Last, i think...

Snake River Conspiracy - [Breed]--- Eleven weeks. That's how long, until my lease is up. 2.5 months, until i move, again, and i've no idea as to where i'm moving. No clue as to what it will be, this time, or with whom. It's only slightly more likely that i'll continue with my current roommates, rather than not. And i can't say for sure that "not" wouldn't be better.

I've never lived on my own, always with a roommate. I also don't really have the means to live alone, yet. My income is pitiful, as a part-timer, so i need to fix that, and i need to do it, in a way that gets me closer to where i need to be. (Sinéad O'Connor - [Just Like U Said It Would B]). Teaching, teaching assistantship, whatever. Writing, publishing. Any of those would be nice.

I want to be able to work on my creative projects, again. I want to look at the piece, in front of my NorthWest window, and know what comes next, and draw it. Finish this thing i've been working on, for the past five years. Solidify what it is, so i can move on. I want to finish this story, and this script. I want to be able to remember.

I want coffee and booze and commraderie and commiseration, and peeling away layers, like lotus petals, or onion skins.

I want lots of things, it seems. Better get on those...

Night

Wow....

Helium Vola - [Omnis Mundi Creatura]--- More things for which i need money.

Omnis mundi creatura
quasi liber et pictura
nobis est in speculum;
nostrae vitae, nostrae mortis,
nostri status, nostrae sortis
fidele signaculum.
Nostrum statum pingit rosa
nostri status decens glosa
nostrae vitae lectio;
quae dum primum mane floret,
defloratus flos effloret
vespertino senio.

- Alain de Lille, 1128-1202

This band is a continuation of the principles and founder of QNTAL. Need.

And people wonder why i want kids...

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LUXT - [Perpetusex]--- In other news, a long night of convoluted dreams, with people calling me, and waking me up, and i don't remember shite. Simply more wanting, today, to the effect of human contacts. Specific.

Email me, today. Say something you've wanted to, for a while, even or especially if that something is to tell me what an asshole, jerk, whatever, i am, for whatever reason. But only if it's the honest truth. I need more honesty, these days, coupled with my truth. Things are too guarded, around here. Can't slide a proper edge under the skin, for anything....

I'm going to go art, for a while.

Have a great day, all.

Super-Collider.

VNV Nation - [Darkangel (Apocalyptic Mix by Das Ich)]--- "So i did some serious art, today, for the first time in god knows how long..." It was work on the piece that i started, in 1999, and have been working on, slowly, ever since. This is because i can only see bits and pieces of it, at any one time. Figuring out what the characters were standing upon took two years. Working out the physical details of one character, another year and a half. The background has been the worst, of all, elluding me, throguhout the process. I got a few metal pipes, and a monitor screen, but that was only for Part of it. I figured out the rest, last night, and in the process, it got a name.

Oingo Boingo - [Reptiles And Samurai]--- It's a super collider. And that sums up the picture, as well... Two characters, standing apart from one-another, very small gestures toward tentacles and claws touching, interlinking, staring at each other. There are overlaps, in the field.. I'm very happy... It's nearly finished...

I feel much better, for having worked on it, and gotten a large portion of the work done, today.

Jack Off Jill - [Losing His Touch]--- Spent the day at work putting ESQ watch boxes, in sleeves, and putting SKU numbers, on those boxes, and then putting "Basic" numbers, above those SKU numbers. Was very very tedious, but it gave me something to do, all damn day. When i looked up, again, it was 7.30pm. Good times.

I'm off. Later