Heretics and Showboaters....
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wolven7Rachel's& Matmos - [The Precise Temperature of Darkness]--- I think that, everything i do, all of my schools of thought will always be thought of as heretical, or wrong, by every group, and will be at least partially disagreed with, by every individual, once they get to know it in depth, because they don't see, at first the level of Infinity i mean. And that it does include them,a nd their one-sidedness, too. I let myself forget that, for a while. That everything makes up that infinity. That without the biggotry, and anger, and hatred, and closed-mindedness, infinity could not be itself. It would be "Infinity-Except_______." And that's... no where near as amazing, to me...
I wonder, tonight, if my parents wish that i'd gone another way. If they wish i'd become closer to God, or more studious, or stuck with my maths, in ways that they knew, understood, and could deal with, or if that's just my projections. My mother is a Baptist minister, for Christ's sake... Pun as it will. I can't talk with her about what i fully believe, because it runs directly counter to everyhting that she believes. Or so she thinks. The doctrine is... flexible, at least. It's in the interpretations, and the only problem people have with mine, is that it's confusing. Well you know what? So is the universe.
I joke, not "Talk," with my dad, about religion. With me and him, it's something to maybe give some structure, maybe a loose basis, for understanding, but never a final solution. Weird, i think, considering the women in his life. Point, Counter-Point, i guess... But even still, my dad only get s the technical aspects of my inquiries. Not the spiritualist side, or the Divinity of Quanta, or any of that... Not much, anyway, in any more than the academic... Tryiing to discuss the practicallity... Well. I'm a scientific Heretic, too. Always have been.
My parents sent me to the best schools they could (and a lot of the time couldn't) afford, and they gave me the environment and te opporunities, to learn and grow.
The Dresden Dolls - [The Perfect Fit]--- I just worry (and where does worrying ever really get us? Especially when we worry about what is, and what has been, and don't think about what Is and Can Be?) that, maybe, they were trying to cultivate something else. Something.... Else....
"Funny how slipping years ahead, has held me back..."
I wonder, tonight, if my parents wish that i'd gone another way. If they wish i'd become closer to God, or more studious, or stuck with my maths, in ways that they knew, understood, and could deal with, or if that's just my projections. My mother is a Baptist minister, for Christ's sake... Pun as it will. I can't talk with her about what i fully believe, because it runs directly counter to everyhting that she believes. Or so she thinks. The doctrine is... flexible, at least. It's in the interpretations, and the only problem people have with mine, is that it's confusing. Well you know what? So is the universe.
I joke, not "Talk," with my dad, about religion. With me and him, it's something to maybe give some structure, maybe a loose basis, for understanding, but never a final solution. Weird, i think, considering the women in his life. Point, Counter-Point, i guess... But even still, my dad only get s the technical aspects of my inquiries. Not the spiritualist side, or the Divinity of Quanta, or any of that... Not much, anyway, in any more than the academic... Tryiing to discuss the practicallity... Well. I'm a scientific Heretic, too. Always have been.
My parents sent me to the best schools they could (and a lot of the time couldn't) afford, and they gave me the environment and te opporunities, to learn and grow.
The Dresden Dolls - [The Perfect Fit]--- I just worry (and where does worrying ever really get us? Especially when we worry about what is, and what has been, and don't think about what Is and Can Be?) that, maybe, they were trying to cultivate something else. Something.... Else....
"Funny how slipping years ahead, has held me back..."
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Date: 2004-07-01 09:43 pm (UTC)And that doens't quite work, either. *hugs*
Damon Albarn& Michael Nyman - [Boyd's Journey]
Eh.
*hugs*
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Date: 2004-07-01 10:04 pm (UTC)no subject