Look at it this way:

[wolven7]

Rasputina - [Watch T.V.]--- I Have a few Good Friends. Choice circumstance, whatever, don't fucking bitch, just fucking listen. I have many Friends. Many more People I Know. There is a slot that has been filled, in the past, used to be filled by a lot of people, all at the same time... And, now... It's empty. Again, choice, circumstance, whatever... I don't know that i have a "Best Friend," in this state, anymore... I don't have someone with whom i can hang out, at Any time, and simply have everything click into place. As i said, i used to have that with several people, but things happened... The cohesion slipped away.

The Adventures Of Jet - [End Of The Planet]--- The people i know, the Friends, the Good Friends... All of them used to be able to work together, or enjoy each others' company, or find Something they liked... And that's all twistedwrenched and slithered away. There is nothing, anymore, nor the willingness to give a damn. Or so it seems. The catalysation is Off, without certain Key elements. And that was proven, this weekend. There are factors of Placement, and People, and oddly, a Car. There has to be a wheel, and a Wheel[wo/]man, for the other Creatures.

There are two people missing from my perfect equation, at the moment. (Bobgoblin - [Killer]). I say two, because, while there are others i know, with whom it would be Nice to hang, these two are the Keys, as i see it. And neither of them are in the state. That may be changing, soon, and lord help us if and when it does. Heh. *smile*

But that's what's missing... Hell, i've said it before, and meant it: i'd be perfectly happy if all of you were in one place, where i could talk to, read, experience, hear, you, all the time. Happy, that is, until you started hating each other. If that happened... Whatever.

I reached the point where i gave less of a damn about how you would react, so i posted. That's It. That's all you get, tonight.

Dream Well

Comments

[mahajarabali.livejournal.com]

It was a good post, nonetheless. Things will turn around again for you.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I know.

[saxshooter.livejournal.com]

I've noticed this as well...
They're many reasons for it all, I'm sure, but that doesn't make it any less irritating.

I haven't been around as much because well...
People don't invite me to shit most of the time...
I don't know if it is a case of people assuming I'm unavailable, don't think about me, or just don't feel like including me for whatever the reason.

I try and not worry about too so much because...A)I am busy and B)I have too much on my hands to worry about it and I choose to put the energy into enjoying the friends I do see a lot of and who do invite me to things.

I do wish that we talked and hung out more. You are one of the few people in that group that I really truly do miss. I know we talk on AIM frequently, but it's still not the same. I can be bad about making time for people when I'm not in the habit of it...I have a huge list of people I need to call...but especially at this point in time in my life, I don't want even more people who I care about in my life to slip through my fingers. You may or may not agree with me, but from early on in our friendship I felt great potential for closeness friendship wise and have considered you a good friend of mine for awhile now as I got to know you.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Very True. And thank you. You have been a fairly good friend, in the year and 2/3s that i've known you. It would be good if we got to see each other, more often.

We'll see what we can do about that, then.