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wolven7d'redd - [A Faerie's Heart]--- So, my mother and i had a Damn long conversation, tonight, about the nature of need, and doing the things that you need to do, to get where you want/need to be.... I sat and i thought about this, for a long time... And i realised, that if i'm Ever going to tell her about my smoking, it'll be in a conversation like that. (Carmina Burana - [O Fortuna]). Because we're already on the Heavy stuff, why not some more? Earlier today, winamp went fromt he Apotheosis remix of this song, to the original, while on Random. I smiled.
So i got my cigarette, today. It was a Newport, and tasted Foul. I can't really describe my dislike for menthols... Oh.. i was talking about my realisation, with my mother... It happened that i told her a lot of things, about the sociological aspects of my life, that i've never really told her, before. People and what-not. Aspects of my relationships, with them. She helped me figure out that, in the end, i can't make people learn... And the more i Try to Make them, the worse off i'll be. So, again, i should present the shit, without considering it a vested emotional intrest. And that's fine, for some parts. Other things, however, lend more personally, and make with the sandpaper-grating at my nerve endings...
Gary Numan - [Prophecy]--- Affects, and accoutriments of banality and stupidity that make my life a living Hell, for being in their company. And it's a synthesis, really; certain people, in the company of others, catalyze into an explosion of Annoying, and, honestly, that's one of the reasons i had to get away. People were grating, more than usual, and i needed to take a step back. Or a few steps back... And, when i return, all shall be clear again, or some such nonsense, and i'll have more of the ability to Deal. Time Up a Goddamn Mountain will do that, for you.
And don't go getting all personally offended, here. You've no way of knowing if i meant you, and you never ask, so you'll never know. If i need to name your names, to you, in private company, then i will. As it stands, i believe that i've got an idea of that which i need to do, with my life. My dad wants to give me a book called "7 Lessons from Chaos." Man this universe is weird. When the time is right, i must find the undergraduate advisor, for the Philosophy department {Project Pitchfork - [Timekiller]--- Among other People}, and i must consult with them. (Lush - [Light From A Dead Star]). Bounce ideas, back and forth, in that Dialogue kind of way... Because that's how i learn. That's how i motivate myself. I place other people, near me, and use them as momentum, and gravity, and inertia takes over. The inertia of personal growth. Because, while i am still doing everything myself, i need that other face, there...Why? to remind myself that other people are there? That's not quite right... Because i'm more willing to accept other plans of action, when i put them into the mouths of others? Perhaps... Maybe it's simply that other people intrigue me, and i like hearing what they have to say... Suggestions? You tell me why i like you to tell me things. ^_^ hehehe
Voltaire - [Almost Human]--- With those plans, in motion, i've also realised that i should go to bed. Final note: I'm differently acclimated, than most everyone i know. All of my friends, in elementary school, were of High intelligence, and low social skills. I spent Most of the time around Adults, at least 20 years my senior... These things, and others, synthesized into making me a much differently acclimated person, than most. My priorities are very different. And... basically... the same...
Fuck it. Lick me.*smirk*
Dreams
So i got my cigarette, today. It was a Newport, and tasted Foul. I can't really describe my dislike for menthols... Oh.. i was talking about my realisation, with my mother... It happened that i told her a lot of things, about the sociological aspects of my life, that i've never really told her, before. People and what-not. Aspects of my relationships, with them. She helped me figure out that, in the end, i can't make people learn... And the more i Try to Make them, the worse off i'll be. So, again, i should present the shit, without considering it a vested emotional intrest. And that's fine, for some parts. Other things, however, lend more personally, and make with the sandpaper-grating at my nerve endings...
Gary Numan - [Prophecy]--- Affects, and accoutriments of banality and stupidity that make my life a living Hell, for being in their company. And it's a synthesis, really; certain people, in the company of others, catalyze into an explosion of Annoying, and, honestly, that's one of the reasons i had to get away. People were grating, more than usual, and i needed to take a step back. Or a few steps back... And, when i return, all shall be clear again, or some such nonsense, and i'll have more of the ability to Deal. Time Up a Goddamn Mountain will do that, for you.
And don't go getting all personally offended, here. You've no way of knowing if i meant you, and you never ask, so you'll never know. If i need to name your names, to you, in private company, then i will. As it stands, i believe that i've got an idea of that which i need to do, with my life. My dad wants to give me a book called "7 Lessons from Chaos." Man this universe is weird. When the time is right, i must find the undergraduate advisor, for the Philosophy department {Project Pitchfork - [Timekiller]--- Among other People}, and i must consult with them. (Lush - [Light From A Dead Star]). Bounce ideas, back and forth, in that Dialogue kind of way... Because that's how i learn. That's how i motivate myself. I place other people, near me, and use them as momentum, and gravity, and inertia takes over. The inertia of personal growth. Because, while i am still doing everything myself, i need that other face, there...Why? to remind myself that other people are there? That's not quite right... Because i'm more willing to accept other plans of action, when i put them into the mouths of others? Perhaps... Maybe it's simply that other people intrigue me, and i like hearing what they have to say... Suggestions? You tell me why i like you to tell me things. ^_^ hehehe
Voltaire - [Almost Human]--- With those plans, in motion, i've also realised that i should go to bed. Final note: I'm differently acclimated, than most everyone i know. All of my friends, in elementary school, were of High intelligence, and low social skills. I spent Most of the time around Adults, at least 20 years my senior... These things, and others, synthesized into making me a much differently acclimated person, than most. My priorities are very different. And... basically... the same...
Fuck it. Lick me.*smirk*
Dreams
