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wolven7kidneythieves - [Before I'm Dead]--- I just woke up. I went to bed at 10am. I had things to do, this morning. And if anyone has a problem, there? Blow me. Thanks.
I'm severely displeased with my dreams, for the most part, because i dreamed of almost making out with an ex, and that all ways bothers me. There was mutual face licking, and that barely in any sensual way, and she was naked, cause she had just gotten out of the shower. She threw me at one point. It still had overtones that i severly disliked. At one point i woke up, in the dream, and said "I don't like this. I'm leaving now" and that's when i woke up, this first time, this morning. I always feel.. wrong after those. Unless they're say, random and famous, and somehow one particular person, as well as themselves, my dream sexlife should be focused on a particular person, in my mind, and that is not any of my Xes.
The other dream i really remember was about going out to a softball game-- kids, little league, all that-- and knowing these people, in the stands, and they were characters from PCU i think, and![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
drstrangeal went up to talk to them while Bob, Autumn, and I stayed down at the car, which was parked on the field. (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Sixgun Gorgon Dynamo]).The band started playing, and Autumn wanted to go up and sing with them. Really wanted to, as in almost felt compelled to. Bob and I got yelled at for standing in the box, at one point, when we were clearly no where near it. Bob was, kind of, but i got yelled at, because i was with him, basically. (Static-X - [Wisconsin Death Trip]). drstrangeal started singing with the band, and we hid, till he stopped.
Another section of dream was people testing me. I had to identify elements of Satanism, in various cultures, through their pottery, only it was Satanism, as interwoven with their culture, so "Who had the Office, and Who helped mold this society" kind of thing. And it was this kid i know, named Troy, andtribeofone, asking me these questions. And i countered, on one vase with: "Well what kind of... Shi'tan, are we talking about here?" (MC Chris - [White Kids Love Hip-Hop]). Because "Satanism" wasn't the right word, to get across the full scope. I started naming some kinds, weird titles like "Atrauscin," which meant the kind that focuses on the Self as the source of all power, and there was another word that meant total reliance on the Office, but tribeofone said "Ba'[a/ow]lnuthcan." (My Ruin - [Bright Red Scream]). I looked at him and said, laughing, "You fucking son of a bitch. Fine," and proceded to show and tell the cuneiform, and what the script meant, and how it didn't get read left to right, down to up, or any of those opposites. It spread from the centre, outward, even if it looked like lines, and you read it as such, while reading it from the outer rim In, at the same time. Everyone got really quite, then, then i walked back to another part of the weird apartment we were in (which reminded me of a sort-of relative's basement), and then the not-quite make out part happened.
Nada Surf - [Popular]--- All of the facets and pieces of that dream were shown to me, in my day, yesterday. No, i did not kind of make out with an ex, but i did bite one, as well as one or two of my other friends, while giving them hugs. Autumn is the server at R Thomas. (kidneythieves - [Trickster]). Other people and things were either talked to, or came up in conversation. Various things like that, there.
{David Bowie - [The Heart's Filthy Lesson]--- [Warning Edit]: The way i say things, in the next two sections is kind of whiney and confused/ing. My feelings on the subject are what they are, however, and i felt i should leave them. Things clear up, a bit, around the Thickets. You've been warned.}
Stupid dreams, and loneliness. I want one person, here, as soon as possible. If i can't have that physicality, then can i at least have dreams? Stupid sleep deprived subconscious, latching on to the last physical contact had with a person. Bah.
Bothersome. Very bothersome.
Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Tarred & Feathered]--- Okay. Stop. I'm going to go take a shower and clear my head. Because i'm tired and disoriented, and, as such, placing too much emphasis on certain things, and not focusing, on others. Like the Vase contest. I think Baby Chris was there, and trying to stump me. That's... Hilarious, for lots of reasons. {4.35pm(Hellsing - [Divine Act of Satan]). There was also something else, there, about a party, which is why all those people were there in the first place, and Elizabeth (the one in the Navy), and Jeremy were there. (Veruca Salt - [Seether]). I only remember that it was important tha they were there, having fun, and Elizabeth was acting like the Cluracan.}
Remember, kids: Sometimes residual sexual awareness happens, with people you've dated. It may or may not freak you out, but, like anything, understand it and accept it, for what it is, and move on. If you don't like it, fix what makes it happen. I'm outta here.
Later
I'm severely displeased with my dreams, for the most part, because i dreamed of almost making out with an ex, and that all ways bothers me. There was mutual face licking, and that barely in any sensual way, and she was naked, cause she had just gotten out of the shower. She threw me at one point. It still had overtones that i severly disliked. At one point i woke up, in the dream, and said "I don't like this. I'm leaving now" and that's when i woke up, this first time, this morning. I always feel.. wrong after those. Unless they're say, random and famous, and somehow one particular person, as well as themselves, my dream sexlife should be focused on a particular person, in my mind, and that is not any of my Xes.
The other dream i really remember was about going out to a softball game-- kids, little league, all that-- and knowing these people, in the stands, and they were characters from PCU i think, and
drstrangeal went up to talk to them while Bob, Autumn, and I stayed down at the car, which was parked on the field. (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Sixgun Gorgon Dynamo]).The band started playing, and Autumn wanted to go up and sing with them. Really wanted to, as in almost felt compelled to. Bob and I got yelled at for standing in the box, at one point, when we were clearly no where near it. Bob was, kind of, but i got yelled at, because i was with him, basically. (Static-X - [Wisconsin Death Trip]). drstrangeal started singing with the band, and we hid, till he stopped.Another section of dream was people testing me. I had to identify elements of Satanism, in various cultures, through their pottery, only it was Satanism, as interwoven with their culture, so "Who had the Office, and Who helped mold this society" kind of thing. And it was this kid i know, named Troy, and
tribeofone, asking me these questions. And i countered, on one vase with: "Well what kind of... Shi'tan, are we talking about here?" (MC Chris - [White Kids Love Hip-Hop]). Because "Satanism" wasn't the right word, to get across the full scope. I started naming some kinds, weird titles like "Atrauscin," which meant the kind that focuses on the Self as the source of all power, and there was another word that meant total reliance on the Office, but tribeofone said "Ba'[a/ow]lnuthcan." (My Ruin - [Bright Red Scream]). I looked at him and said, laughing, "You fucking son of a bitch. Fine," and proceded to show and tell the cuneiform, and what the script meant, and how it didn't get read left to right, down to up, or any of those opposites. It spread from the centre, outward, even if it looked like lines, and you read it as such, while reading it from the outer rim In, at the same time. Everyone got really quite, then, then i walked back to another part of the weird apartment we were in (which reminded me of a sort-of relative's basement), and then the not-quite make out part happened.Nada Surf - [Popular]--- All of the facets and pieces of that dream were shown to me, in my day, yesterday. No, i did not kind of make out with an ex, but i did bite one, as well as one or two of my other friends, while giving them hugs. Autumn is the server at R Thomas. (kidneythieves - [Trickster]). Other people and things were either talked to, or came up in conversation. Various things like that, there.
{David Bowie - [The Heart's Filthy Lesson]--- [Warning Edit]: The way i say things, in the next two sections is kind of whiney and confused/ing. My feelings on the subject are what they are, however, and i felt i should leave them. Things clear up, a bit, around the Thickets. You've been warned.}
Stupid dreams, and loneliness. I want one person, here, as soon as possible. If i can't have that physicality, then can i at least have dreams? Stupid sleep deprived subconscious, latching on to the last physical contact had with a person. Bah.
Bothersome. Very bothersome.
Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Tarred & Feathered]--- Okay. Stop. I'm going to go take a shower and clear my head. Because i'm tired and disoriented, and, as such, placing too much emphasis on certain things, and not focusing, on others. Like the Vase contest. I think Baby Chris was there, and trying to stump me. That's... Hilarious, for lots of reasons. {4.35pm(Hellsing - [Divine Act of Satan]). There was also something else, there, about a party, which is why all those people were there in the first place, and Elizabeth (the one in the Navy), and Jeremy were there. (Veruca Salt - [Seether]). I only remember that it was important tha they were there, having fun, and Elizabeth was acting like the Cluracan.}
Remember, kids: Sometimes residual sexual awareness happens, with people you've dated. It may or may not freak you out, but, like anything, understand it and accept it, for what it is, and move on. If you don't like it, fix what makes it happen. I'm outta here.
Later
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Date: 2004-05-11 09:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Though, even then, there'd be people sneering "Those aren't Real." Though at that point, i think i'd just devour them. Or ignore them.
Whichever. :)
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Date: 2004-05-11 10:01 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-05-11 10:01 pm (UTC)no subject
see?
Date: 2004-05-12 09:30 am (UTC)Re: see?
Anywho, i don't think i've ever linked myself to someone, that way, for just sex. Because that would be more stupid than even i've ben known to be, on occassion.
It does fade, but when you have the mindset that everything is important, you're bound to retain memory of something, in your subconscious.
Like i said, i freaked out, over this, unduly, due to the extraordinarily fucked up sleep i got. So it severely weirded me, when it really shouldn't have. *shrug*
There were other, much more important things, in that dream.