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wolven7That was on, earlier today. On F/X. I love that movie, for so many reasons. It's wonderful to realise that the things in your life have an impact on you, even as you learn about and try to impact them. You learn of the strings and cogwheels, within yourself, and you know that, whether you like it or not, a wooden boy with wants is a real boy, too. That just kind of came out... i meant to talk about reading "The Illuminatus! Trilogy," and watching Conspiracy Theory, and finding the really fucked up, if tenuous connections, there. But whatever works, really.
I saw something beautiful, on the National Geographic Channel, about 20 minutes ago. It was about stem cell research, and the Reeve Institute. There was this rat that had lost the use of it's legs, due to nerve damage, and they kept showing footage of the rat, walking around with only its forepaws. They cut to Christopher Reeve, and he's talking about how with the stem cell work they had done, the rat was recovered, in a few weeks. The interviewer kept asking what he meant by recovered, and all he would say, in response was "recovered." Emphatically, over and over again. They showed footage of the rat, again, walking, and you could tell that it was the same rat, due to the markings. It had a slight limp, then they elapsed it, and there was less of a limp, elapsed again, and no limp at all. I nearly cried.
Today is the beginning of more light in the world, for the year, which means less darkness, in its way. The brighter the light, the darker the shadow, and all that. Think about your shadow selves, today, if you will. I dreamed of mine, last night.
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absinthetics. I'm bored, so i'll do it.
PRESCHOOL: Was Marsh Montessori School, in D.C. I used to walk around, hum to myself, take naps, and make up new stories about Little Red Riding Hood, using the peg people, at my playtime disposal. When my mother asked me what i did, during the day, i would say "I walked around and Hummed." It was there that i killed a tooth, on the left side of my face, when i fell down some stairs. I learn about girls, from the magazines hidden under my uncle's bed.
KINDERGARTEN: J.O. Wilson Elementary, in D.C. I hated this school. With a deep passion. But my sister was there, and i was able to bear it. I fell from monkey bars, onto asphalt (5 feet), and split my lip.
FIRST: I'm at Georgetown Day School. I meet my friends, then. Rita and Mary Lou are my teachers.
SECOND: I went to Two different second grade schools. One was Shepard Elementary, where i learned how to write in Arabic, That i could eat paper and not die, That there was a Story called "Seven Brothers," that 300 seconds is five minutes. My teacher was Michelle Studebaker. The second school was J.O. Wilson, again, and for the last time. My teacher would hit the kids with a yard stick. I learned how to semantically take apart the word Submarine, and from there, all words. I learned this, while paying attention to my Sister's class, which was one room over from ours. The space had no walls, only partitions.
THIRD: Back at GDS, with my friends. Lisa (the first of Two) is my teacher.
FOURTH: The year we put on the play "Jason and the Argonauts." I was Hermes. Joan was my teacher. Also the year George David and I, along with Ricki, Wrote a Scrip about Megaman. Helium, festival days. G.D. and Ricki create a compound that eats Only metal. I improve upon said compound, turning it into something that eats only metal, all Kinds of metal, and solidifies, and continues to do its work. I read "Island of the Blue Dolphins," and "Julie of the Wolves." In this year, i write a Dream Journal, chronicling the Reoccurring dreams i had, when i was smaller.
FIFTH: Middle School Starts. Am in Robyn's Class. Hate this woman. A Lot. She smokes, and is cruel to her students. Showing me, of all people, awkward praise, tinged with fear. Parents raise hell. I find and read, sporadically, "The Forgotten Beasts of Eld," by Patricia A. McKillip. All these yeas i thought it was a different Title, by Anne McCaffrey.
SIXTH: Am in Second Lisa's Sixth grade class. Our school news paper is called The Authorized Version. Our class decides that it's time for a little rebellion, and civil disobedience. We come out with "The Unauthorized Version." Full of cussing, political dissension, and questioning the leadership of our school administrators. What fun... I leave GDS, this year... I begin to lose contact with friends...
SEVENTH: I come to Georgia. Hate my school, among other things. Realise i need glasses. Go back to D.C. Am home schooled, with sisters, by Father, and StepMother. Math. Bible Lessons. New house for dad. Interesting times in familial emotional manipulation.
EIGHTH: Back in GA. Inman Middle School. Meet Jacosa Kato. Meet many many people. Am blackmailed, due to infatuation. I start collecting the souls of my peers, via contract.
NINTH: Grady. I start smoking. Carrying Knives. Using my own Blood, in my art.
TENTH: Still Grady. Am only here, until february. I get kicked out of Grady.
ELEVENTH: Horizons. Life Changes.
TWELFTH: Life changes, further, and i am a Teacher.
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - Y-O-U-... Oh... Smaillaw
[ x ] The story behind your lj user name? - It's my name.
[ x ] Are you a lesbian?- Trapped in a man's body, perhaps.
[ x ] Where do you live?- Fairly nomadic, until Recently.
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - angst, understanding, create, Change.
DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - leather tri-fold, with places to hold things.
[ x ] Hairbrush - Blue.
[ x ] Toothbrush - purple and silver
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - a silver Yin/Yang ring, a silver chain, with the symbol for Dog, and a celtic knot wolf's tooth, done in pewter.
[ x ] Pillow cover - Black
[ x ] Blanket - Blue and Beige.
[ x ] Coffee cup - i have none.
[ x ] Sunglasses - See above.
[ x ] Underwear - Boxers, when i do.
[ x ] Favorite top - The shirt my mother bought me, last christmas that says "Oh Crap... You're going to try to Cheer me Up, aren't you?"
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - Drakkar Noir, Tuskany, or Polo Sport. I don't wear, any more; sinuses.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - Queens of the Stone Age, Animal, and Spine Shank
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - None
[ x ] What you are wearing now - Black, long sleeved pocket shirt, black jeans, steel toed combat boots.
[ x ] Hair - Short
[ x ] Makeup - none
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - Coca-Cola
[ x ] In my head - Connections, Contemplations, Conspiracy, and "Comatose! Another 'C!'"
[ x ] Wishing - Understanding.
[ x ] After this - Packing for DC.
[ x ] Talking to - No one.
[ x ] Eating - last thing i ate was a Bacon Double Cheeseburger from Burger Lord. I got none of last night's pizza.
[ x ] Fetishes - knives, ropes, whips chains, fire... all the usual boring claptrap.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, and for what reason - Adam Weishaupt, if, after i talked to him, he didn't give me a satisfactory reason.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Too many to list.
[ x ] Is next to you - Things that aren't mine, in a room that isn't mine.
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Dark City, Matrix, Shaolin Soccer, Lock,Stock, And Two Smoking Barrels. 12 Monkeys, Baron Munchausen, Brazil, Kafka. List goes on.
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - Being the last half of December? or January? I see Armitage andkitsuchan, this coming week. And January is school, again, with kick arse teachers.
[ x ] The last thing you ate - Bacon Double etc...
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of- Dying without anyone understanding.
[ x ] Do you like candles - they can be nice.
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - Yes.
[ x ] Do you like incense - either way.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - YEs.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Yes...
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in God - That's a tricky one. i know in GodS, including the one you mean.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - Burned, ashes into fire, fire cooked over, all ashes scattered in a forest where wolves are known to hunt.
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - Me, of course.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - Wolf. But i'd have to have lots and Lots of land... and a Pack, for it.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - several days
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - No
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yes.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - Chinese 1 cent piece. It's made of aluminum, weighs virtually Nothing, and doesn't even feel like metal. It feels like plastic. It's wonderful.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candy - Cherry Cordials, anything chocolate, really. I really dig the new Hershey's Mint Kisses.
[ x ]What's something that you wish people would understand - Each other.
[ x ]What's something you wish you could understand better - Why people think their motivations always make sense.
[ x ]Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - Yes.
[ x ]What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow -"Teacher," "Understanding," "Knowing Each other and themselves..." Gee, i dunno... I think i'll destroy the universe.
If I were a stone, I would be a... Ruby.
If I were a tree, I would be a... Purple Oak
If I were a bird, I would be a... Raven
If I were an insect, I would be a... i don't know
If I were a machine, I would be ... What happens when all the consciousnesses come together, either just AS they are coming together, or just before they fracture out, into new facets. Just as the cracks begin to appear.
If I were a tool, I would be a... a crowbar.
If I were a fruit, I would be a... Pomegranate.
If I were a flower, I would be an... Purple Orchid or Black Rose.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be... The ozone just before an enourmous storm.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be a... RavenPhoenix.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be a... Bass Guitar.
If I were a kind of profession, I would be a... Messenger.
If I were an animal, I would be a... wolf.
If I were anything in the world, I would be... Able.
If I were a color, I would be... somewhere between a combination of grey and gold and silver and black.
If I were a fragrance, I would be... animal.
If I were an emotion, I would be... angst, bordering on acceptance.
If I were a state or feeling, I would be... discomfort.
If I were a vegetable, I would be... ineddible...
If I were a sound, I would be... raven's wings, in a stabilizing motion, as it lands.
If I were an Element, I would be... Mercury
So that's that... Also, i did a search for my Full name, on Google, and got a lot of Omen movie sites (Natch), but the names of the people in those movies, were kind of humourous. All common names, of course, but still funny.
Finally, there is a person in my complex with a Cthulhu Fish bumper sticker. This makes me terribly happy. :)
Later Kids.
Dream Well
(By the way.. it took me nearly 2 hours to complete this damned thing. Heh. Bored.)
I saw something beautiful, on the National Geographic Channel, about 20 minutes ago. It was about stem cell research, and the Reeve Institute. There was this rat that had lost the use of it's legs, due to nerve damage, and they kept showing footage of the rat, walking around with only its forepaws. They cut to Christopher Reeve, and he's talking about how with the stem cell work they had done, the rat was recovered, in a few weeks. The interviewer kept asking what he meant by recovered, and all he would say, in response was "recovered." Emphatically, over and over again. They showed footage of the rat, again, walking, and you could tell that it was the same rat, due to the markings. It had a slight limp, then they elapsed it, and there was less of a limp, elapsed again, and no limp at all. I nearly cried.
Today is the beginning of more light in the world, for the year, which means less darkness, in its way. The brighter the light, the darker the shadow, and all that. Think about your shadow selves, today, if you will. I dreamed of mine, last night.
This was stolen from
absinthetics. I'm bored, so i'll do it.PRESCHOOL: Was Marsh Montessori School, in D.C. I used to walk around, hum to myself, take naps, and make up new stories about Little Red Riding Hood, using the peg people, at my playtime disposal. When my mother asked me what i did, during the day, i would say "I walked around and Hummed." It was there that i killed a tooth, on the left side of my face, when i fell down some stairs. I learn about girls, from the magazines hidden under my uncle's bed.
KINDERGARTEN: J.O. Wilson Elementary, in D.C. I hated this school. With a deep passion. But my sister was there, and i was able to bear it. I fell from monkey bars, onto asphalt (5 feet), and split my lip.
FIRST: I'm at Georgetown Day School. I meet my friends, then. Rita and Mary Lou are my teachers.
SECOND: I went to Two different second grade schools. One was Shepard Elementary, where i learned how to write in Arabic, That i could eat paper and not die, That there was a Story called "Seven Brothers," that 300 seconds is five minutes. My teacher was Michelle Studebaker. The second school was J.O. Wilson, again, and for the last time. My teacher would hit the kids with a yard stick. I learned how to semantically take apart the word Submarine, and from there, all words. I learned this, while paying attention to my Sister's class, which was one room over from ours. The space had no walls, only partitions.
THIRD: Back at GDS, with my friends. Lisa (the first of Two) is my teacher.
FOURTH: The year we put on the play "Jason and the Argonauts." I was Hermes. Joan was my teacher. Also the year George David and I, along with Ricki, Wrote a Scrip about Megaman. Helium, festival days. G.D. and Ricki create a compound that eats Only metal. I improve upon said compound, turning it into something that eats only metal, all Kinds of metal, and solidifies, and continues to do its work. I read "Island of the Blue Dolphins," and "Julie of the Wolves." In this year, i write a Dream Journal, chronicling the Reoccurring dreams i had, when i was smaller.
FIFTH: Middle School Starts. Am in Robyn's Class. Hate this woman. A Lot. She smokes, and is cruel to her students. Showing me, of all people, awkward praise, tinged with fear. Parents raise hell. I find and read, sporadically, "The Forgotten Beasts of Eld," by Patricia A. McKillip. All these yeas i thought it was a different Title, by Anne McCaffrey.
SIXTH: Am in Second Lisa's Sixth grade class. Our school news paper is called The Authorized Version. Our class decides that it's time for a little rebellion, and civil disobedience. We come out with "The Unauthorized Version." Full of cussing, political dissension, and questioning the leadership of our school administrators. What fun... I leave GDS, this year... I begin to lose contact with friends...
SEVENTH: I come to Georgia. Hate my school, among other things. Realise i need glasses. Go back to D.C. Am home schooled, with sisters, by Father, and StepMother. Math. Bible Lessons. New house for dad. Interesting times in familial emotional manipulation.
EIGHTH: Back in GA. Inman Middle School. Meet Jacosa Kato. Meet many many people. Am blackmailed, due to infatuation. I start collecting the souls of my peers, via contract.
NINTH: Grady. I start smoking. Carrying Knives. Using my own Blood, in my art.
TENTH: Still Grady. Am only here, until february. I get kicked out of Grady.
ELEVENTH: Horizons. Life Changes.
TWELFTH: Life changes, further, and i am a Teacher.
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - Y-O-U-... Oh... Smaillaw
[ x ] The story behind your lj user name? - It's my name.
[ x ] Are you a lesbian?- Trapped in a man's body, perhaps.
[ x ] Where do you live?- Fairly nomadic, until Recently.
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - angst, understanding, create, Change.
DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - leather tri-fold, with places to hold things.
[ x ] Hairbrush - Blue.
[ x ] Toothbrush - purple and silver
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - a silver Yin/Yang ring, a silver chain, with the symbol for Dog, and a celtic knot wolf's tooth, done in pewter.
[ x ] Pillow cover - Black
[ x ] Blanket - Blue and Beige.
[ x ] Coffee cup - i have none.
[ x ] Sunglasses - See above.
[ x ] Underwear - Boxers, when i do.
[ x ] Favorite top - The shirt my mother bought me, last christmas that says "Oh Crap... You're going to try to Cheer me Up, aren't you?"
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - Drakkar Noir, Tuskany, or Polo Sport. I don't wear, any more; sinuses.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - Queens of the Stone Age, Animal, and Spine Shank
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - None
[ x ] What you are wearing now - Black, long sleeved pocket shirt, black jeans, steel toed combat boots.
[ x ] Hair - Short
[ x ] Makeup - none
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - Coca-Cola
[ x ] In my head - Connections, Contemplations, Conspiracy, and "Comatose! Another 'C!'"
[ x ] Wishing - Understanding.
[ x ] After this - Packing for DC.
[ x ] Talking to - No one.
[ x ] Eating - last thing i ate was a Bacon Double Cheeseburger from Burger Lord. I got none of last night's pizza.
[ x ] Fetishes - knives, ropes, whips chains, fire... all the usual boring claptrap.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, and for what reason - Adam Weishaupt, if, after i talked to him, he didn't give me a satisfactory reason.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Too many to list.
[ x ] Is next to you - Things that aren't mine, in a room that isn't mine.
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Dark City, Matrix, Shaolin Soccer, Lock,Stock, And Two Smoking Barrels. 12 Monkeys, Baron Munchausen, Brazil, Kafka. List goes on.
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - Being the last half of December? or January? I see Armitage and
kitsuchan, this coming week. And January is school, again, with kick arse teachers. [ x ] The last thing you ate - Bacon Double etc...
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of- Dying without anyone understanding.
[ x ] Do you like candles - they can be nice.
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - Yes.
[ x ] Do you like incense - either way.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - YEs.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Yes...
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in God - That's a tricky one. i know in GodS, including the one you mean.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - Burned, ashes into fire, fire cooked over, all ashes scattered in a forest where wolves are known to hunt.
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - Me, of course.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - Wolf. But i'd have to have lots and Lots of land... and a Pack, for it.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - several days
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - No
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yes.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - Chinese 1 cent piece. It's made of aluminum, weighs virtually Nothing, and doesn't even feel like metal. It feels like plastic. It's wonderful.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candy - Cherry Cordials, anything chocolate, really. I really dig the new Hershey's Mint Kisses.
[ x ]What's something that you wish people would understand - Each other.
[ x ]What's something you wish you could understand better - Why people think their motivations always make sense.
[ x ]Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - Yes.
[ x ]What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow -"Teacher," "Understanding," "Knowing Each other and themselves..." Gee, i dunno... I think i'll destroy the universe.
If I were a stone, I would be a... Ruby.
If I were a tree, I would be a... Purple Oak
If I were a bird, I would be a... Raven
If I were an insect, I would be a... i don't know
If I were a machine, I would be ... What happens when all the consciousnesses come together, either just AS they are coming together, or just before they fracture out, into new facets. Just as the cracks begin to appear.
If I were a tool, I would be a... a crowbar.
If I were a fruit, I would be a... Pomegranate.
If I were a flower, I would be an... Purple Orchid or Black Rose.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be... The ozone just before an enourmous storm.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be a... RavenPhoenix.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be a... Bass Guitar.
If I were a kind of profession, I would be a... Messenger.
If I were an animal, I would be a... wolf.
If I were anything in the world, I would be... Able.
If I were a color, I would be... somewhere between a combination of grey and gold and silver and black.
If I were a fragrance, I would be... animal.
If I were an emotion, I would be... angst, bordering on acceptance.
If I were a state or feeling, I would be... discomfort.
If I were a vegetable, I would be... ineddible...
If I were a sound, I would be... raven's wings, in a stabilizing motion, as it lands.
If I were an Element, I would be... Mercury
So that's that... Also, i did a search for my Full name, on Google, and got a lot of Omen movie sites (Natch), but the names of the people in those movies, were kind of humourous. All common names, of course, but still funny.
Finally, there is a person in my complex with a Cthulhu Fish bumper sticker. This makes me terribly happy. :)
Later Kids.
Dream Well
(By the way.. it took me nearly 2 hours to complete this damned thing. Heh. Bored.)
