True admiration, and respect...
Jan. 19th, 2003 05:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Tool - [Disposition]--- I'm slightly without words, these days, to describe the things i need... (Tool - [Reflection]). The things i Like... I like respect and admiration, and i Dislike blind, unfounded jealousy. These are not things i like given To me, they are the things i like to see, in the world, or to give to others, and have them know that they are True. When i see some one about whom i care getting true praise and recognition, for her or his works, it makes me really happy. When i see someone about whom i care either Being, or being treated With jealousy, or maliciously intended spite, then i'm unhappy. Yes, there are types of spite that aren't wholly malicious. Spite can be good natured.
Digression. When someone i don't even know gets pissy at me, for Talking to their significant other, talking though it may be in a closed room, but obviously no More than talking, and gets interjectionally upset about it, to the point that they need to surreptitiously insert themselves into what was obviously a private conversation, then that's a little much. Granted, i don't know the detailed dynamics, here (like i said: I just Met the guy). Yet. Anymore of this, though, and i know all i need to, which is that i really hate the Jealousy and territoriality that come, when someone feels Threatened. I hate it because that means that they are thinking of their Other as something to be Possessed. A Thing. And, to me, treating a Sig. Other as a Thing is a sure-fire way to fucking Lose them, in a way you won't be able to Fix, in a hurry.
I don't know... I like it when some one show's genuine appreciation, and care. And Trust, God Pound it! Sorry.. i slipped back in to relationship talk. No. I get filled with this feeling of rightness, when there's true Respect and,... &c., because that means that people are being affected by each other. Something, in one, has taken hold, in another, and they are co-mingling, and they are you..... I didn't mean to write the word "you," there (Was looking at a bus.), but it stays. (Tool - [Triad]). Because there's a simplicity, in all of the best revelations. Says something about old Mushroom John, doesn't it? Wandering, again.
I want to let you know how great i think you all are, for your various reasons, but i keep fucking trying to say that, in different ways, over and over again, and, eventually, one of two things is going to happen: Either it will lose all meaning, to hear any word of praise, from me, or you will know it, intrinsically, what i think of you and your works. If those two things Have to be separate. *sighs 'n stuff* I'm a little tired. A little dehydrated. A little hungry. But, then, 2/3 of a bottle of Dewar's Scotch will do that to you.
I'm out. Working. Back later.
Digression. When someone i don't even know gets pissy at me, for Talking to their significant other, talking though it may be in a closed room, but obviously no More than talking, and gets interjectionally upset about it, to the point that they need to surreptitiously insert themselves into what was obviously a private conversation, then that's a little much. Granted, i don't know the detailed dynamics, here (like i said: I just Met the guy). Yet. Anymore of this, though, and i know all i need to, which is that i really hate the Jealousy and territoriality that come, when someone feels Threatened. I hate it because that means that they are thinking of their Other as something to be Possessed. A Thing. And, to me, treating a Sig. Other as a Thing is a sure-fire way to fucking Lose them, in a way you won't be able to Fix, in a hurry.
I don't know... I like it when some one show's genuine appreciation, and care. And Trust, God Pound it! Sorry.. i slipped back in to relationship talk. No. I get filled with this feeling of rightness, when there's true Respect and,... &c., because that means that people are being affected by each other. Something, in one, has taken hold, in another, and they are co-mingling, and they are you..... I didn't mean to write the word "you," there (Was looking at a bus.), but it stays. (Tool - [Triad]). Because there's a simplicity, in all of the best revelations. Says something about old Mushroom John, doesn't it? Wandering, again.
I want to let you know how great i think you all are, for your various reasons, but i keep fucking trying to say that, in different ways, over and over again, and, eventually, one of two things is going to happen: Either it will lose all meaning, to hear any word of praise, from me, or you will know it, intrinsically, what i think of you and your works. If those two things Have to be separate. *sighs 'n stuff* I'm a little tired. A little dehydrated. A little hungry. But, then, 2/3 of a bottle of Dewar's Scotch will do that to you.
I'm out. Working. Back later.
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Date: 2003-01-20 11:26 am (UTC)