"It's easy; there's a trick to it."
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wolven7Oingo Boingo - [Just Another Day]--- I've been working on a lot of things, since i saw the movie. It was one of those things that made me really stop and think, "ok, so what the fuck are you doing about it?" And my answer, besides talking to people (read "yelling at"), is not much. I do some weird shit, when most people aren't paying attention. I talk about esoteric and abstract ideals, when they are. It comes down to the fact that i don't do or show enough of what i want to possibly be serious about reaching my goals. The over-arching ones, i mean. Life goals have... somewhat been encompassed, by other wants and desires. Supposed.
I'm trying to see things, today. Trying to manifest and make things happen. I need fire, and electricity, and and motion, in my life, right now, of a more controlled nature than the chaos that my life is... (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Cthulhu Dreams]). However, i guess i can't be angry that the chaos is chaotic. That's like going to a pasture and being angry at cows, for doing cow things. A silly, pointless exercise, and why did you go in the first place? To see the cows? Then see the cows, and appreciate the cowness, right? Yeah. Trying.
That's the thing, though. I say that i want so many things, from the universe, and, when things start to slip away, i start to recede into myself. I pull away, and put my goals off to the side. I don't have the spiteful fire i used to use to get things done, when the universe said i couldn't. At least, not in my opinion. Maybe i simply have a low opinion of myself for failing at omnipotence. Because i can't do/fix/touch/weave everything, yet. I've tried, and i've believed, with all my being, and i get small things, and yes, that's discouraging. I abhor "group work," as some would put it, but i crave being able to have a team. Not a group of people all doing the same thing, or working on the same lesson, but a team of people, woven together (i said that, before), each adding their own talents to an Ultimate goal. When i think of the team i'd like, i can only compare it to the way the Four Horsemen work, together. They know each others' strengths and weaknesses, and they form and interlocking wave, with the ultimate goal being accomplished.
Only it's not about wiping out life, on the planet, for my idealised, hyopothetical team; it's about bringing down barriers of thought, making people realise the power they have, inherent, to change anything in their lives. And some would call that reactionary, to a stagnant state, a state of non-responsive, irresponsible mind. (Prince of Persia - Sands of Time - [Time Only Knows]). Maybe it is. Maybe it can be seen that way. But it's been a driving force of mine, since i knew (really knew) what reponsibility and power were.
I had an interesting conversation with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
beard, after the movie, Saturday. We were discussing the factor of belief, in all things you do, especially in changing the world, at a Quantum level. The basis of it is this: What we see, percieve, concieve, understand, and believe shaps the world, through our thoughs and actions. It shapes what we Can see, and the patterns to which we are open. This is... unconsciously known, by most everyone. (Siouxsie & The Banshees - [Dear Prudence]). Now, if this belief shapes the world, then a few people believing in magic, synchronistic quantum mechanical effects, or whatever the fuck you want to call it, is hard-pressed to counter to the millions of others who think that that kind of thinking is nonsense. Even when you explain, show them the maths, or the workable realities of the situation, they refuse to believe. So their belief (or lack thereof) shapes the world into something not so easily malleable, by belief itself.
There is more work required, now. More proof, and not simply what we can see with our eyes, but what we can fully comprehend, with our minds. (Voltaire - [Ravens Land]). People demand to be able to understand things, before they accept them, when it's something they don't like, or something that doesn't mesh. They don't trust the medicine man, any more, even though his wisdom is what got him where he is. But they don't like it, remember? So they are harder pressed to believe it. They demand more and more proof. And that's what this is about, i guess. The fact that people demanded magic to be explained by science, and we gave them quantum mechanics, and they demand that to be explained, and we say "how better can we prove this to you? Do you want us to rearrage your cells, to feed off of gravel, or do you want us to reiforce your freewill, and choice?"
Smashing Pumpkins - [1979]--- Responsibility is a scary thing, when you're only used to it in day to day shite, and not, you know, whether or not you ever die. But they're not really that different. Not really.
Later, all. Off to put my head through more brick walls, maybe my own.
< /self-pitty> < /transmission>
I'm trying to see things, today. Trying to manifest and make things happen. I need fire, and electricity, and and motion, in my life, right now, of a more controlled nature than the chaos that my life is... (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Cthulhu Dreams]). However, i guess i can't be angry that the chaos is chaotic. That's like going to a pasture and being angry at cows, for doing cow things. A silly, pointless exercise, and why did you go in the first place? To see the cows? Then see the cows, and appreciate the cowness, right? Yeah. Trying.
That's the thing, though. I say that i want so many things, from the universe, and, when things start to slip away, i start to recede into myself. I pull away, and put my goals off to the side. I don't have the spiteful fire i used to use to get things done, when the universe said i couldn't. At least, not in my opinion. Maybe i simply have a low opinion of myself for failing at omnipotence. Because i can't do/fix/touch/weave everything, yet. I've tried, and i've believed, with all my being, and i get small things, and yes, that's discouraging. I abhor "group work," as some would put it, but i crave being able to have a team. Not a group of people all doing the same thing, or working on the same lesson, but a team of people, woven together (i said that, before), each adding their own talents to an Ultimate goal. When i think of the team i'd like, i can only compare it to the way the Four Horsemen work, together. They know each others' strengths and weaknesses, and they form and interlocking wave, with the ultimate goal being accomplished.
Only it's not about wiping out life, on the planet, for my idealised, hyopothetical team; it's about bringing down barriers of thought, making people realise the power they have, inherent, to change anything in their lives. And some would call that reactionary, to a stagnant state, a state of non-responsive, irresponsible mind. (Prince of Persia - Sands of Time - [Time Only Knows]). Maybe it is. Maybe it can be seen that way. But it's been a driving force of mine, since i knew (really knew) what reponsibility and power were.
I had an interesting conversation with
beard, after the movie, Saturday. We were discussing the factor of belief, in all things you do, especially in changing the world, at a Quantum level. The basis of it is this: What we see, percieve, concieve, understand, and believe shaps the world, through our thoughs and actions. It shapes what we Can see, and the patterns to which we are open. This is... unconsciously known, by most everyone. (Siouxsie & The Banshees - [Dear Prudence]). Now, if this belief shapes the world, then a few people believing in magic, synchronistic quantum mechanical effects, or whatever the fuck you want to call it, is hard-pressed to counter to the millions of others who think that that kind of thinking is nonsense. Even when you explain, show them the maths, or the workable realities of the situation, they refuse to believe. So their belief (or lack thereof) shapes the world into something not so easily malleable, by belief itself.There is more work required, now. More proof, and not simply what we can see with our eyes, but what we can fully comprehend, with our minds. (Voltaire - [Ravens Land]). People demand to be able to understand things, before they accept them, when it's something they don't like, or something that doesn't mesh. They don't trust the medicine man, any more, even though his wisdom is what got him where he is. But they don't like it, remember? So they are harder pressed to believe it. They demand more and more proof. And that's what this is about, i guess. The fact that people demanded magic to be explained by science, and we gave them quantum mechanics, and they demand that to be explained, and we say "how better can we prove this to you? Do you want us to rearrage your cells, to feed off of gravel, or do you want us to reiforce your freewill, and choice?"
Smashing Pumpkins - [1979]--- Responsibility is a scary thing, when you're only used to it in day to day shite, and not, you know, whether or not you ever die. But they're not really that different. Not really.
Later, all. Off to put my head through more brick walls, maybe my own.
< /self-pitty> < /transmission>
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Date: 2004-09-20 10:25 am (UTC)no subject
And i put all of my mp3s up, and put them on Random. It's the Omnes playlist, and patterns start to emerge. ;)
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Date: 2004-09-20 03:11 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-09-20 07:29 pm (UTC)Anywho, you have the fire, you just need fuel for it, and direction. You need the fineness of a jeweler's torch, not the smoldering bonfire you usually nurture in yourself.
And your Team is more like the Horsemen than you think; only it's not about physical death, but a mental and psychic one and subsequent rebirth. Showing people, and Showing them until their minds split open and a new one is born there from itself. But how do you think they'd work so well together, other than Working? You can't do all of this alone, and you also can't expect to be able to work alongside others while wanting to do it alone...
About the few having to go up against the belief and existence of many? I Said that already. While ago. XP
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The problem is that in Working, i get very frustrated when goals don't align, and when people don't pull their weight, because they can't figure out what they're trying to do. I need people who know what they're trying to get done, how they want to get it done, and how to integrate that into the workings of others. Not people who fly off, into the yonder, half-cocked, and confused. And i need more people i can trust. Until the people i can trust are close enough to me, on all levels, this is a crap-shoot.
And i know you said it, before. It's just the way it came up, in the conversation, and it was on my mind.
You said...
Date: 2004-09-26 03:34 am (UTC)Check Newsweek: Science has finally caught on that faith healing works.
Oh, and regarding the Four Horsemen:
I get to be Weird. I got dibs.
Re: You said...
Ok. But i get to be Observation.