Psychological

[wolven7]

I often feel guilt about having access to thing that others don't, or, more specifically, having an over-abundance of non-tranferable opportunity in areas in which people I know experience a dearth and experss a want. Why should this bother me? I mean, yeah it sucks, but, by my own admittance, there's nothing I can do about it.

Fear of being shunned. Fear of those who experience the dearth and want beginning to resent me, and leaving. It's about the fact that I don't want to lose people, ever, regardless of the reason.

Unreasonable? Yes, but psychologically and emotionally consistent.

Thing of it is, there's only so much I can do for other people to help them attain the things they want, and any resentment sent my way, after that? I'll have to wear as a badge of honour, I guess, because what the fuck else can really be asked of me? What else can I really ask of myself?

It's all messy, in here. It's been a weird fucking day.

Comments

(mental hugs)

[raidingparty.livejournal.com]

That is all.

Re: (mental hugs)

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Thanks. This was really more of an "I understand" kind of post. A recognition of what needs to be,

Re: (mental hugs)

[raidingparty.livejournal.com]

Man, 0/2 on both you and unknownbinaries.

Re: (mental hugs)

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Trust me, it's fine. The communication vectors have all been screwed up, this week.