Everything is falling apart.

[wolven7]

Tension, work building up, things presurring me into feeling like I have to get things done, or perish. And I do. I know that. (Electric Hellfire Club - [Where Violence Is Golden...]). But the more pressure i feel, and the more alone I feel, in terms of resources with which to deal with this, the less i want to do any of it.

The heart and soul of Approach-Avoidance, right there.

I contemplated, today, literally begging someone, something, anything not already involved, for help. Something to help me do this work, well and right. That is a definate factor that something is seriously wrong, with me. That that option not only Existed, but felt like the correct one...

Everything's close, and tense, and cracking. Spinning faster, and tighter. It's funneling down, and maybe this is just the start i need... but it feels off. Feels like a stumbling block too slippery to be a stepping stone.

And speaking of stepping, everyone's on everyone else's shit, and it's getting on My nerves.

Everything's getting on my nerves...

Feh. I've accomplished nothing. Still, it needed to be done.

Back later, perhaps.

Comments

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

The weave is shaking, just a little...something's uncertain (maybe it's how you're feeling?) and everything's rippling and following suit, things around you are off-balance, people too. Feel for the...against-the-grain, and smooth it over, like grooming fur.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Every time i try, more ripples and whorls appear. Not like normal every day life... different somehow... More lazily malicious...

I'll see what can be done. Always best to try...

Physical

[karishi.livejournal.com]

I recommend physical violence. Not against anything what's getting on your nerves, just...your body needs it. Got any old appliances that need to have Steve applied to them? If not, I can get you into the Woodruff PE Center on Emory, and they have many things designed to be hit.

Other than that suggestion...Here for you, man. There are a lot of us, here for you if you have need.
Er, not for the taking out of physical aggressions, mind you. Just here, in general, to assist.

Re: Physical

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I wish. I'll find something, i'm sure.