Out of the corner of my eye, everything looks like something scurrying.

[wolven7]

Electric Six - [Dance Commander]--- I've not had the best of days, unfortunately. Woke up, not feeling too well, and in the process of waiting for the bus, became violently ill. Went back home, was sick, for a while, missed two more busses. Upshot of the whole story is that i completely missed my first class, in whihc we were to be doing Zazen Meditation, and other forms. I'm not too happy about missing that. The other really shitty thing that happened? I found out my grade on that U.S. History exam i took, weeks ago. 53. Hoo fucking ray.

On the other hand, i was able to do some writing, today, and i came up with an interesting theory on lucidity. (Corvus Corax - [Tanzwut]). It'll probably go in the story. I also wrote a list of

Things On My Mind:
--Mentat training, with a model of unknown preparation, and, later, personal choice.
---When is the proper time for choice?

--Bene Geserit training, with an Athenic model of cunning and, often, misdirection.
---Is manipulation of destiny (personal or otherwise) Worthy/Worth It?

Gary Jules - [Mad World]--- Rearrangement of Mohammed's internal works, by angels.
---Which angels?
---Why? (Most likely answer: to fix/open him up to accept Gabriel's later Command.)

--The Smoking.
---What replaces it, now that the calming, consuming act is recognised as something that is Missing?

-- The Amazing ability of people to boot strap themselves, cyclical, into defeatist propositions: Things that hold them down (opinions, systems of government, ineffectual modes of behaviour), by the perceived and believed inability to change their station.

Wümpscüt - [Totmacher (VNV Nation Remix)]--- This last is the thing that bothers me the most, really. People are willing to roll over and fucking die, in a general orgy of "But what can we do?" thusly perpetuation the horrible situations, and causing more of the Same, but, when shown and told exactly what they Could do, they equivocate, balk, and hide from it, thinking it too large a task for one person. That, i'm sure you've notice, pisses me off beyond certain levels of rational comprehension.

Boot-strapping is boot-strapping, with the only difference being whether you're using said straps to tie down, or lift up.

Fuck, i'm angry. Damnably non-productive day, in certain respects. Feh. "Think, think, think.

"Oh bother..."

Comments

[brigidreborn.livejournal.com]

Wow, somebody's been reading Dune.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

What, did the post, entitled "Kwisatz Haderach" not tip you off? ^_^

I Heart Dune. Reminds me of my childhood, if my childhood were slightly more violent. Then again, so did Ender's Game.

I was a strange child...

[brigidreborn.livejournal.com]

I think I must've missed it. I actually had immense trouble getting through Dune, I don't know why... I read it this year because David had read it as a kid and loved it, and I was curious. I just couldn't get into it.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Anything that weaves science and religion together, as tightly as Herbert did in Dune, Dune Messiah and Children of Dune, is going to appeal to me.

As i said, i had a similar childhood, with my mother's side being rather religious (grandmother was Pentacostal. Had prophetic dreams. Look em up), and my father's side was the logical and scientific. Both took... interest, in my childhood education, in a similar manner, to Paul's family...

[okkitten.livejournal.com]

Sorry you were sickly this morning. It could be worse, you could have ovaries. Or worse still - evilllllllll ovaries. Dun dun dunnnnnn.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I could. But no. Thanks. :P

[okkitten.livejournal.com]

Oh fine........as far as the "oh hod what can I possibly do?" crap, here's my thing. I do everything I possibly can to help myself, my friends and family, and the world around me. If people don't want my help and decide to fuck their lives over anyway, I don't boohoo over it forever. There are too many people who do need help for me to deal with the few people I know who'll essentially never quit using drugs or whatever. As far as the biiiiiiiig problems, there is very little I can do at this point in my life save petitioning and volunteering and all the stuff I already do as much as possible, but someday when I have money to eat more than well.......bread, I'll do more to help on a big scale. For now I stick to what I know. Who was it who said Write what you know? I can't remember. Anyway. So.....yeah.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

There's also talking to others about what they can do... there's always that.

[okkitten.livejournal.com]

Yeah I left that bit out by accident. This it what happens when you poke me like a maniac and make me think when I'm tired, I forget stuff, mmkay?

*poke*

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Fair enough. Heheheh.