Twirling bits of silver string.

[wolven7]

Static-X - [Otsegolation]-- Riding lines, to see where they go, and the raven thing's been kind of Presenting itself, and all. There is something about remembering aspects of what you consider to be yourself, and working out how they all.. Click. (Björk& Current 93 - [You Only Live Twice]). Facets and wholes, as it were. I really, really want to have a conversation, with a lot of people... a discussion... and i want to do it.. about what they are.. what they feel they are, deep down...

I present aspects and facets of wolves, ravens, creating, destroying, knowing, Being, in the roles, in which they have been placed, or in which they placed themselves, by those who knew them. But at my base, i'm neither raven nor wolf. I'm both of them, in a kind of grifin-like thing, and i'm nothing but black fire, and silver specks of ice like violet. A soul like inverted television snow, and that's all true at once. There are things i believe i've been, and things i believe i will be, and i don't give a fuck what anyone else things i've been, except in the sense that they do. (QNTAL - [Entre Moi Et Mon Amin]). They consider it--if they consider it-- and they wonder and have ideas about me. Things they perceive. And i do the same to them. There are more things to me, than they could ever fully know, without losing a part of themselves, to me, and me to them (and really, isn't that what life is about? On some level.), and most people fear that... well, everyone fears it, but most fear it more than they wonder about what the benefits may be... Except the one in whom we can, each, lose ourselves, totally. Be that for you, God/dess, science, or the person you love, or if all are the same, to you (in whatever way you mean that), they are there... But that's a tangent... and done.

I want to know people, or know of them, as well as i can, before they hit that uncomfortable point. And, yes, there is an idyllic stance, here, that what i see and get to know won't be horrible, and make me want that person Away from me, but that's because... horror doesn't affect me that way. No matter what i learn about a person, i'm almost always able to place that into the context of Who They Are-- as i see it-- and move on. That may, at some point, move to me not wantting to be around them, but that's for if it happens. And there's no guarnatees, either way. And this still isn't the fucking point. The point is this: I simply want to go out, and have some coffee, and talk. And learn about people. Whatever happens, after, does exactly that.

Lou Reed - [Edgar Allan Poe]--- And it's very rare that me and anyone else go out for coffee, anymore, because everyone has other things. Granted, i've not done as much asking as i could, but, then, neither have they. Not the placing of blame, on anyone but me, simply the stating of the way things've been.

And now, not knowing any of you, any better than when i started, and you maybe seeing a little bit more of me, over all... i'm out.

Later

{11.54pm: Carpathian Forest - [The Eclipse-The Raven]--- Oh yeah, and all those things i want to do? I want to do them with no damned pretenses. (Ragnarok - [Beloved Of The Raven God]). Simple straight out, this is what i am/view myself to be, that's it. Is that so much?}

Comments

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

People, I think, don't Want themselves known that intimately. (And it IS intimately, to most, to know their soul, if that's what you mean. If not, I need more sleep...) There are limits to where people want to involve themselves, and to how far they'll open themselves, even TO THEMSELVES.
And as for the lack of pretense? Might as well ask for wings...I've learned to settle for few pretenses, or ignoring them.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

No, they don't, and that's something i've... known on some level, since i was in my midteens. A few years ago. My point, though, is that every time i go through a period of learning and growth, as i feel i have, recently, a part of me assumes that everything and everyone was doing the same thing... because it feels huge. Like it couldn't be only me. So, now, people are Surely willing to go beyond that fear, and know.

But that's not always true. And i forGet that there's that feeling of fear... but there is...

I did mean the soul, by the way. But you probably could deal with some more sleep. :)

And i do ask for wings. I also try to grow them, on a daily basis. ^_^ But those are my goals, and don't have to be everyone's.

I could spiral around on this, for hours, but i'm not gonna, here. :) Talk to you later. hehe