Well, ok. That wasn't too bad... First day of Classes.

[wolven7]

You know that feeling i mentioned? The one like being the Smart kids, in a special club? It doesn't go away, when all of your classes are in one building, on one floor, in one room. Every class i have, on Mondays and Wednesdays, is in the Seminar Room, in the Philosophy and Religious Studies offices. I'm constantly surrounded by grad students, or upper-classmen, and the occassional fresh-faced fresman. They're so Cute, when they haven't been crushed by the weight of the world, yet... The point is, I feel like the "Cool Kid" who's been there forever, who knows where everything is, and can tell anyone how to get anywhere. How fucked up is that?

System of a Down - [Ego Brain]--- I have a 15-20 page paper, due in November. This is the longest paper i've ever had to do, and it's for Seminar in Philosophy of Mind. Apparently we're going to be discussing articles, in terms of whether they should be in a volume, being edited by Dr Nahmias. Topics include the influence of science on philosophical inquiries, where science and religion interconnect, and the nature of human agency, free will, and consciousness. It's part of the Brains & Behviour Project. (MC Frontalot - [Penny Arcade Theme]). The introduction of the Philosophy department is new, and long over due, in my opinion. It's a class about interconnections. I'm going to have to restrain myself, the first few weeks. Go slowly, and not devestate and alienate the poor people. I had to stop and think about some things, today...

Tool - [Ænema]--- Though i am most thoroughly "In My Element," i've never had to do some of the things i'm going to have to do, this semester. I'm going to have to write a Referee Response, which is a response to the paper of someone else in the class, after they finish it, as if i were looking at it for journal publication. I'm going to have to write a syllabus. I'm going to have to write a 15-page paper. I'm going to have to start thinking about my (extremely much longer than that) thesis, and those people whose presence i would like on my board of advisors. I'm going to have to learn how to kick ass, in a whole new genre. I had a flash, today, sitting in class, thinking about these things. I saw Hunter Rose, standing in a party, contempt rampant in his smile, and across his face, looking everywhere, for an equal. It clicked. That's what i have to do, no questions, no vacilations, no problem.

I simply have to Be Excellent.

I'm pretty sure i can do that.

I have things to read, and a movie to see. I'll talk to you later, my dear friends.

Wish me luck, and skill, and humility, and anything else you think i'll need. I'll see what i can do about granting it.

Comments

[raveblossom.livejournal.com]

i would love to write a 15-20 page paper on that topic. if you need some help i can already think of about 5-6 pages on one of the sub-topics. i just figured out what i think im going to do my thesis on and i think it will be awesome. and you do kick ass...so that won't be hard for you :)

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure i'll be fine. Thank you though.

And thank you, for that.

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Love, you need to bookmark or add this to your memories or tattoo it on your forehead, backwards, for those times when you're facing a paper in the teeth and down on it all, okay? Or just print it, photocopy it, and I can hand you a copy when you start getting all incircling.

And yes, love. No Questions. You Can do this. ^_^

[wolven.livejournal.com]

You're right. Just remind me, when i need it, and never let me forget those two words, ok?

Thank you

[mendori.livejournal.com]

*sigh*
Sorry, my own experiences take a lot of the shine off that image now.
Yours will be much better.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. And thank you.