I dreamed i met Amanda Palmer.

Amanda Palmer, of the Dresden Dolls, was im my dream, for no good reason. I was in a warehouse, doing some kind of musical work, that involved me being the audience, and the performer., alo9ng with a few other people. Seth and Elizabeth were there. She talked to us, and waved, as she had to go. There was something, earlier, about having to force busses to stop, with my mind, as they were coming down combinations of my dad's street, and Briarlake road. One turned sideways, and skidded down the road... It was strange... Something about the people who will be at my house, later today, for their gaming. session.

{10.22amOhGr - [Lusid]--- Something else about drawing a cat, as it lounged,a nd turned, toward me, trying to be playful, but my drawing it was certain, somehow, and serious. My gradmother was there, and genuinely impressed with my rendering of the cat, not just gushing over me, like a grandmother does, sometimes. I was happy to draw and play with the kitty, but sad, too.}

Today is a day of rest, for me. A little study, a little picking up my check, some food and that's it.

I don't know why my body thought six-ish hours of sleep was an ok way to start today. But i think i'll rectify it, if i can.

Read the thesis. Participate in the Meme. I fuckin' Know you people can read and write. Don't make me come in there....

Fine, what the fuck ever.

Mai Yamane& The SEATBELTS - [Blue]--- Sure. Your "Higher self" is a dragon, elf, faerie, wolf-raven-chimera conglomerate of wires and fluffy rainbow kitties. (Meryn Cadell - [Why Do I Do]). You're everything and every one you want to be, and how you conceive yourself is a large part of how others conceive of you. Play to appearances, and never, never, ever just try to figure out what makes you yourself, without words, or human conceptual understandings. Never try to get to the bottom of it, and understand yourself, on your own level. Because that would be hard.

Yes, you have a "higher self," that's composed of star-stuff, and integrated, and is separate and distinct from you. Oooh, maybe it's even omni-predicate. It keeps things from you, "for your own good," and tells you things as you're ready to hear them. No, it's not you disassosciating, at all. It is in no way a sign that you're not ready for the levels of responsibility that you think you are.

No, your conceptions of "higher" and "lower" aren't hindering your progress, through life. (Hellsing - [R&R with Saint Dracula]). Yes, they're a clear understanding of the way things actually are. Sarcasm? Why would i be sarcastic, with you?

Now shut the fuck up, and get on with it, already. The irony is fucking killing me.

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Thesis. Meme.

Things about which you should tell me. Now.

Voltaire - [When You're Evil]--- DC Area People or Anyone, Therein On the Following Times: Meet and Greet, Some Date Between the 24th and the 29th. Yes or No?

Winter Holiday Presents.

Thesis.

Meme.

Panacea - [Lowtek (Intro)]--- That is all. For now.

Continuation of Thesis

The Dresden Dolls - [Mrs. O (Live)]--- What this means, in a psychological context, is that we choose our personalities, the collections of preferences which will guide us, as a birthing action into existence (another old idea). (Oingo Boingo - [Gratitude]). If we are part of a "single energetic consciousness," as the energy monists would put it, then, to display differences, we must be permutations of that infinite energy. We must have preferences, to become incarnate, in this reality. But this is not simply energy monism; this is not about "returning to the source, from which we all sprang." This reality is about understanding, growth, and change.

Everything we see around us changes. It passes through stages of existence and eventually reconstitues, back, into the whole. But it is no longer what it was, when it left, through the simple expedient of having left, in the first place. It has experienced things, and learned things, and is itself, independent of the whole, as well as a vital part of it. (Tykwer,Klimek,Heil - [Running Two]). This means, simply, that it is itself, and that is the point. It has regained a completeness, but it has re-realised a constituent of that infinity, that it had "lost," prior to its incarnation. It is an individual, and a constituent.

Without the conception as the whole and particulate, the indivdual and the conglomerate, the "Unique Borg," the picture of the infinite is incomplete. Every experience and every thought, word, deed, point of view is as certain and whole and completely true, as every other. (kidneythieves - [Feathers]). They are all necessary parts, and all lessons to learn. We chose our paths, through the universe, before we start. But this does not mean that they are set in stone. Choices breed choices, and, when we allow facets to inter- and react, we cause new, unforseen combinations of the whole. New choices to make, new directions to take, on the path of the whole.

What guides us, is our drive toward change. We move toward becoiming what we are, in the whole: Our personal permutation of the Infinite Algorithm. (Tenacious D - [Tribute]). This contains within it, much like the line between one and zero, an infinity of its own. This is a reflection and a facet of the thing, itself, which is also, in this case, the thing. The best map of the territory is the territory, itself, but being within it, we cannot see it, for what it is. We have to stand on a different vector, "apart" from the territory, to see a route layed out, before us, to guide us through.

The contents of our conscious, preconscious, and sub-conscious minds are all determined by the choices we make, and the initial set of choices we make are determined by the perceptual and observational points we choose, when we bring ourselves into existence. (Interpol - [Roland]). Our problems can be lessons from which we learn, or blocks that wear away at us, a bit at a time, as we throw and scrape ourselves against them. The more problems we integrat, and the more we grow, the more our observational set comes to include the whole. From our personal vector. And that, too, is the point.

Writing ©Damien Williams. All Rights Reserved.

Voltaire - [The Last Word]--- Continuation hit me, as i was thinking about what i hadn't integrated, yet. The psychological angle needs to be more fully developed, but the whole thing does, so... It will be. This is a start, though.

I need to make myself tired, so i can get up at 8, tomorrow.

Later