wolven7 | How terrible, all who would despise.

It's a new day, and i've made many concerted efforts, today, to find a place to live, and one concerted effort to find a job. For those who may or many not still be reading this, i'll be around, more, when i have a place. Somewhere i can call home... I don't know if anyone believes me, on that, but i don't particularly care either. It's true, whether people believe it or not. And today is a new one.

There is not much in the way of things i have to do, today. Hmm. And not too terribly much on my mind. I've been wondering, more, at the changes which have overcome me, recently. Or.. which i have undertaken.. overcome... I don't know how to put it, but there are changes. I'm more raw-ly Me. The Dark red-purple-black-silver-lighting-blue that is my Core and my Spark, is more There. Things that touch it, touch it nearly wholly, and things that aggravate, send raw shocks, to the core... And perhpas this is my doing...

I've stripped away so much, in the process of trying to make sure that i was myself, that i may have pulled away, to the core... And i'm not exactly unhappy with this. It simply makes it a little more difficult to get used to... If i Flow With things, i refuse to allow them to carry me. I flow With them. It's like a pack, and there is Co-operation. I need Co-Operation. not control...

But i cannot get that, in all places. I don't know how many other people need the Pack, need the co-operation, as i do. And i've had things that promise packs, but aren't. Ended up being control... Feh... Hard to explain. I want to connect with people, flow With, people, and their information. Dance their energies. That's what i want. I want to be able to connect with, and Know someone, and then, if i want, to be able to pull away, to retain the indivduality. I want to do the hive minded individual... And i don't know how to express it here, anymore. I've said it how i can. Maybe, when i have it a little better in my own head, i'll be able to put it down, here. Until then, i'll keep writing what i can.

On a side note, my dad was in my dream, again, last night. We were traveling, around the country, trying to get to school. It was odd... Also a section about Meteor Man, and my mom and my aunt. A piece about a new kind of car, which later became a new kind of pants. Kan't really find the underlying meaning, there, to interperet, other than dealing with my dad. I should contact him... Speaking of contact, it seems as though there are missing lines of communication. Tyme to repair. Mercury, god of communication, tricksters, thieves, and messages.

We'll see. On that note, i'm heading offline, because this post, due to other distractions, has taken me over an hour to write. I'll see you all later.

Day Dream