not fully new, doesn't fucking matter.

[wolven7]

Oingo Boingo - [Glory Be]--- Realised something, the other night, before bed, and that was that there are people i meet, in my life. Sometimes i meet them through people i know, sometimes, through own devices, and we findout that we "would have met anyway," which is true, except that we met then, so what "would have happened" is nil. We draw certian people to us, at certain times, i've always believed. Sometimes we're drawn to them, or whatever, but the thing is, we find people that we can either help, or who can help us. We seek them out, and they seek us out. It's like a light tugging, toward certain courses of action.

A lot of the people i know, have people already in common with me, when i meet them, and that twitches at me. (Dave Matthews - [Gravedigger]). Not because i "would have met them," but because it's a resonance, and even a pleasant resonance, that deep (and i'm by no means saying that it's always pleasant), disturbs. It rearranges something, deep inside, and your mutual ring causes a shift in perspective, and you notice that there is clicking, and interlocking, and yes, you've set yourself along a certain path, and, if you're lucky, every action, day, and Newish Person is a step along that path. Like i said, the twitch is from the resonnance, which is not necessarily bad...

Unfortunately, if we hold to this, believe in it-- thereby giving it power over us and our actions-- then we have to be very careful of our thoughts, wants, desires, conscious and un-. (Poe - [Hello]). Because we will call that, as well. This is what i mean by Chasing Echoes. We long for something (someone), and we send our reflection of that note, out into the world, and we watch as something similar bounces back toward us. We are surrounded by pale comparrisons, of t he sound we seek; pale only in the sense that they aren't That Sound. They have their own strengths, and weaknesses, yes, but to reach that, we must pass the echo, the reflecting glare, and we must search to what they have to offer, or receive, as individuals. Because every echo has a difference in modulation that can be explored, and used to understand where it came from. We can know them for who they are.

I'm tired of chasing the echoes of what (who) i want; i'm tired of looking at these people i've unwttingly called, and gathered, knowing that their friendship is, at first, based on a need they can't fill. (MC Chris - [The Hammer (Skit)]). It's not many people, that make up this group... but it's too many, beause it's not fair to them, and it's not fair to me. When we focus on the echoes, we miss several sounds...

VNV Nation - [Darkangel (Apocalyptic Mix by Das Ich)]--- So... yeah. This came lots of places, from a few others.

I'm really fucking tired of making up for what's missing... so i'm going to go about gathering it all together, or most of it. People, things, places. Ideals and ideologies. At least that's what John said, in the revel.

If we meet newish people, or new people, or people who aren't new at all... We meet them. The interplayings of webs and circles are not as important as the reasons why. Things to learn. So on. So forth. Yeah. (Loreena McKennitt - [Dante's Prayer]). Things from my head. Don't know if you feel the same. If you do, great, if not, great. Later.

Dream Well

Comments

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Follow the echoes, instead of merely surrounding yourself.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Well, i already know the sound i'm looking for, in their echo. I need a different way to explore, to find them, for them.

More than that, I need my Source Sound, as soon as possible.

Which means i get to travel. I'm ok with that. :)