Time to quit.
Feb. 14th, 2003 05:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7I believe that, whether i have a back up job, it's time for me to leave this place. I just spent an hour, walking around campus in the cold, and the wet, to write a time and a date, and my initials ("DW"), on clipboards in various locations, throughout. Now, i understand as this necessary, but i hate it.
Later.
{Addendum. 5.57: I think that, due to the extreme tiredness, i may have missed some of the innane clipboards. Oh well. That they don't believe that we are doing our jobs, to the point that they must have us police our own actions, all of us, is the thing that hurts the most, in my mind. I'm a big fan of trust, though i give and take it sparingly. Sporadically. Tenatively is the word i'm looking for. When it's there, and true, it's important. Very important. That my job doesn't trust me, to do as i should, and said i would, bothers me.
It is my Job to patrol this campus, when on a certain shift. It is my Job to make sure that everyone on this campus, after 11 pm, is somehow authorized to be here. There are many other factors in my job, and i'll do them all, if grudgingly. Because they are the doctates of that which i have chosen, because i require monetary recompensation. You know? But that my "Job" now wants me to police myself, and my co-workers, that my "job" takes at least thirty minutes out of time that could be much more well-spent, doing so many other things (like sleeping normal hours, after a nine hour school day), that my "job" thinks that we are That lazy and incompitent... That will not stand. That is not my job. That makes nothing more secure.
And these hours are killing any chance at real rest, for me.
End rant.}
Later.
{Addendum. 5.57: I think that, due to the extreme tiredness, i may have missed some of the innane clipboards. Oh well. That they don't believe that we are doing our jobs, to the point that they must have us police our own actions, all of us, is the thing that hurts the most, in my mind. I'm a big fan of trust, though i give and take it sparingly. Sporadically. Tenatively is the word i'm looking for. When it's there, and true, it's important. Very important. That my job doesn't trust me, to do as i should, and said i would, bothers me.
It is my Job to patrol this campus, when on a certain shift. It is my Job to make sure that everyone on this campus, after 11 pm, is somehow authorized to be here. There are many other factors in my job, and i'll do them all, if grudgingly. Because they are the doctates of that which i have chosen, because i require monetary recompensation. You know? But that my "Job" now wants me to police myself, and my co-workers, that my "job" takes at least thirty minutes out of time that could be much more well-spent, doing so many other things (like sleeping normal hours, after a nine hour school day), that my "job" thinks that we are That lazy and incompitent... That will not stand. That is not my job. That makes nothing more secure.
And these hours are killing any chance at real rest, for me.
End rant.}
