hard sharp bright lonely things.
Feb. 7th, 2004 04:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Mindless Self Indulgence - [Kill The Rock]--- Been removing layers of things under which i can safely say i'd been hiding, for some time. I've been squirreld away, burrowed deep in the soft, smothering layers of facade, and not showing myself to myself, or anyone else, and, recently, that's been.. being removed. People asking for the full view, and not letting go till they get it. (David Bowie - [Algeria Touchshriek]). And they've been numb enough, or in an explodedly open enough (blown out) state, at the time, to not run and hide, when they get it. Which is good, i guess. I simply hope that stands as such, when it's not in need. But when is anyone ever not in need of something?
Pink Floyd - [Another Brick In The Wall (Part 3)]--- Certain times. Yeah, i've been lonely, and yeah i've been alone, and yeah i've been surrounded by people, a lot, but it's like i wrote on the napkin, last night, at R Thomas: "Sometimes, people you know are simply efforts in chasing echoes." (Jack Off Jill - [Girlscout (Sunday Mix by Susan Wallace&Enemies)]). And that's sad, but it's true, and i've been spending a lot of my time trying to find the hollow, there, that creates the resonance. The Centre Empty that makes it all bind together. That nothing that is everything, about them, individualised, and shaded, salted to taste, and preference. Find it and appreciate it, but, as i said, last night, some times, people make it difficult. Certain cluster concepts of self that they want you to see. Not the whole, or a sequence, but a bit here and there, and, if you're quick enough, maybe you can piece it all together. And, hey, at least it keeps you moving.
Wanting to take the edge, and peel away the layers, disect the insides, because they're there, and they do look so sweet, there, just kind of waiting. (The Tea Party - [Lullaby]). But who am i to do that, unbidden? It would serve, more, all around, if it was asked. And i guess that means i'll have to be open to more forms of asking, and different layers and symbols that mean "please." Because, really, though the straight-forward approach would make things simpler, there are those [every other] moments when i realise that the decryption is a big part of the point. And, as always, there's me, screaming that there can be both. And there can.
And i'm sitting here, not doing things, and doing others, thinking about essences and periphery, things that aren't the cause, but symptoms, and what, then, does that get me? Why, a break from some thing or another, that's what. And, now, i'm going to go meditate. Think deeply. Breathe. Stare out the window, or all of the above.
Deadsy - [Sleepy Hollow]--- See you katzen later.
Pink Floyd - [Another Brick In The Wall (Part 3)]--- Certain times. Yeah, i've been lonely, and yeah i've been alone, and yeah i've been surrounded by people, a lot, but it's like i wrote on the napkin, last night, at R Thomas: "Sometimes, people you know are simply efforts in chasing echoes." (Jack Off Jill - [Girlscout (Sunday Mix by Susan Wallace&Enemies)]). And that's sad, but it's true, and i've been spending a lot of my time trying to find the hollow, there, that creates the resonance. The Centre Empty that makes it all bind together. That nothing that is everything, about them, individualised, and shaded, salted to taste, and preference. Find it and appreciate it, but, as i said, last night, some times, people make it difficult. Certain cluster concepts of self that they want you to see. Not the whole, or a sequence, but a bit here and there, and, if you're quick enough, maybe you can piece it all together. And, hey, at least it keeps you moving.
Wanting to take the edge, and peel away the layers, disect the insides, because they're there, and they do look so sweet, there, just kind of waiting. (The Tea Party - [Lullaby]). But who am i to do that, unbidden? It would serve, more, all around, if it was asked. And i guess that means i'll have to be open to more forms of asking, and different layers and symbols that mean "please." Because, really, though the straight-forward approach would make things simpler, there are those [every other] moments when i realise that the decryption is a big part of the point. And, as always, there's me, screaming that there can be both. And there can.
And i'm sitting here, not doing things, and doing others, thinking about essences and periphery, things that aren't the cause, but symptoms, and what, then, does that get me? Why, a break from some thing or another, that's what. And, now, i'm going to go meditate. Think deeply. Breathe. Stare out the window, or all of the above.
Deadsy - [Sleepy Hollow]--- See you katzen later.
