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wolven7Wümpscüt - [Krieg]--- I went and thought, and talked, and considered the state of things. I was told and realised that all of these things have a similar cause and factoring. Acorns falling from trees have a common cause: Something shook the branch enough to drop them. What that something was becomes the focus, and then you work an angle, if they share the same cause. But, shit, with acorns, you may as well just go ahead and plant 'em, or make pancakes. So the analogy isn't perfect, you get what i mean.
The people around me, now, are not what i'm looking for. They are bits and pieces, as i like to call it, echoes of the thing i'm trying to hear. I've said this before, as i've said the following: I can either take something from those pieces, and make an abstract whole, or i can keep searching, or i can tell myself that i'll never find that kind of whole that i need/want. Haven't really decided that part, yet. It's weird, because... All i really want is someone to give a shit about the big picture.
Save Ferris - [The World Is New]--- There is shit going down, and there are things changing, in many spheres, and all i ask if for something in the way of consideration, and work, on the whole. So many people are focused on themselves, and you'll never hear me call that a bad thing, of itself, but when there are other factors, then Yes, it can be a detriment. If you are handed solutions, or a set of solutions to a set of personal issues, and yet continue to focus on that aspect, rather than discerning, deciding, and moving on... Well, it gets in the way, to say the least.
Liars - [Flow My Tears the Spider Said]--- That's really what i'm lamenting, at this point. I'm dealing with people, in a situation of moving, and recombination, where it seems that no one cares/understands/thinks important what will happen to the social dynamic upon which so many have grown dependent, here. Things will, in fact, change. And maybe, for many, that's a good thing, and for others it's an indifferent thing, and maybe, for me, i'm seeing it, because i'm so used to it. Because every house i've ever lived in has become The House. The definate article, even if we end[ed] up congregating somewhere else. And then that breaks down, and there's... shifting.
Once per year, or more.
Talks with an ex-father giving ex-fatherly advice, telling me to look at the way things have become, around here, and ask myself what it is i'm trying to protect and preserve. Not as a means of prodding me into excising, but as an honest question. I'm still thinking on that.
I really want to be more open and receptive, to these conversations, remembering more than feeling states, and impulses... I want to remember specifics... But, as it stands, as we agreed, i need to work on simply implimenting what i already remember.
The Dresden Dolls - [Truce]--- I'm going to go to bed, after i write some e-mail. The war-in-my-head is called, on account of blood rain and flaming hail.
Dream Well
The people around me, now, are not what i'm looking for. They are bits and pieces, as i like to call it, echoes of the thing i'm trying to hear. I've said this before, as i've said the following: I can either take something from those pieces, and make an abstract whole, or i can keep searching, or i can tell myself that i'll never find that kind of whole that i need/want. Haven't really decided that part, yet. It's weird, because... All i really want is someone to give a shit about the big picture.
Save Ferris - [The World Is New]--- There is shit going down, and there are things changing, in many spheres, and all i ask if for something in the way of consideration, and work, on the whole. So many people are focused on themselves, and you'll never hear me call that a bad thing, of itself, but when there are other factors, then Yes, it can be a detriment. If you are handed solutions, or a set of solutions to a set of personal issues, and yet continue to focus on that aspect, rather than discerning, deciding, and moving on... Well, it gets in the way, to say the least.
Liars - [Flow My Tears the Spider Said]--- That's really what i'm lamenting, at this point. I'm dealing with people, in a situation of moving, and recombination, where it seems that no one cares/understands/thinks important what will happen to the social dynamic upon which so many have grown dependent, here. Things will, in fact, change. And maybe, for many, that's a good thing, and for others it's an indifferent thing, and maybe, for me, i'm seeing it, because i'm so used to it. Because every house i've ever lived in has become The House. The definate article, even if we end[ed] up congregating somewhere else. And then that breaks down, and there's... shifting.
Once per year, or more.
Talks with an ex-father giving ex-fatherly advice, telling me to look at the way things have become, around here, and ask myself what it is i'm trying to protect and preserve. Not as a means of prodding me into excising, but as an honest question. I'm still thinking on that.
I really want to be more open and receptive, to these conversations, remembering more than feeling states, and impulses... I want to remember specifics... But, as it stands, as we agreed, i need to work on simply implimenting what i already remember.
The Dresden Dolls - [Truce]--- I'm going to go to bed, after i write some e-mail. The war-in-my-head is called, on account of blood rain and flaming hail.
Dream Well
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Date: 2004-08-15 06:13 am (UTC)Perhaps if you opened up to them?
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Date: 2004-08-15 03:04 pm (UTC)no subject
And no, i chave no problem connecting to them, it's the other way around that seems... Iffy.
Wait...
Date: 2004-08-16 10:54 pm (UTC)Re: Wait...
And it's listening.