Dei, Nox, et Omnia

Poe - [Hello]--- Full night's sleep, last night, and i barely remember anything. Something about a delegation to help people understand something, and people asking me to put plans to action.

I have some Wilfred Cantwell Smith, to finish reading, today, before heading to class. The man writes in a style that is... You know how, on Peking Duck, the skin is so crispy, because they blow air in between the skin/fat layer and the meat? That's what it's like reading him. There are wonderful ideas, there, and the outside is this elaborate and unnecessary presentation. Something that could be done Much simpler. To be completely blunt about it, it feels like he's using big words, because he can. And that pisses me off, so much.

I like to think that I know something about word choices, and the exactness of etymological meanings, and connotations, but jesus fucking christ. (Voltaire - [The Chosen]). There is a point at which word choice becomes secondary to clarity, and where you can elaborate in phrases, for understanding, instead of being-- seemingly-- deliberately obtuse. Fuck.

On another note, i'm quite sure you've all seen some version of This, by now. (Massive Attack - [Inertia Creeps]). I'd simply like to state that, from the time i was in high school, and before, Freedom of Speech has been taken Away from children, in slow and subtle degrees. The ones who were There, when it happened, fought it, but those who came after took it as status quo. There are entire generations of children, out there, growing up not knowing what the fucking constitution means to them, At All. All because of the increased climate of fear, due to a few extremists, who did some terrible things (Columbine, &c.). Hmm. Are we seeing parallels? Are we seeing An Agenda, perhaps?

Restricting freedoms is as simple as getting people to accept that it's the status quo. So don't let them. Teach people, show them, make them understand what the fuck is happening, before people start getting shot in the street, for saying they didn't like what colour suit the president was wearing, during the SotU Address.

In two words: Fix This.

I'm off to school. You kids have good days, now, y'hear? Don't let the SS bite. Again.

Today was definately a building day.

Ani DiFranco - [Knuckledown]--- I spent today working webs, and building conversations. Getting people to get to know each other, and coraling the various ideals toward each other. Like herding Shep, only with Humans, who know that you're doing it, and are merely allowing it. I love my human friends. Work to be done, still.

It's been a while since someone fully recognised my unapologetic Arrogance, in the fact that i want everyone to be as arrogant as I am. Had someone see it, today. And remember, kids, i would neither Be this arrogant, nor Support this kind of arrogance, if i was not given reason to do so. (Ani DiFranco - [Studying Stones]). I've seen the edifying effects of Pride, and how it may, in fact, go before a fall, but that fall is only a prelude to amazing heights you never would have reached. Anywho, i digress.

I'm still trying to impress people, and trying to remind myself that i don't need to Try, because i Do. They've told me so, themselves. And, when they do, it fucks with my head, and i don't understand it. Odd how we react, when we get what we want, without asking for it. So, I'm remembering all of the people who believe in me, and al of the reasons they think they have for doing so, and Graduate School seems a little less intimidating. My mother said i was smarter than either her or my father, tonight, and that.... blows my fucking mind, as they are two of the most intelligent people i've ever met, ever. EVER.

Ani DiFranco - [Manhole]--- A new friend also reminded me of something, today: Think of all the stupid professors you know. Now think about the fact that they got doctorates. Now realise that the people you admire did, as well. You're smarter than the stupid ones, and may well be on the level of the smarter ones. You'll be fine. Good things.

I went, tonight, to see my mother's new house. Which may, in the fall, be my new house. The room would be amazing, i'd have my car, and the rent would be non-existent. Yeah, it's living with my mother, but, for not being able to make my own money, it'd an amazing thing. We shall see, but i'm definately thinking yes. The downsides tend toward my social interactions. (Ani DiFranco - [Sunday Morning]). I'd have to go to other people's houses, for a change. Horror of horrors.

I bought this album, and the movie "Frailty," tonight, as well as a white board, to put up in my room, as thought-organisational. I like this album.

I'm off to download the GradSchool application, and register for the GRE. Also, i have to e-mail professors, about Recommendation letters.

Later.

Shit... Here's where i have trouble...

Faith & The Muse - [The Burning Season]--- "In approximately 250-500 words total, please answer the following two questions."

Fuck.... only 500, for two questions? This should be interesting...