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wolven7Jack Off Jill - [Strawberry Gashes]--- Long few days.... Lots of things going on, and a lot of them involve people wanting something from me. Your life is really weird, when you're living it, and are of an intro... exo... retro... Well, of a -spective nature. Because you see things, and the significance of them-- the time, the care, the thought, put into very specific action, by certain people-- more than many others. Taking something for granted, is just that. It is granted, why question it? (Bobgoblin - [Nine]). Because you might fucking learn something, you git... But that's... exactly the point.
I talk to my dad, and he tells me to take the time and focus on myself, and the things i want and need. My mom tells me to focus on all of the things, in the world-- job, financial aid, menial labour, school-- and, while it's for the Exact Same Reasons, it's not presented to me as a choice. It is given as "You made this bed, now lie in it," rather than "Well here's a bed. You made it. You also have these other things, over here, you could do." Which is why i've always felt it easier to get along with my dad, even though i love my mom. More emotional connection, with my mom. But i need both. That was a random bit of stuff...
Jack Off Jill, Remix BySynical - [Cumdumpster (Delusional Cannibal Mix)]--- I'm looking, again, at people, and what they want (that's four or five, this year), and noticing, and articulating something that i knew, from a long time ago. Came to a conclusion or two, through a brief misunderstanding with someone, that i don't want others to focus on, or talk about me, most of the time, because that's not their job. While i'm alive, that's for me to do. Yeah i do things, and yeah i can teach things, but so can anyone else, and, beyond a brief mention that i may be able to do something, for someone, i really don't like most people singing my praises.
Voltaire - [God Thinks]--- There are... other levels to this. I don't mean "Don't Fucking Talk about me!" I mean "Don't you dare fucking talk about me, in a worshipful light." That's not Me. If you want to talk about me, do it from a level of equality, and knowing that you are just as good as i am, if not better, because you're You, and i'm Not. I am not your source of awe. And i know, i absolutely know that right now, some of you are saying "No shit, you're not. You're not That cool, boy." Good. That's very good. Remember this, when you come three days in a row to my door, IM window, telephone, etc, asking for help, because only i can fix it...
Noah Stone - [Dark & Brooding]--- No you will never put it in those words, and yeah, sometimes people just need people to talk to, but i can tell you Right Now, that all the advice i will Ever give you will be ways to better understand yourself, so that you never, ever have to ask me for advice, again. I expect (meaning, in my idiom, "would like") the same thing, from you. Because people who aren't you can see more of the surrounding angles, a lot of the time. And that's good. But you should get to a point where you see them, yourself, because you're fucking everywhere. Which brings us back to the crux of this whole thing.
All i want for... Existence.. Is for everyone to become their own little individual permutation of Infinity, and be Happy with who they are. (Moxy Früvous - [Beware The Killer Tents]). This means that, if they aren't happy, they can change, until they Are happy. *sigh*
This has been your quarterly Vitrolic Brow-Beating Arrogance Invective, brought to you by Figure It Out Your Damn Self. Figure It Out Your Damn Self: "Mmm-MM! That's good Self Sufficience!"
Marilyn Manson - [Tainted Love (Cover)]--- We're back to that place, where i want people not to have Idols, and start recognizing those Idolized Qualities, in themselves, and working toward them. Yeah. That. Difficult, innit? Damn it.
Later.
{1.02am: Today could be a lusty day, WOLVEN, where you fantasize about something or somebody that you want. It's possible that this person is unattainable. Maybe they're already in a relationship, and you shouldn't meddle. Or you could dream about meeting someone who reminds you of your favorite celebrity. This might not happen, but if you keep your feet planted firmly on the ground today, you should gain some insight into how to turn your dreams into reality.
Pain - [Umbrella]--- Funny. Ha. Ha.}
I talk to my dad, and he tells me to take the time and focus on myself, and the things i want and need. My mom tells me to focus on all of the things, in the world-- job, financial aid, menial labour, school-- and, while it's for the Exact Same Reasons, it's not presented to me as a choice. It is given as "You made this bed, now lie in it," rather than "Well here's a bed. You made it. You also have these other things, over here, you could do." Which is why i've always felt it easier to get along with my dad, even though i love my mom. More emotional connection, with my mom. But i need both. That was a random bit of stuff...
Jack Off Jill, Remix BySynical - [Cumdumpster (Delusional Cannibal Mix)]--- I'm looking, again, at people, and what they want (that's four or five, this year), and noticing, and articulating something that i knew, from a long time ago. Came to a conclusion or two, through a brief misunderstanding with someone, that i don't want others to focus on, or talk about me, most of the time, because that's not their job. While i'm alive, that's for me to do. Yeah i do things, and yeah i can teach things, but so can anyone else, and, beyond a brief mention that i may be able to do something, for someone, i really don't like most people singing my praises.
Voltaire - [God Thinks]--- There are... other levels to this. I don't mean "Don't Fucking Talk about me!" I mean "Don't you dare fucking talk about me, in a worshipful light." That's not Me. If you want to talk about me, do it from a level of equality, and knowing that you are just as good as i am, if not better, because you're You, and i'm Not. I am not your source of awe. And i know, i absolutely know that right now, some of you are saying "No shit, you're not. You're not That cool, boy." Good. That's very good. Remember this, when you come three days in a row to my door, IM window, telephone, etc, asking for help, because only i can fix it...
Noah Stone - [Dark & Brooding]--- No you will never put it in those words, and yeah, sometimes people just need people to talk to, but i can tell you Right Now, that all the advice i will Ever give you will be ways to better understand yourself, so that you never, ever have to ask me for advice, again. I expect (meaning, in my idiom, "would like") the same thing, from you. Because people who aren't you can see more of the surrounding angles, a lot of the time. And that's good. But you should get to a point where you see them, yourself, because you're fucking everywhere. Which brings us back to the crux of this whole thing.
All i want for... Existence.. Is for everyone to become their own little individual permutation of Infinity, and be Happy with who they are. (Moxy Früvous - [Beware The Killer Tents]). This means that, if they aren't happy, they can change, until they Are happy. *sigh*
This has been your quarterly Vitrolic Brow-Beating Arrogance Invective, brought to you by Figure It Out Your Damn Self. Figure It Out Your Damn Self: "Mmm-MM! That's good Self Sufficience!"
Marilyn Manson - [Tainted Love (Cover)]--- We're back to that place, where i want people not to have Idols, and start recognizing those Idolized Qualities, in themselves, and working toward them. Yeah. That. Difficult, innit? Damn it.
Later.
{1.02am: Today could be a lusty day, WOLVEN, where you fantasize about something or somebody that you want. It's possible that this person is unattainable. Maybe they're already in a relationship, and you shouldn't meddle. Or you could dream about meeting someone who reminds you of your favorite celebrity. This might not happen, but if you keep your feet planted firmly on the ground today, you should gain some insight into how to turn your dreams into reality.
Pain - [Umbrella]--- Funny. Ha. Ha.}
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Date: 2004-05-20 10:05 pm (UTC)In my mind, I ask for advice simply to know what someone else may do b4 I act. That helps me consider my consequences. Are you suggesting I don't do that?
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Even Muad'dib had trouble, with that.
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Date: 2004-05-20 10:21 pm (UTC)It seems to me that you are saying the seeking of advice is a negative trait, yet even with what you mention in the post, I don't see how you draw that conclusion. It can be if overly used and if used b4 one has made their own mind up, but I feel advice or at least seeking it can be useful.
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2) No, it's not negative, if used toward a larger goal. Ie, "What am i missing/not seeing, here?"
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Date: 2004-05-20 10:17 pm (UTC)And sometimes people just want acknowledgement. I'm fine with that whole 'idolize thyself' thing you talk about, but then taking into accout relations and interactions....That's when it gets hairy and uncertain. I imagine that's where most problems lie.
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"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.
"I don't much care where -" said Alice.
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go," said the Cat.
"-so long as I get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation.
"Oh, you're sure to do that," said the Cat, "if only you walk long enough."
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Date: 2004-05-20 10:44 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-05-20 10:50 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-05-20 11:14 pm (UTC)ps Now, I do love it, but maybe if stoped giving advice people would stop looking for it. I am inclined to think you brought this "hero worship" and role of therapist on your self. It is easier to change your self than it is to change the world.
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And believe me, i know, but if there's anything i can't stand, it's watching people run themselves into walls, the same way, for their whole lives. If i can help that, i will, but in a way that they do it themselves. At least that's what i aim toward.