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wolven7You could be in father figure mode today, WOLVEN. Some of your friends or colleagues could need some extra guidance or encouragement. You've always had a strong nurturing side. People love to come to you for a friendly hug or a pat on the head! Give out some good energy to people who are in need. You'll feel good if you take a few moments to reach out and offer some warmth to someone who feels cold.
Gary Numan - [Dark]--- Apparently, it snowed ealier. The high, yesterday, was 60 grad. Does this seem... Odd, to anyone else? Anyway, i did the meditation thing, earlier, and came to some useful conclussions, and kind of continued the earlier progresses. Had a... very interesting conversation. Well, more i talked, and i made the other person listen. I showed him what free will was, and explained the universe, and how, no matter what you do, who you are, or what machinations you have, you can't get out of this. (Tomandandy - [Snow Theater-Final Steps]). That everything you do, as soon as you 've done it, has always been going to happen, and you always had the choice to do otherwise, right up until the point when you Did it. Then it was done. The only place that it can be other, now, is in a different universe. That, really, anything he thinks of as rebellion and a new order is already there, as long as the multiverse, and all of its infinitudes, are here, and, unless he wanted to finally, overtly, admit to himself that destroying the whole damnedness of Creation was what he was after, he should, possibly, take his new-found free will, and rethink his position. Don't know if it'll have any effect whatsoever. But i felt that it was a good time to say it.
Rearranged my mental space, expanded the office, added some windows, integrated everything into myself, etc. Heheh. (QNTAL - [Palaestinalied]). Seriously, though. I like the feel of my heartbeat, there, as felt in simply living, and not, necessarily, putting my hand on my chest, or similar. Simply in breathing and living, that is a very nice feeling.
And i have two, maybe three questions, to which i would seriously like answers. Answer either here, in an email, or not at all. But i'd like it if you answered. Question the first: Do you belive in a "Soul" or similar? Question the second: How do you conceive of Yours? Not anyone else's, not "The Universal Soul," but the section of Soul (if you believe in it) the resides in you. Alternate question, for those answering in the negative to the first question, what do you think accrues "personality"? (Monty Python - [Sit On My Face]). That's all i'd really like to know, there. If you want to answer all of the above, feel more than free to do so. At some later point, i'm sure i'll talk about that, here, more than i have, already.
LUXT - [Spite]--- I watched "High Fidelity," today, for the first time. It was.... really close to home, as most Cusack films tend to be, for me. I mean, "Grosse Point Blank" was even weirdly twitchy. But this... there's a certain cathartic pain, there, in seeing that, and that kind of resolution. I recommend the film. I enjoyed it, quite a bit.
I'm really without much else to say, right now, so i'm going to go. Later.
Gary Numan - [Dark]--- Apparently, it snowed ealier. The high, yesterday, was 60 grad. Does this seem... Odd, to anyone else? Anyway, i did the meditation thing, earlier, and came to some useful conclussions, and kind of continued the earlier progresses. Had a... very interesting conversation. Well, more i talked, and i made the other person listen. I showed him what free will was, and explained the universe, and how, no matter what you do, who you are, or what machinations you have, you can't get out of this. (Tomandandy - [Snow Theater-Final Steps]). That everything you do, as soon as you 've done it, has always been going to happen, and you always had the choice to do otherwise, right up until the point when you Did it. Then it was done. The only place that it can be other, now, is in a different universe. That, really, anything he thinks of as rebellion and a new order is already there, as long as the multiverse, and all of its infinitudes, are here, and, unless he wanted to finally, overtly, admit to himself that destroying the whole damnedness of Creation was what he was after, he should, possibly, take his new-found free will, and rethink his position. Don't know if it'll have any effect whatsoever. But i felt that it was a good time to say it.
Rearranged my mental space, expanded the office, added some windows, integrated everything into myself, etc. Heheh. (QNTAL - [Palaestinalied]). Seriously, though. I like the feel of my heartbeat, there, as felt in simply living, and not, necessarily, putting my hand on my chest, or similar. Simply in breathing and living, that is a very nice feeling.
And i have two, maybe three questions, to which i would seriously like answers. Answer either here, in an email, or not at all. But i'd like it if you answered. Question the first: Do you belive in a "Soul" or similar? Question the second: How do you conceive of Yours? Not anyone else's, not "The Universal Soul," but the section of Soul (if you believe in it) the resides in you. Alternate question, for those answering in the negative to the first question, what do you think accrues "personality"? (Monty Python - [Sit On My Face]). That's all i'd really like to know, there. If you want to answer all of the above, feel more than free to do so. At some later point, i'm sure i'll talk about that, here, more than i have, already.
LUXT - [Spite]--- I watched "High Fidelity," today, for the first time. It was.... really close to home, as most Cusack films tend to be, for me. I mean, "Grosse Point Blank" was even weirdly twitchy. But this... there's a certain cathartic pain, there, in seeing that, and that kind of resolution. I recommend the film. I enjoyed it, quite a bit.
I'm really without much else to say, right now, so i'm going to go. Later.
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Date: 2004-02-07 11:12 pm (UTC)And hey, you asked. That's just how I see things. I can't help it if I'm strange and unacceptable. I think I'll go.. cry now... *gathers staples*
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And yes, i did ask. Like i said, wheter i agree or not has nothing to do with this exercise, so, yeah. Thanks for the reply.
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Date: 2004-02-07 11:17 pm (UTC)I see how it is... *choke*
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Date: 2004-02-07 10:58 pm (UTC)2. Exactly like me, only different. Visually, it occupies the same amount of space, but can shapeshift accordingly. I like to think it's light blue most of the time.
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Date: 2004-02-08 12:48 am (UTC)2. Not really sure. I picture the idea of a soul like a ball of bright, colorless energy but I picture myself as myself or in my fae form... I guess it depends on if you're asking for a soul in a pure form or a soul in an astral form or something...
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Date: 2004-02-08 01:00 am (UTC)I suppose my ultimate soul would just be light (although that doesn't give much room for the dark bits of me, if it is to be believed there are any.) I don't, however, like thinking about that much though because it some how doesn't feel like "me" as I can't help but attach the physical to myself. Intellectually I understand that I am simply the synthesis of energy in both an organized and chaotic manner but on an emotional level, I don't like letting go of physical characteristics because they are very much a part of me to me. They may just be symbols of memories, concepts and ideas but they're mine and they're important. However, I do see my soul as the source of my personality, whatever magick I may have, whatever love and passion I have etc, as well as a vehicle for whatever I choose to put out into the world.
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Date: 2004-02-08 06:11 pm (UTC)When I think of my inner headspace and my psyche, I envision a room. It has walls of steel, a table, a banl of monitors, and many doors lining the walls. This room houses my fluctuating number of personalities. They all resemble my physical appearance in some fashion, though they all dresss differently. They spend there time walking back in forth thru the doors, sitting around the table, or staring at the monitors. The room is not necessarily anywhere, but it is surounded by a labyrinth of metal walls that stand in a barren land of black dirt. One of the doors in the room leads to an image. It is the outline of a boy. It is like a shell of glass.
I have never been asked what my soul is, but I see those images alot. Now that there is a question to fit the answer, all of that may be my soul. I never considered a difference b/t a soul/personality, so perhaps the room and all else are the perssonality and the glass boy shell is my soul. I don't really know. That' what I thought when i first read the questions.
I do know my soul "feels" dark, heavy, and wrong. Wrong in the sense that it has sinned and needs atonement.
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