Something about looking at the day, ahead...

[wolven7]

Recently... i've had a lot a of issues, looking toward the better next day. The pressure. The not having, in my head, the way to reflect, refract, and flow with what needs to be done, day to day. I'm rather certain, over all, of the fact t hat, once i'm in them, they'll be good days... but.. i can't transplant that, into the looking ahead, and hoping. And it makes my nights, and evenings at home, which should be pleasant, steeped in a weird brand of nocturnal depression. I also don't like having to wake up, ass early (for me) in the morning, but oh the fuck well.

I'm going to go shower, and listen to "Boys For Pele." I'll talk to you all, later.

Comments

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Remember the No-Expectations?....Try that.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I don't expect anything... i Dread. I'm trying to Hope.

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

But aren't those both the application of expectations?

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Not necessarily. I can Hope for something, realising it as a possibility, and planning for that, without ever expecting it. Because i can, at the same time, dread something and... well, the hope is that i'd plan to off-set the dread, thus still working toward the betterment, but it rarely happens that way. I don't Expect either, but i realise as think about, or wish for, one or the other.

See the difference, or am i simply making something more complicated than it needs to be?

*I* think i have a point. But i could be wrong.

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Mm. Nope. Makes sense, but I guess in my case, hope gets me to start expecting the best. Fear makes me expect the worst. So I've stopped it all, and just prepare to Be Prepared. For Anything. And things have been....Good, so far.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Hope is still something that can be had... As long as you make sure it doesn't do that... Become that... Or, you could deal with it, exactly however works for you, and not listen to me, a bit. I'm sure that'd work out, better.