So i'm on earlier than i thought...

Ass Ponys - [Little Bastard]--- This is because things rarely, if ever, go as planned, these days. I had an interesting conversation, earlier, about why Zen, as it stands, doesn't work for me. (Vangelis - [Blush Response]). Going with the flow not being one of my key points. I work with what i have, to get where i want to be, ever keeping my goals in mind. And so on.

But that is all something for another day... As it stands, i'm going to go do some reading, and some talking, and then to bed.

Here's a Horror Scope: Wolven, you might decide to set some boundaries with someone today. Usually, you're the easy-going type. You like to be generous with other people, and you have no problems doing a favor for somebody else. But today your patience could run out. Maybe someone is taking advantage of you, and they don't even realize it. It will be good to clear the air about this today. Don't suffer in silence!

Backwards.

Dream Well

To all of you, individually.

"Quiero hacer contigo
lo que la primavera
hace con los cerezos." - Pablo Neruda..

"Machine dreams hold a special vertigo." - Gibson

...I'm in a house that's a loft, a judge's bench, and a warehouse. People i know are there, and wandering around. I'm talking to someone about food, and drinks, and trying to find some, of my own, when i find some oatmeal, some pita bread, and some Grenadine. I put the oatmeal in the microwave, and i put the Grenadine on a plate, and start soaking it up with the pita bread. Katie says something to me about it, and start drinking from a bottle of vodka.

i'm in a criminal justice building, or a courthouse, which is also an outdoor courtyard. The light is all blues, greys and whites, with black trim. I'm a foreman, of some sort, trying to find a man who would know why i've been being hunted, by a sniper. I see myself from outside, and i'm John Hopkins. I find the guy, and i rail at him that his men are getting killed, out on the street, and that my friend was the foreman who almost got killed. He says something snide, and walks away. I tell him that he won't be able to ignore the problem, when this guy starts coming for the higher-ups.

I'm on a construction site, climbing up the side of a building, with the help of the bulldozer operator. She's whining at me to let her help out, with the blowtorch. She says "Come on, Sharz. I know you're the only one who gets to use the Mercury, but i can handle it." "Shut up. You ever had to wear a band-aid?" I ask her. "No." "Well, then don't change the one thing about you i like." As i say this last part, i'm trying to steady myself on some aluminum I-Beams, which are about to fall, 100 feet to the ground. I'm still standing on the bulldozer shovel, but i'm having to lean down, and steady the beams, and myself. I hear a ringing, i wake up

The phone woke me, and i was disoriented as hell. It was someone calling me back about the Douglas House... So thank you house, and thank you Dream. Hadn't been for that, i would have fallen, and that would have sucked. Oh, i forgot to mention, the me, in that last sequence, looked like Charlie Sheen. *shrug* Other than that, it amazes me that people can drive me to drink, even in my dreams. *pulls out the scythe, starts humming to himself*

Who wants some therapy?

Day Dream

"Trying to remember words, failing in the snow. Strained against the new bed boards, screaming as we

Hamsters & Wumpscut - [The Hamster Dance (Undead Mix)]--- So i don't know if i've made note of it, or not, dure to fear of reprisal, or upheaval, or whathave you, people saying things like "Oh gods, even me?!" Well, maybe not you, but enough of the outlying areas to be a nuisance. (Ass Ponys - [Little Bastard]). Immaturity. That's what i'm talking about, for those wondering. There's a huge influx of it, in those around me. Immaturity, and unrequite, and dissatisfaction, without drive to do a damn thing about it. Well... ok... that last one isn't new... But the rest are at least new enough to be irritating.

Jump Little Children - [Come out Clean]--- So i'm working towards fixing it, somehow. I've also been finding more and more tricksters, around. Not "surprising", really, more along the lines of Note-Worthy. Everyone i know seems to be finding some trickster aspect, with whom to identify. But some of them seem to have lost their way, just as much... or maybe it's all my shifting perspectives, and facets... Smooth jewels are rarely interesting... But whatever.

Skinny Puppy - [Morter]--- "...and she'll End, and the World Ends." But that's neither here nor there, now is it? Or is it? I don't really know anymore.. all i know, right now is that i need a car, i want the Douglas house, and i can't wait for school to start again. Focus on something other than the petty shite, around me. Having a way to learn the things i want to learn, without the rest of the world thinking they can intrude, simply because i'm not in a class room, or a lecture hall. My home is my lecture hall, gods damn it. My mind is my class room. Let me read, in peace.

VNV Nation - [Darkangel (Azrael)]--- Fuck it. Petty gripe. Not the larger problem. I'll get to that, later, i'm sure.. But until then, i'll fix the smaller things, so they don't become bigger, and i'll set smaller control fires, to stave off the larger blaze, until i can get to it, and turn it into a Driving Fire. I love the act of transformation. Creation and Destruction are One, when you Transform or transmute something... It's the same kind of Soul Licking, Mind Fucking experience i look for in people...

I need, in others, the ability to Change, to Adapt. To take away everything that seems to be the Truth, on the outside, and still, at the CORE, retain the Spark that is Their Truth, that has always been there... And to have whatever they wear, on top of it, focus, enhance, not Obscure that Spark.. That Truth... Let the facets show the Jewel, and let the Jewel be known for what it truly is... Unique, True, and Whole, No matter the covering...

Eminem - [Squaredance]--- I'd ask that you think about what i've written, here, and try to understand it, but that would be redundant, hypocritical, and unnecessary. So, other than that, i'll be back, later.

Dream