"Among the maxims on Lord Naoshige's wall, there was this one: 'Matters of great concern should be t

There are matters of great and small concern, floating throughout my life, and the lives of those around me. I had a long, and interesting outing, today, lasting from around 7, this evening, to 11.30, tonight. The night was filled with conversation, and communication, and it was one of the best nights i've had, with another human being, in a long time. And maybe that has something to do with the company i kept, or maybe it was the nature of the day... But whatever it was, the evening was great, and i had a lot of fun, and i have moved a little closer to solidifying a friendship...

We were supposed to go to dinner, at the Vortex, but, stupid me, i forgot that the Vortex is 21 and up, after 7. Ah well... We ended up going to Manuel's Tavern, and eating. We were late to a production of Dr. Faustus, but, in the process, made reservations for a show, next week, and at half the price. Then we walked around and talked, all damn night... it was... Honest... Very Honest... And you've no idea how good it feels to be able to be that Honest, with the dishonesty, and subterfuge, running around the periphery of life, these days....

Speaking of which, That would be one of those matters of great/small concern. Every matter is a matter of either great or small concern, and should be treated as its opposite. What does that tell us? When we must treat everything as itself and its opposite, we realise, eventually, that there is a place, in the middle, and along the edges of both, from whence they both spring.There is a well sprig of sameness, and a mid-level, third level. Quality comes into play, once again. But it's not only Quality; it is the Tao, it is the Way, it is any connecting, blossoming Third, that connects a duality...

All Matters Should Be Treated Practically.

Therein lie the Matters, and the Treatment of said. Am i babbling, now? I'm sorry, but i'm a bit giddy. I've had a wonderful night...

In growth of the soul
Stunting the Social Systems
Like blossoms, i fall

For whatever that's worth....

My Horror Scope: You might feel a little torn between your personal and your professional life, Wolven. Maybe you are very busy with projects at work. Or you could be trying to build a business, and you might be working long hours. Meanwhile, you might have a romantic partner who really needs your time and attention. You might not be able to please everybody right now, but do your best to balance things out.

Matters of Concern.... "According to the words of the ancients, decisions should be made within the space of seven breaths. It is a matter of being determined, and having the will to break right through, to the other side."

I may be back later, to talk about dreams, and medieval language, and the like.

Later.

The Prior Entry has been removed, as its contents may compromise our agents, in the field.

Drill - [What Are You]--- Anywho... i'm feeling better, but i think Rob stole my Coke... damn him.... i NEEDED that coke. It was my only caffeine, in the house... But alas, there's not much to be done about it, now. (Bobgoblin - [Nine]). I need to wash clothes, today, and at least begin working toward my phi religion paper.... This week is a tad less hectic, as far as papers, and tests go, but not much. Not much at all. Still got shit to do for business ethics.... Fug... Other than that, here, have some dreamtastic coolness:

I'm on an island, out in the woods, which is also up in the mountains, at the house where i went to the wedding. I'm on some kind of real world-esque reality show, but there are ghosts everywhere. We're talking to the ghosts, and then

We're inside the house, and it's like the inside of Rosie's parents' house. I'm sitting at/under the coffee table, and i'm changing the batteries, in my cd player, and i'm looking at the batteries, and they look really weird, and i say "Damn. I never should've trained you for those Thai power packs, Frobisher bribed me with..."

We're outside on the deck, again, and there's a parade going on. At this point, i know that i'm in Costa Rica, and the Parade is for Fidel Castro, who is looking hail and healthy as ever. And we're all surprised that they're leading him out, and around, in public. There is more of the feeling of talking to ghosts. i wake up

Prodigy - [Fire (Remix)]--- When i woke up, i was all disoriented, and felt strange, but then i was Out Working, last night, and the office seems to have gone to Shit, in my brief absence. The Latin word "Rideo," was in my dreams, a few nights ago. It means "To Laugh At." Think about that... (Eminem - [Kill You]). It was written on a wall, as i walked passed, and it was part of a larger statement that, if i remember correctly, translated out to "All your friends are laughing at you." I was watching one of those videos with the fucked up moral signs that people carry, with things that are supposed to be innermost thoughts, or what the fuck ever, so i'm sure that had something to do with it. Van Hallen, this new band, fucking Pop-Up Video made an entire show out of the shit... What's the gods damned point? It's rarely ever poignant.

The Adventures Of Jet - [End Of The Planet]--- If people are honestly surprised that thoughts like "I Think I'm Better Than You," and "I Really Just Want To Be Held," run through the various heads of the populaces, on anything more than a second by second basis, you all haven't been paying attention. People don't know themselves, deep down. Knowing the subconscious is a big scary ordeal that could hold all kinds of fucked up things that you don't want to think that you think. But you do. And all the time. And maybe, just maybe, if you were to try to understand that cesstropic mass of shite that we call a mind, you'd be a more well-adjusted person, and wouldn't feel the need to hide shit about yourself.

The White Stripes - [Fell In Love With A Girl]--- Think about it: you know yourself, and what you want,and what it takes to get you off ('cause that's what some of this subconscious stuff comes down to; not a lot, but some.), and you can now find a way to go get it. (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [My Tank]). Yeah, it may be a little scary, and it may be a little fucked up, but, if what you find once you Do know your subconscious frightens you, and sickens you, then you can go about changing it. Everything about you is only as written in stone as you need it to be. If you don't like it, change it. Really.

Other than that, i've been babbling, here, for awhile, so i'm going to go. Need to find Rob, and go wash my clothes.

Day Dream

"No, I have to get back to Dunwich, tonight... As a matter of fact, I better get moving... Or I'll m

TDOTHT - [Goin Down To Dunwich]--- I have clean Clothes. I was seriously in the danger area, for that, over the past few days.

I'm feeling very odd, right now... and i don't know what to do, about it... There are people to whom i'm paying more attention, recently, and people to whom i'm paying less, and there are people from whom i feel myself slipping, and i want to do anything But let it quietly die away... But what to do, and how to change and adapt to certain situations.... (System Of A Down - [Chop Suey]). How do you change your relationship with someone, while letting them know that no, it's not because you don't love them, but because something, in you, has moved away from where they are, and where you were, when you were there, together.... Fuck... That, and i ate someone's soul, tonight, and they really shouldn't have attacked me like that. But anywho.. I'm more than willing to take in suggestions.. I've been feeling attacked, for days, now.

TDOTHT - [Shoggoths Away]--- Started with the im, thing, and has spiraled out into a burgeoning, multi-faceted paranoia, that borders on the Reactionary... I HATE that... All i want, ladies and gentlemen, is a level of respect, and honesty, and equality... (Bobgoblin - [Overthrow]). To be treated with the same respect, and courtesy, with which i treat every one else... That's Insane of me to ask, and social rules dictate that this can't be, but maybe FUCK SOCIAL RULES! The hierarchy, and the climbing, and the Bullshit that is social interaction, in America, or maybe among Humans, as a whole? Fuck it. Delete It. And that's all i can do, about it. I can treat people a certain way, and i can hope that they will reciprocate, and when/if they don't, i can let them go about their merry little way.

VNV Nation - [Darkangel (Azrael)]--- Sitting around, delivering half-assed messages for people who don't know what they want to say, to people who don't know what to expect to hear. Not seeing people, for weeks, because it's too awkward, when you feel.. unequal.. And that feeling's not even yours. Vagaries and generalities, all, i know, but what the fuck else do you expect from me, right now? I haven't figured out what to do about this shit, and i'm damn well not laying any cards on the table, until i have it all together. So, if anyone has any advice, here's another one of those sporadic, but not infrequent, times when i'm more than willing to hear it. And if your advice should be used toward you, at a later date, i hope that you will simply take it as the sign of ultimate respect that it is.

Until that time, i remain, ever, My Ainsel, Your Wolven

"I'll only come here, seeking peace,
I'll only come here, seeking me.
It seems I came to Leave.

Tschusz...