NO no no no no.
Feb. 4th, 2004 10:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Voltaire - [The Headless Waltz]--- Four times. I'm not sleeping well, at all. Anyone with any kind of psychological Shreds will know that this probably means i have something on my mind. Subconscious, and all. Something i need to recognise, understand, integrate, or remove. And it's bugging the shit out of me, because i keep having really fucked up dreams, and only remembering sections of them. {In one,} I beat a man unconscious, with what was, apparently, a prop M-16 loaded with blanks. He tried to take a hotel hostage, or something. Whatever.
I'm going to go try to fall back asleep.
Back later.
{10.21am:Smashing Pumpkins - [Eye]--- Oh, and {another dream was that} people kept having sex in my room, and on my bed, until i was hitting some guy with my crowbar, because he wouldn't respond, when asked nicely, if he could Not do that on my bed. (Jack Off Jill - [Clear Hearts, Grey Flowers]). He eventually got the message, and we talked about it, i calmed down, and they left.
I guess i'm tired of having to resort to drastic measures, to get anything done, around here. I'm worried about things and people, and i'm worried about acceptance of ideals and character. Personality traits, and messhing. People being stupid, in my general direction, and my being what they probably feel is stupid, in theirs. But fuck it. Meditation, writing, and (hopefully) sleep, today. I need to talk to variuos people about various things, and i'm going to try to get those done. Because i'm tired of waking up 4 times a night, for no fucking reason.
Nine Inch Nails - [Reptile]--- Back to bed, now. Night}
I'm going to go try to fall back asleep.
Back later.
{10.21am:Smashing Pumpkins - [Eye]--- Oh, and {another dream was that} people kept having sex in my room, and on my bed, until i was hitting some guy with my crowbar, because he wouldn't respond, when asked nicely, if he could Not do that on my bed. (Jack Off Jill - [Clear Hearts, Grey Flowers]). He eventually got the message, and we talked about it, i calmed down, and they left.
I guess i'm tired of having to resort to drastic measures, to get anything done, around here. I'm worried about things and people, and i'm worried about acceptance of ideals and character. Personality traits, and messhing. People being stupid, in my general direction, and my being what they probably feel is stupid, in theirs. But fuck it. Meditation, writing, and (hopefully) sleep, today. I need to talk to variuos people about various things, and i'm going to try to get those done. Because i'm tired of waking up 4 times a night, for no fucking reason.
Nine Inch Nails - [Reptile]--- Back to bed, now. Night}
