Taking a Cue from Uncle Warren
Mar. 14th, 2006 04:54 pmI want to talk about the Future. I want to talk about TransHumanism, and bio-mechanica. I want to talk about your future, my future, our future.
I want to talk about life, and the nature of things.
I think Giger, when I think Transhumanism. I think biomech. Emphasis on neither.
I despise the way things seem to be going, now that i'm back in classes. Maybe it's post-midterm malaise, or some other such bullshit, but listening to people talk on and on about nothing, never making plans, always staying below the line of sight, all I want to do is pound faces into the concrete again, and again, and again.
I am constantly reminded of what
thenowhere once told me: "You're not hitting hard enough."
My father recently offered me the position of CKO, within his company. It's only now sinking in what that will entail.
My writing seems to be... mired in mediocrity, of late, and i'm getting B's and B+'s, but i've not received a single A, on anything, this semester. Something has gone awry.
I've been reading more and more of the D.C. Noir stories, and, as I do so, the map in my head gets clearer and clearer. I remember how to get around the city of my birth, and I remember what I loved about that place.
Tell me what you want. Tell me why you're here. Tell me what you want to know and tell me who you are.
Tell me a story about your future, your present, your past. And it damn well better mean something to you.
I want to talk about life, and the nature of things.
I think Giger, when I think Transhumanism. I think biomech. Emphasis on neither.
I despise the way things seem to be going, now that i'm back in classes. Maybe it's post-midterm malaise, or some other such bullshit, but listening to people talk on and on about nothing, never making plans, always staying below the line of sight, all I want to do is pound faces into the concrete again, and again, and again.
I am constantly reminded of what
My father recently offered me the position of CKO, within his company. It's only now sinking in what that will entail.
My writing seems to be... mired in mediocrity, of late, and i'm getting B's and B+'s, but i've not received a single A, on anything, this semester. Something has gone awry.
I've been reading more and more of the D.C. Noir stories, and, as I do so, the map in my head gets clearer and clearer. I remember how to get around the city of my birth, and I remember what I loved about that place.
Tell me what you want. Tell me why you're here. Tell me what you want to know and tell me who you are.
Tell me a story about your future, your present, your past. And it damn well better mean something to you.
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Date: 2006-03-14 11:23 pm (UTC)I am here b/c you have a lot to write and I like to read it, though I disagree with most of it.
I am Here so that I others may see me and realize that they do not want to walk my path, with the intent that they start walking with a purpose they never understood before.
I want to know how to translate my lot in life into a career for life.
I am just some dude. As such, I have "just" the information you were looking for if only you are willing to ask me for it and brave enough to beleive me.
I once met someone and we became friends. We were good friends and my world was brighter than it had been. Even so, I decided I wanted more. I tried to take more than this friend was willing to give and we became enemies. Afterwards, I learned that I had come to the decison to be greedy with faulty intelligence. I tried to correct my mistake, but it was too late to repair the damage.
Time passed. The enemy approached me with an olive branch. I was caught off guard. Instead of embracing them and their offer I...misreacted and the offer of peace was withdrawn. Despite being at fault for the retraction, I became angry and attacked my enemy in order to seek revenge. This, of course, backfired and I suffered more than I they did. I eventually realized the new folly of my old ways and sought to change myself. I informed my enemy of this revelation and retreated to enact my plan of inner renewal.
Time passed and we became strangers. I examined what led to this outcome and realized a lot of the pain, suffering, and misunderstandings could have been avoided. If I had understood how to see the world thru my friend's eyes we could have communicated better. The communication would have led to better understanding of each other or at least of each other's persepctives. We would have gained a stronger bond and deeper respect. However, we did not and I regretted that for a long time. This regret clouded my mind's eye and helped us become enemies and eventually strangers.
SInce then, I have tried to always be aware of the other person's point of view. I have strived to look at circumstances from another's persective and not act rashly. I constantly attempt to apply what I learned back then to my now so that my maybe will not turn out the same way. I have recently failed, though not as poorly as before. I was tempted to give up, but that would have gotten me nowhere and I am already quite familiar with those environs. This is my most important story. It has defined all the ones that came after it. I am always working to ensure that any further connotations from it do not evoke the dark meanings that began casting their shadows in Winter 1997.
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Thank you for the story.
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Date: 2006-03-15 05:35 am (UTC)no subject
I wrote a story about that once. The best example of order and chaos.
Thank you.
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Date: 2006-03-16 12:30 am (UTC)no subject
Seeking enlightenment over the internet is a cop-out, but worthy attempt.
Date: 2006-03-15 12:18 pm (UTC)...or, you could consider this an answer to all of the above.
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Eventually, silence is an answer, I guess.
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Date: 2006-03-15 05:37 pm (UTC)Tell me a story about your future, your present, your past. And it damn well better mean something to you.
Personally, I won't answer this unless you ask in person.
wasn't silence, though, was it?
There was a statement, which -could- be used as an answer to all (stated) queries.
(You don't usually have to be prodded like this. Everything ok?)
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Thank you for asking.
And yes, it can be an answer to all of them. There was menat to be an "even" before that "silence," but it was awkward. Anything's an answer, if either party is willing to reinterpret the question.
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Date: 2006-03-15 05:39 pm (UTC)Not everyone is even remotely interested in enlightenment, nor should they be.
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Date: 2006-03-15 06:00 pm (UTC)Re: Seeking enlightenment over the internet is a cop-out, but worthy attempt.
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Date: 2006-03-15 06:15 pm (UTC)Re: Seeking enlightenment over the internet is a cop-out, but worthy attempt.
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Date: 2006-03-15 09:28 pm (UTC)Re: Seeking enlightenment over the internet is a cop-out, but worthy attempt.
Date: 2006-03-15 11:02 pm (UTC)Re: Seeking enlightenment over the internet is a cop-out, but worthy attempt.
Re: Seeking enlightenment over the internet is a cop-out, but worthy attempt.
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Date: 2006-03-15 01:16 pm (UTC)the story you'll have to get later
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I'll get the story from you soon enough.
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Date: 2006-03-15 09:47 pm (UTC)i reopened the metaphysical/ghosty/whatever side of my brain. i have also started new medications recently. stories attached to those:
first meds: benzodiazepines, in all forms. i take them to sleep. consequently, they cause AMAZINGLY real dreams. sex dreams so good that i actually reach full orgasm more than once. i've been told this is difficult for a girl to do in dream form. and it's not because i'm masturbating in my sleep. it is AMAZING. *shudders*
second med: the nuva ring! that's right kids. the liz is FINALLY on a birth control that doesn't make her want to heave 24/7 and doesn't screw my thyroid up too much (as long as i stay on the thyroid hormone meds). i'm surprisingly NOT allergic to what it is made of, even though i'm allergic to most everything external (latex, all metal, many synthetics, i think i'm even allergic to surgical steel...). my cysts are getting better. best part: MY BREASTS ARE HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! once i get a more supportive bra, i'll find my way to you, and everyone can marvel at how thrilled i am about the new support system *nods*
third med: armour thyroid. i am now taking pig thyroid, in pill form. they dry the thryoid, crush it up, then put it in pill form. it smells sort of like sweet pork rinds. i'm not kidding. it makes me laugh. oh, and i hate pork of all kinds, always have. this is the only form of the pig i have consumed since i was probably 7 years old.
and the metaphysical: i can feel reiki again! the demons don't bother me as much. i'm much more confident. i exude power, it's amazing. i can talk to stuff that i haven't talked to in a while. and metaphysical sex is teh bomb! i can't get pregnant... but i wish i knew what/who i was having sex with. hmm..
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Date: 2006-03-16 12:16 am (UTC)no subject
Thank you. We should talk more, soon.
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Date: 2006-03-16 02:13 pm (UTC)i can list you and girly if money is a problem. can't supply the ride or booze though (i don't drink anymore).
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Date: 2006-03-16 01:10 am (UTC)I want to See again. I want to light the sky and then tear it open.
I want to quit being down on myself, to be able to really see me how you do.
I want my computer, and a Wacom tablet, so I can make the things in my head, again.
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Date: 2006-03-16 06:05 am (UTC)I don't know how to make the middle part happen, and even if I did, it's not for me to Make Happen. But I'll help however I can.
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Date: 2006-03-16 07:50 pm (UTC)You want something that means something to me? Endings, endings mean something. All that ever matters is how close to Happily Ever After we get.
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Date: 2006-03-20 10:46 pm (UTC)no subject