Here's your damned Update!

[wolven7]

KMFDM - [Ready to Blow]--- Hallowe'en party, here, Saturday. You know that. "I gave you that, on the Sheet!" One cookie.

I'm feeling the effects of autumn, again. Time warpy, powerful, and insecure, all at once. Smoking tastes terrible, and i'm not even trying to quit. I smeel woodsmoke, and leaves, and am extremely happy. (Veruca Salt - [With David Bowie]). I'm having a hard time simply doing the things i need to do, and writing the things i need to write. It's starting to concern me, a little bit. I don't know what to do about it, because asking for advice, which I think will help, never does. No one can tell me anything that I don't already know, in regards to what I'm doing. I want to beat the hell out of something, but I don't have the resources to do that, in the context i would like. Still. I need and want a lot of things. (Yellow Machinegun - [Go Away]). The problem is i'm having a hard time motivating, and kicking my own ass.

I'm scared of graduate school, and the responsibilities i have, currently, to school, work, my family, and my friends. There's nothing I can do about them, without putting them down, and that's really not... something I can deal with.

Hindu Love Gods - [Walking Blues]--- But something's gotta give, right?

Tell me the things about you that scares you the most. Tell me what deep, dark, disgusting things you are seriously afraid of, in you. Don't try to shock or scare me. This isn't about me, and it probably won't work, anyway.

This is about you, right now.

I'm waiting.

{11.40pm:Gorillaz - [Dracula]--- While you're thinking: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20051028/ap_on_go_su_co/miers_withdraws }

Comments

[kitsuchan.livejournal.com]

Hah! I'd sort of hoped that she'd stay in the running and get rejected with bipartisan disdain. But withdrawing is good, too.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was hoping for that, too. But hey, it's all falling apart.

Time to show some unity behind something of actual merit, and worth.

[(Anonymous)]

i'm scared that i'd end up killing myself because i'm the one person i really hate.

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Winter won't come right, not here. Not in the brittle, bright, frozen-circuit-moonlight-deadblack way I need for the effects I love so much...But the autumn is nice. Not as fleeting.

What scares me, in me? The serpent, in the back of my head. The suffocating, cold, cruel things, and the enjoyment that it derives from those thoughts and deeds. The calculating things. Not the hunter so much as the killer. The potential for so much crazy, so much damage, that I know is here and have only partially experienced. Because coming to myself with my hands around someone's throat is enough to scare the shit out of me, to make me question my sanity even considering the purity of my hatred for that person.

I have a history of telling you "things"

[teididh.livejournal.com]

not, perhaps, that you don't know, but that you didn't know you knew.


love, peace, autumnal briskness

Re: I have a history of telling you "things"

[wolven.livejournal.com]

True enough. And not remembering that one knows can be really damned irritating, sometimes. Good to be reminded.