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wolven7So, Work still sucks royal donkey ass nuggets, to be horridly vulgar about the situation. 11pm-7am, Fri-Sat.; 8am-4pm, Sat.; 4pm-12am, Sun-Mon. That last shift is by myself, which wouldn't be so bad, if i had Ever Been Trained! Those first two, yeah, they keep me awake for over 17 hours, straight. I'm Pissed. And you know what? Classes are up, and i don't have enough money, to buy books, and i won't, until next week sometime, after the schedule of Hell.
School is not yet familiar enough, in setting, to be a comfort. I was there, three weeks ago, but all of the classes i occupied are, now, no longer mine. And that really does nothing for comfort. New surroundings, and all of the rooms feel so cold. People are feeling change, and i'm feeling nothing, save a nominal elation, when i'm at school, and not in class, save German. When i'm at home, i feel alone, and when i'm not at home, i feel cold. Stagnation? No. Crux of of possibilities? No more than usual. Shit is simply sucking. And anything that doesn't take into account, right now, that i may know something, or that they may not know Everything, or anything ("Always remember: You may be wrong."), really needs to stay the fuck out of my way, right now. I'm cranky, and i'm tired, and i'm tired of people agreeing with me, and i'm tired of people disagreeing with me, and all i really fucking want is a little understanding, and for everyone to back way the hell off, until i ask them to come around. < /Whine.>
So fuck it. If anyone can look at me, on any level and see something worth-while, please do me a favour, and let me know, because i'm simply not feeling it, right now. Honestly, i'm not feeling much of anything good, At the moment. That'll change, tomorrow. Maybe.
Promises that i must keep, and miles to go, before i weep... with apologies to the Frosty one...
And to all of you. < /Self pity.>
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School is not yet familiar enough, in setting, to be a comfort. I was there, three weeks ago, but all of the classes i occupied are, now, no longer mine. And that really does nothing for comfort. New surroundings, and all of the rooms feel so cold. People are feeling change, and i'm feeling nothing, save a nominal elation, when i'm at school, and not in class, save German. When i'm at home, i feel alone, and when i'm not at home, i feel cold. Stagnation? No. Crux of of possibilities? No more than usual. Shit is simply sucking. And anything that doesn't take into account, right now, that i may know something, or that they may not know Everything, or anything ("Always remember: You may be wrong."), really needs to stay the fuck out of my way, right now. I'm cranky, and i'm tired, and i'm tired of people agreeing with me, and i'm tired of people disagreeing with me, and all i really fucking want is a little understanding, and for everyone to back way the hell off, until i ask them to come around. < /Whine.>
So fuck it. If anyone can look at me, on any level and see something worth-while, please do me a favour, and let me know, because i'm simply not feeling it, right now. Honestly, i'm not feeling much of anything good, At the moment. That'll change, tomorrow. Maybe.
Promises that i must keep, and miles to go, before i weep... with apologies to the Frosty one...
And to all of you. < /Self pity.>
Dream
Heh.
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Date: 2003-01-08 06:17 pm (UTC)--JMDC