Your MOM needs to find a better way of communicating.

You might need to find a better way of communicating, WOLVEN. Sometimes you aren't very assertive with other people. You tend to be a little shy. You expect others to read your mind! But it's important to learn how to speak up. Find a way to feel more comfortable sharing your ideas. The next time you have an important discussion ahead of you, you might try writing out the points that you would like to make ahead of time, so that you feel prepared, and don't leave anything out.

No. Seriously.

Today was boring, but full of quantum mechanics. And i finally got to send mech_angel her presents. Jeebus.

Gone now. Night.

Awaken the sleeper, or let sleeping gods lie?

The Smiths - [Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want]--- Whatever i do, or don't do, will have repurcussions, and that's always something to consider. What will those ripples be? Quantum mechanics takes many leaps and liberties, but still fails to take that final step, and simply say what it means: thoughts and perceptions shape the world. Look at the observable qualities of quantum states, and it becomes kind of clear. (Wümpscüt - [Hampster Dance (Undead Mix)]). Granted, like anything, it can be interpretted any number of ways, to suit anyone's point of view, i'm sure.

Fucked up dreams, about family home videos that don't exist, and, then, about weird orgies, in a giant labratory maze. (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Battered]). That was very strange.

Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Yog-Sothoth]--- I'm heading to eat breakfast, before i go to class, now. I have tests, today, and stuff of that nature. Feel free to email, or otherwise harass me, during the day.

Later, kids.

Go Here Now.

http://www.higiri.net/stuff/moresexthanme.swf

I blame Brandon. *nods*

Things i learned today.

Wolfsheim - [Künstliche Welten]--- My sociology teacher gave me a ninety on my paper. Then she basically told me "I expected better, from you." She told me that she "wouldn't have been as harsh on you, in grading, if I didn't know you were an extemely intelligent individual, and were capable of better. AND that you're going to GradSchool." She gave me an A. And counts this as... Bad. Which on says to me: "From You, It Could Have Been Perfect." And I find that... flattering.

She's given me the opportunity to revise, and turn it in, again. Which means that i can get it perfect. (C-Tec - [Foetal]). And i Will. She gave me a list of things to correct, or revisit, within the paper, itself. Places i could expound, runon sentences i could correct, course content on which i could more fully elaborate. Stuff like that. I just find it really... good, when people think me capable of perfection, and call me on turning in a rushed paper. Because it was. I did it the night before it was due. So, now, i get to fix it, and get full credit.

In other school-related news, my Math Professor told me the things i need to do to get an A, in the class, and that he wants to see me do them. I have a C in that class, right now. He says i can have a B, at the final, and, if i do the rest of my back up work, there's the possibility of an A. It's comforting to know that your professors have an idea of your level of intelligence, and plan to hold you to it. (Ragnarok - [Beloved of the Raven God]). Now, if they had shown this, more toward the beginning of the semester-- a caring about Anyone in the classes, not only me-- then things would have gone a lot more smoothly, and i'd have a higher average. Because i'd have felt it more worth it, like they were in it With me, not just in front of me.

I'm out.

{11.12pmTom Waits - [Hoist That Rag]--- I can't believe my father just did that, to me...

Dad: You are as usual astute and dead-on with your post-future-histories-reconstruction. A question though: how does and educator stay focused on quality education ('self/student motivation', maximizing value of the 'classroom-experience' ,, etc) while working through one's total life? Must be hard. Something motivated these two to 'speak' to you today. There communication resulted in a profound SEE (Significant Emotional Event) maybe just what you needed by way of feedback. Their feedback seems genuine and intentional. Can an educator produce 'genuine' feedback such as this by will or did they experience a causal SEE? Too many questions and I'm obviously drifting into your area of expertise.
Dad signed off at 11:11:18 PM.

Captain Tractor - [The Last Saskatchewan Pirate (Arrogant Worms Cover)]--- Just left. This is where i get my penchant for Bastardry, i tell you. >_<

{11.37pm: Front Line Assembly - [Plasticity]--- He came back, we finished the conversation, he creeped me out, with astute observations, and we talked about learning from Nightmares...

Every fucking day, i tell you, my parents give me reason to think they know what i'm doing, and that they've known how it would be, for a while.

Creepy.}}