An evening notation...
Mar. 10th, 2003 08:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7"You use that word so much. Responsibilities. Don't you ever think about what it means? I mean, what DOES it mean to you? In your HEAD?... The things we do make ECHOES. S'pose, f'rinstance, you stop on a street corner and admire a brilliant fork of lightning--ZAP! Well for AGES after people and things will Stop on that very same corner, stare up at the sky. They wouldn't even know what they were Looking for. SOME of them might see a ghost bolt of lightning in the street. SOME of them might even be KILLED by it. Our existence deforms the universe. *THAT'S* Responsibility." - Delirium of the Endless to her brother Dream.
kidneythieves - [Feathers]--- So, i took the test, today, and it drained some of my life's blood, and i took Its, an, unto each of us, the other is done. At some point, in the future, we shall meet each other again, and one of us shall discover that the other is dead. One of us shall be surprised, though not really, that much, for we knew, inside, deep down, that we had met our end. (Luxt - [Infinite]). And then, if we are dead, we shall fall down, stand up, and move on. Its time with me, done, then, and mine with it.
I made brownies. I forgot to tell you that. They were peanut butter, chocolate, sugar, and Golden Grahams. They were well loved, all around. That's pretty much all i ate, today, until this evening, when i had some beef-like product, and bacon, on a bun, with condiments. Some people are still not answering their phones/returning calls. I'd prefer to care, i think. But i'm unsure. We'll find out, tomorrow, one way or another, i'm guessing. Who knows. I do, somewhere. And so do you. And god, whatever that happens to be. And i think that i'm rather a bit.. Off. These days. I dreamed, last night of a skinned yogi bear, turning into my friend Rob. (Luxt - [Technochrist]). Then there was train hopping. And cds/DVDs that, when you touched their position on the glass case, shifted position, so that you could see them, better. That's not in order, at all. And it's not whole. And not what i meant to say. I dreamed (felt/ knew/ experienced) that, when i accepted the Destruction in my nature-- folded my wings around it, and around everything else, and drew it to me, i draw someone else to me, as well, and i can't say as i don't like that. But s/he/it is not drawn to me to be consumed, at least not with the same intent, but the becomeing one with consumption, not the devour and replace... Which is never there, always there... True in every action, and a lie under every surface...
kidneythieves - [Zer0space]--- Confusing? Not really. Sometimes i want to eat and forget. Other times i want to become a concise whole. These are not always Different Times. Why do you think Fenrys killed Odin and Ate the Su[o]n? I stole that from Zampanò. Anyway. It wasn't mere anger, or distemperment. It was betrayal, loneliness, longing. Things happen, and shit sucks. We try our best to merge with those around us and/or push them the hell away. Fuck it. I love you.
I'm gone.
kidneythieves - [Feathers]--- So, i took the test, today, and it drained some of my life's blood, and i took Its, an, unto each of us, the other is done. At some point, in the future, we shall meet each other again, and one of us shall discover that the other is dead. One of us shall be surprised, though not really, that much, for we knew, inside, deep down, that we had met our end. (Luxt - [Infinite]). And then, if we are dead, we shall fall down, stand up, and move on. Its time with me, done, then, and mine with it.
I made brownies. I forgot to tell you that. They were peanut butter, chocolate, sugar, and Golden Grahams. They were well loved, all around. That's pretty much all i ate, today, until this evening, when i had some beef-like product, and bacon, on a bun, with condiments. Some people are still not answering their phones/returning calls. I'd prefer to care, i think. But i'm unsure. We'll find out, tomorrow, one way or another, i'm guessing. Who knows. I do, somewhere. And so do you. And god, whatever that happens to be. And i think that i'm rather a bit.. Off. These days. I dreamed, last night of a skinned yogi bear, turning into my friend Rob. (Luxt - [Technochrist]). Then there was train hopping. And cds/DVDs that, when you touched their position on the glass case, shifted position, so that you could see them, better. That's not in order, at all. And it's not whole. And not what i meant to say. I dreamed (felt/ knew/ experienced) that, when i accepted the Destruction in my nature-- folded my wings around it, and around everything else, and drew it to me, i draw someone else to me, as well, and i can't say as i don't like that. But s/he/it is not drawn to me to be consumed, at least not with the same intent, but the becomeing one with consumption, not the devour and replace... Which is never there, always there... True in every action, and a lie under every surface...
kidneythieves - [Zer0space]--- Confusing? Not really. Sometimes i want to eat and forget. Other times i want to become a concise whole. These are not always Different Times. Why do you think Fenrys killed Odin and Ate the Su[o]n? I stole that from Zampanò. Anyway. It wasn't mere anger, or distemperment. It was betrayal, loneliness, longing. Things happen, and shit sucks. We try our best to merge with those around us and/or push them the hell away. Fuck it. I love you.
I'm gone.
