a reply i sent to a comment, elsewhere.
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wolven7The songs are the ones that were playing... just sent the comment..
Voltaire - [Dunce]--- AS i said in my journal, "Non-in/with does not negate whatever the strength of the thing Actually is." You can love someone amazingly, and not be In Love With Them. In my opinion.
Yes, in a sense, i know that, if i move on, or move up and out of a stage, then there will people that won't understand. But that is no different from the Motivations of my moods, now. People don't understand them, most of the time. They see them, and they note them, but they tend to think that they are Stupid, or that i'm Focusing on something, when i could just "Let it go." If I "Jut let it go," it won't get any better, for me. It may not be Prevalent, and it may not be Thought about, but it will still be there.
There is only one person with whom i'm smitten. One person with many facets, and every day i focus on a different piece of her, and sit, in awe... But anyway. I don't know what's going on. I transcend rather quickly, if left to my own devices. People think i have violent mood swings, and, honestly, i can see why they would think that. They don't know how my head works. If i sit, and allow everything to pass through, and work it out how i want to, then i move from angst to transcendence. It is rare that you will see me emotionally fucked up in one situation, in the same way, twice. Once it's fixed, in my head, it's fixed.(kidneythieves - [zer0space]). All other emotional entanglements, from there, are different lessons i need to learn.
Unfortunately i have trouble bring one set of lessons, from one situation to the next. And if i Can do it, then something new seems to pop up.
The universe does, often, seem against me, and i've learned to tell the difference between a lying dream, an induced dream, and a true dream. This was, as all metaphysical things inlolving my love life seem to be, an attempt to rattle me. The universe... when you have as Subjective a world view as i, then you learn to take everything as an action Against You. If you're the centre, then it IS all about you, one way or another. Part of the reason i'm so affected by... other people.
Hope that clears some things up... but it probably doesn't..
Voltaire - [Dunce]--- AS i said in my journal, "Non-in/with does not negate whatever the strength of the thing Actually is." You can love someone amazingly, and not be In Love With Them. In my opinion.
Yes, in a sense, i know that, if i move on, or move up and out of a stage, then there will people that won't understand. But that is no different from the Motivations of my moods, now. People don't understand them, most of the time. They see them, and they note them, but they tend to think that they are Stupid, or that i'm Focusing on something, when i could just "Let it go." If I "Jut let it go," it won't get any better, for me. It may not be Prevalent, and it may not be Thought about, but it will still be there.
There is only one person with whom i'm smitten. One person with many facets, and every day i focus on a different piece of her, and sit, in awe... But anyway. I don't know what's going on. I transcend rather quickly, if left to my own devices. People think i have violent mood swings, and, honestly, i can see why they would think that. They don't know how my head works. If i sit, and allow everything to pass through, and work it out how i want to, then i move from angst to transcendence. It is rare that you will see me emotionally fucked up in one situation, in the same way, twice. Once it's fixed, in my head, it's fixed.(kidneythieves - [zer0space]). All other emotional entanglements, from there, are different lessons i need to learn.
Unfortunately i have trouble bring one set of lessons, from one situation to the next. And if i Can do it, then something new seems to pop up.
The universe does, often, seem against me, and i've learned to tell the difference between a lying dream, an induced dream, and a true dream. This was, as all metaphysical things inlolving my love life seem to be, an attempt to rattle me. The universe... when you have as Subjective a world view as i, then you learn to take everything as an action Against You. If you're the centre, then it IS all about you, one way or another. Part of the reason i'm so affected by... other people.
Hope that clears some things up... but it probably doesn't..
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You Scare me..
Date: 2003-04-04 10:46 am (UTC)You know...Rereading this...You just pretty much defined and clarified how I function, too, though more in the way of situations and adapting to them.
Re: You Scare me..
I'm rather easy to please. See?
Re: You Scare me..
Date: 2003-04-04 10:58 am (UTC)Re: You Scare me..
Date: 2003-04-04 11:03 am (UTC)