wolven7 | "She makes me wanna die."

OhGr & Mark Walk - [Ratzez]--- So, i gave myself a Tarot reading last night... and i'm apparently going to lose a lot of things i care about, very soon. Good. Anyway, i had a very odd dream about doing Tarot readings, and searching for my toothbrush, in a school that was a combination of Grady and some preparatory academy. Then i was in jail, and i was a cartoon, in the style from back when Porky Pig was the Star, and he had all of those schoolhouse films.

Skinny Puppy - [Grave Wisdom]--- None of this makes any sense... Not a damn bit of it... You do not judge, based on what you hear of others. You try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. You lapse. You get nothing. And that's the way the world works. You lose things, people, ideas, respect, placement in people's minds. You lose all of these things, and you move on. You can't stop, for too long, and worry, because they've long since made the decision to go on, without you, you know? And i can't Not care. I've realised that, recently. I have to care.

Marilyn Manson - [Wormboy]--- How appropriate. When things hurt me, or disappoint me, or when i do something to hurt or disappoint someone about whom i care, i Care about it. And i don't need to Not care. I need to come to terms with t he fact that i Do care, and that i'm Going to care, and i need to Care, and get it over with. Try to put that Caring into a a thing that's going to do some good, in the long run. "Oh no, it is all the things they said it was. Oh no, I am all the things they said I was." (Luxt - [Spite]). And, again, the Music doesn't let me down. Could be the CDs i have on shufffle though.

"Antichrist Superstar," "Razing Eden," and "W.E.L.T." So it's a bit of a Down rotation. (Marilyn Manson - [Reflecting God]). I'm into a lot of really interesting things, these days, but none of it seems to matter... I can't write, cause it all seems like i've been here, before. And i'm sure t hat sounds cliche, but there's a poem i wrote, called "A Birthday Ode (In Four Parts)," and if you mix that with my poem "November," then you have about the size of the whole thing. Kind of... i'm into transcendence and fusion, a lot, recently, and that seems cliche, too... "But the AntiChrist Would play base, wouldn't he?" Yeah...

I think i'm going to go, now, because, apparently, i'm whining. Bye.