Jaded to goals.
May. 29th, 2004 01:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Snake River Conspiracy - [Vulcan]--- Something often discussed, around... everywhere, as a symptom. What i mean is that we look at the fact that we've lost fire for something, and try to rekindle the fire, instead of fully understanding why it went out, in the first place. Treating a cold with symptom relievers, instead of integrating the cold, and making it a symbiotic component of our systems, kind of thing. So, the question obviously becomes "What causes the fire to go out?" And that's simple to answer, really. Either something douses it, or there's nothing to feed it. Sometimes this is the same thing.
If you don't get some form of reassurance, be it internal change and growth in ability, or someone, outside of you, making note, at least, then you start to wonder where it's all going. (Tool - [Comfortably Numb (Pink Floyd Cover)]). If enough people come along, all at once, and tell you that what you're doing is meaningless, to them, then you'll start to lose any idea of what you're doing and why. That is, of course and unfortunately, assuming that your goals are things that would intentionally affect other people. (Hellsing - [R&R with Saint Dracula]). If they aren't that, then, really, there's not much to worry about, except the universe not working with you... Which can be aggrivating, to say the least, maddening and depressing, to say the worst. Even if your goals are personal, however, and not... Sweepingly Ambitious, there's a pain, when what you want seems so very far away.
Pain - [In a Band]--- The "cure," you ask? Well, i honestly don't know. I don't know what one solution will work for the billions of people, on this planet, with their vastly different to vastly similar goals, and be able to continually bring them back to their Whys and What Fors. If you're working for others, and no one seems to care, then that's.... Well that's on them. The only thing you can really do, there, is keep trying in different ways, until one of them clicks, even if only for one person. (Pain - [Umbrella]). Then you try again, new different ways, again and again. That, in some respects, is easier than working on a self-driven goal, because there is a "larger picture" to help keep you going, whatever it happens to be. When you're working on personal things, certain areas need to be constantly re-inforced.
Plans are generally good, here, to keep from falling into the "Nothing is Working" frame of mind. (Ruby - [Tiny Meat]). With a plan, you have a course of action, but it helps, i think, to make sure that here, like everything else, you remain flexible, and your plan adaptable... The goal is the thing, and that's where the Feeling is, not the plan or path to get you there. Yes, the path should resonate, but it's also going to Change, at some point. Everything changes, it's simply a matter of how, and how you change, with it. Tangential. The point being, that's how you try to keep from falling. But if you do fall... and nothing is working, and doesn't look like it ever will... and/or you start to wonder why you're still at it... what then?
Lamb - [Gabriel]--- When things seem so distant, and the spark, and shine is dim, on it, what to do? Feed it. Remind yourself, however you need to-- but not by irreparable means-- that what you're doing is correct. Find any instance you can, showing that goal. Work in a place, go to the place, find the person, meditate, anything, but show yourself that it matters, and why it matters, to you.Take the founding thoughts and impeti, and extrapolate, and grow them, to fit the new situations. Add on, recombine, mutate. Hell, if you have to make your Reasoning to your Goal some kind of Shellian conglomerate/slickly evolved, determined biomechanic beast, then you do it. (VNV Nation - [Solitary]) And if you're willing to do that, then that tells you you're willing to keep striving for it.
If you're not willing to do that, then it's time to re-examine the goals, themslves, in deeper measure. Change what they mean, represent, are, to you. Change your goals, to fit you. People do it, all the time, and they don't even realise it, so they continue on, with those same symptoms, because they aren't watching as they shift and move, and are only focusing on what they had, what they wanted, instead of what meshes best with and comes from them. Intent, again, is what i'm trying to say. Perception, Awareness, Intent, Choice, all woven together, in some kind of horrid SuperString Braid, in my mind.
And, yeah, that still resonates, so that's ok.
Had some really standard apocalyptic dreams, the important part being the end, where there was something about a video store/walmart kind of place, where we were looking for supplies and batteries. Finding very certain things all of which somehow meant that things were going to be ok, everything was going to be destroyed, but people would grow, or something. But mainly that everything would be ok. The place was like a combination circuit city, sam goody, and wal-marat/taget, and the Sam Goody aspect was the strongest. (A.F.I. - [Morning Star]). Sam Goody has always been the music store i've known best, ever since i was a kid. Weird Georgetown vibes, a lot, in my dreams, of recent.
That's pretty much it. Later.
If you don't get some form of reassurance, be it internal change and growth in ability, or someone, outside of you, making note, at least, then you start to wonder where it's all going. (Tool - [Comfortably Numb (Pink Floyd Cover)]). If enough people come along, all at once, and tell you that what you're doing is meaningless, to them, then you'll start to lose any idea of what you're doing and why. That is, of course and unfortunately, assuming that your goals are things that would intentionally affect other people. (Hellsing - [R&R with Saint Dracula]). If they aren't that, then, really, there's not much to worry about, except the universe not working with you... Which can be aggrivating, to say the least, maddening and depressing, to say the worst. Even if your goals are personal, however, and not... Sweepingly Ambitious, there's a pain, when what you want seems so very far away.
Pain - [In a Band]--- The "cure," you ask? Well, i honestly don't know. I don't know what one solution will work for the billions of people, on this planet, with their vastly different to vastly similar goals, and be able to continually bring them back to their Whys and What Fors. If you're working for others, and no one seems to care, then that's.... Well that's on them. The only thing you can really do, there, is keep trying in different ways, until one of them clicks, even if only for one person. (Pain - [Umbrella]). Then you try again, new different ways, again and again. That, in some respects, is easier than working on a self-driven goal, because there is a "larger picture" to help keep you going, whatever it happens to be. When you're working on personal things, certain areas need to be constantly re-inforced.
Plans are generally good, here, to keep from falling into the "Nothing is Working" frame of mind. (Ruby - [Tiny Meat]). With a plan, you have a course of action, but it helps, i think, to make sure that here, like everything else, you remain flexible, and your plan adaptable... The goal is the thing, and that's where the Feeling is, not the plan or path to get you there. Yes, the path should resonate, but it's also going to Change, at some point. Everything changes, it's simply a matter of how, and how you change, with it. Tangential. The point being, that's how you try to keep from falling. But if you do fall... and nothing is working, and doesn't look like it ever will... and/or you start to wonder why you're still at it... what then?
Lamb - [Gabriel]--- When things seem so distant, and the spark, and shine is dim, on it, what to do? Feed it. Remind yourself, however you need to-- but not by irreparable means-- that what you're doing is correct. Find any instance you can, showing that goal. Work in a place, go to the place, find the person, meditate, anything, but show yourself that it matters, and why it matters, to you.Take the founding thoughts and impeti, and extrapolate, and grow them, to fit the new situations. Add on, recombine, mutate. Hell, if you have to make your Reasoning to your Goal some kind of Shellian conglomerate/slickly evolved, determined biomechanic beast, then you do it. (VNV Nation - [Solitary]) And if you're willing to do that, then that tells you you're willing to keep striving for it.
If you're not willing to do that, then it's time to re-examine the goals, themslves, in deeper measure. Change what they mean, represent, are, to you. Change your goals, to fit you. People do it, all the time, and they don't even realise it, so they continue on, with those same symptoms, because they aren't watching as they shift and move, and are only focusing on what they had, what they wanted, instead of what meshes best with and comes from them. Intent, again, is what i'm trying to say. Perception, Awareness, Intent, Choice, all woven together, in some kind of horrid SuperString Braid, in my mind.
And, yeah, that still resonates, so that's ok.
Had some really standard apocalyptic dreams, the important part being the end, where there was something about a video store/walmart kind of place, where we were looking for supplies and batteries. Finding very certain things all of which somehow meant that things were going to be ok, everything was going to be destroyed, but people would grow, or something. But mainly that everything would be ok. The place was like a combination circuit city, sam goody, and wal-marat/taget, and the Sam Goody aspect was the strongest. (A.F.I. - [Morning Star]). Sam Goody has always been the music store i've known best, ever since i was a kid. Weird Georgetown vibes, a lot, in my dreams, of recent.
That's pretty much it. Later.
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Date: 2004-05-29 11:40 am (UTC)So we'll both be good if we just keep throwing this in one another's faces when we get shitty on oneself. ^_^
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