainly miss them, and feel sad. C) Why would (and How Could) I be happy, knowing that other people, about whom i directly cared, weren't?

I could imagine zooming around on comets, building galaxies, and all kinds of crazy shit, in heaven, but if the people i cared about weren't there, didn't have at least the option to be there, then what's the point?

Jack Off Jill - [Nazi Halo]--- As I got older, i began to think different things, about Heaven. Not only was it a potentially boring place, but it was potentially a place in which i would be removed from many things, about which i cared deeply. Including my freewill, and ability to learn. (Strictly Ballroom - [Brazil Samba]). I began to believe that not all things were Good and Pure, in the realm of Heaven. Which meant that, maybe, not all things were Vile and Evil, in the realm of Hell. I thought more about Hell. What does Hell do? Why is it there? Not punishment, really. It's not what happens, when you pick the wrong side, so much as what happens when you Think you've fucked up. Hell is there for you to learn, when it comes down to brass tacks, and learning can come in many forms.

Hell can teach through torment, or it can teach through giving you a job to do. (Arrogant Worms - [Jesus' Brother Bob]). It can enlighten, or it can drag you to the darkest corners of yourself, and what you fear, there. And, of course, these don't have to be separate things. But Hell still endeavours toward betterment. Everything it does is in an effort to experience, and not to be settled in a state of perpetual Bliss, which, as we are often told, is the same as perpetual ignorance. And that's why i choose Hell.

Well, actually, i choose the ability to wander wheresoever the fuck I wish, but i choose to chiefly reach those means, through the apparati of Hell.

Noah Stone - [Dark & Brooding]--- I learned a lot of things, when i was a little kid, including that i liked to learn. I learned that good and evil, and right and wrong can be functions of points of view, as well as intrinsic in the fabric of the reality we choose. I learned that God was just trying to do Its best, with what It had made. And I learned, much later, that I wasn't the first to learn any of that...

The Dresden Dolls - [Bank of Boston Beauty Queen (Live)]--- But i was the first to put them together, in my head, in the way that it meant something to me. And that means something...

I really like being able to choose, and to change my mind about my choices.

I'm going to go finish by sociology readings, and go to bed.

Dream Well

Comments

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Hm. So along with the Office, maybe there should be the Collegium?

And...people don't understand, conflict is growth. Conflict isn't just fighting. Conflict is that tempting, teasing barrier when one wants to understand something and can't, and it makes them try harder. Conflict is the tension where the ends of darkness & light blend and contrast, and create art. Bliss is stasis is Nothing...

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there probably will be, starting tonight.

Exactly. If you poin all the opposing things at each other, or away from each other, the middle tension point is everything.

Hmm