Interesting to me.
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wolven7Rasputina - [Vertrauen Allsterne]--- Things, in my head, these days, thoughts of stupidity, and the ideas that, you know, i can learn things. (Once Upon A Time - [Hello]). I am utter shite at maths, and symbollic logical truth tables. I just re-taught myself the latter, in better form than I had known them, previously. I know they'll be gone, tomorrow, but, for now, i know them. It works, for now. The more i do them, the more i work at them, the better I'll get.
I honestly believe that Dr Nahmias does not like me. I think he may respect my work, and the things i have to say but... We don't get along. He's not very friendly, at all. (Blondie - [Rip Her to Shreds]). And, perhaps, this is me, misunderstanding and idealising the Professor and Teaching/Research Assistant Dynamic, Thing, here, but... It seems off. I do my work, i turn it it, he sends me off. We don't laugh, or joke, or discuss things. I think... maybe. Hm. Self-Doubt is not the nature of my game, recently. I've simply thought about things, apprehended them, and done them. Or not done them. Depending. Hm.
I was thinking, before, of saying something along the lines of "And how am I supposed to talk to him, about this? I mean, it's not like I can just go up to him and say 'Hey, Dr. Nahmias, do you like me?'" (VNV Nation - [Honour]). But I realised some things. 1) He's the professor for whom I work. I assist. I do the things he needs, make suggestions, when appropriate, and that is, pretty much, It. We are not needed to get along, though that would be pretty nice. If it happens, it is a bonus. I can ask others-- former and current TA's and and Professors-- to see what the nature of their assisatantships have been. If they've been other than I am experiencing, currently, that leads us to
2) I can talk to him about it. It may well be that he's busy. He is an incoming professor. He may not have his feet fully under him, yet, in this new place. I can make it clear, that I can help.
We'll see.
Lots of Demonic, Arachnid, Alien, and Dark thoughts, today...
Saw "Intolerable Cruelty," while at my mother's. Dinner went well.
That's really about it, for now. So I guess I'll see you all later.
Ta, kids.
I honestly believe that Dr Nahmias does not like me. I think he may respect my work, and the things i have to say but... We don't get along. He's not very friendly, at all. (Blondie - [Rip Her to Shreds]). And, perhaps, this is me, misunderstanding and idealising the Professor and Teaching/Research Assistant Dynamic, Thing, here, but... It seems off. I do my work, i turn it it, he sends me off. We don't laugh, or joke, or discuss things. I think... maybe. Hm. Self-Doubt is not the nature of my game, recently. I've simply thought about things, apprehended them, and done them. Or not done them. Depending. Hm.
I was thinking, before, of saying something along the lines of "And how am I supposed to talk to him, about this? I mean, it's not like I can just go up to him and say 'Hey, Dr. Nahmias, do you like me?'" (VNV Nation - [Honour]). But I realised some things. 1) He's the professor for whom I work. I assist. I do the things he needs, make suggestions, when appropriate, and that is, pretty much, It. We are not needed to get along, though that would be pretty nice. If it happens, it is a bonus. I can ask others-- former and current TA's and and Professors-- to see what the nature of their assisatantships have been. If they've been other than I am experiencing, currently, that leads us to
2) I can talk to him about it. It may well be that he's busy. He is an incoming professor. He may not have his feet fully under him, yet, in this new place. I can make it clear, that I can help.
We'll see.
Lots of Demonic, Arachnid, Alien, and Dark thoughts, today...
Saw "Intolerable Cruelty," while at my mother's. Dinner went well.
That's really about it, for now. So I guess I'll see you all later.
Ta, kids.
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Date: 2005-09-26 02:23 pm (UTC)Shit seems to be piling up in your head, love.
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Date: 2005-09-26 06:37 pm (UTC)As you pointed out, you're just his assistant. He's a professor. What type of relationship did you expect beyond doing what you're asked to do? Does he talk down to you, ignore you, criticize you unfairly, or anything similar? If not, maybe he's just very formal and likes to seperate work from pleasure.
Look at it this way. On "ER", Dr. Carter was Dr. Benton's intern, and therefore, student. Carter was always feeling down cos he felt as Benton didn't like him. He was worried that Benton didn't appreciate his work and thought he was a lousy doctor. Once Carter became a Resident, he confronted Benton about his lack of charmingness.
"Carter, I never gave you a second thought. I was their to teach you, not be your friend."
At a later time, he also said that Carter turned out okay and that Carter needed to realize his role with his own students. You may want a more...jovial workpace and a bit more camraderie with those you work with and under. However, just b/c they don't return that sentiment doesn't mean they don't "like" you or your work. Maybe it just means they are not the friendly type and you're blowing this out of proportion.
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But it would be nice.
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Date: 2005-09-28 04:40 pm (UTC)no subject