Late night thoughts...

There are certain people I only see once per year, but I enjoy seeing them, every year. Dragon*Con brings this to mind, and the fact that (of course) taxidermied and Voltaire are friends.

Late nights talking to Roman, via AIM, before he got all super-crazy-busy-house, discussing comics, and how he was more than just some Edward Gorey rip-off.

Late nights drinking with Voltaire. Or some random people I found on the floor of the 17th floor hallways, in the Hyatt Regency.

Panel Without a Purpose.

I was listening to the Pain album, "Milk," tonight, remembering the first time i heard it, when i lived in the Douglas House. Summer nights, cookouts, booze, music, and new friends.

It's almost Con time, again. I know, because my calender tells me things. Secret things. That, and I can think about last year, in detail, without wanting to be violently ill.

The Stranglers - [Golden Brown]--- Time for bed. Class tomorrow.

Blearg. Dreams.

Sweet - [Ballroom Blitz]--- taxidermied putting out his own album, and mech_angel and jenniebreeden sitting on the proch, at right angles to current reality, while i cleaned the grounds/dug for pirate treasure in a garden, between the slats of the porch.

That's all I remember, at current.

It's going to be a Long day...

Words later.

[EDIT 9.13am: Tori Amos - [Bliss]--- There was also a section about the graduation ceremonies being on the train platform at Doraville MARTA Station, and there being actors from and talk about the Lord of the Rings movies, to watch the procedings.

Massive Attack - [Man Next Door]--- The latter symbols I blame on my Ringwraith bookmark.

Time for some small foods, then out. Ta.]

No matter where you stand, you will never be completely objective.

I've realised something, today: I'm not nearly sociopathic enough to do what I claim to want to do. If I could not care about friendships or other inter-personal interactions, I could get three doctorates,a nd spend my time studying. All of it.

But my brain can't work that way. I like [certain, specific] people. I enjoy interaction, and I'm... Well I'm just not smart enough to do it all.

I'm stubborn. I'm willful.

I know what i want and I know what's necessary to get it.

But I don't want to give anything up, ever. Everything in my life is a worthy goal.

And....

I'm going to go smoke, before I get maudlin and whiny.

Back later.