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Dec. 11th, 2002 01:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Squarepusher - [I Wish You Could Talk]--- What do i do, here? I have a lapse... a lapse in control... a lapse in my Self... And a Lapse in Paying the Fuck Attention.... I don't see... I don't see, at all... I raed it... and it was there. "Stop." The cards said it. Stop, or Three of Swords. And i don't listen. I lapse. Urges. And i'm lost now. And there's nothing i can do, bus say "I'm Sorry," over and over again. And i am without one of my Best friends, because of my urges, and my weakness, and my loss of Will. How very Human of me.
String Tribute to Tool - [Pushit]--- The things we do, in half-woken moments, oft reveal the most base, yet true, of our then-currnet natures. A touch, a placement of hands that, in waking hours would be nothing, holds, in the darkest hours of dawning understand, a new connotation. There is something Wrong, in me, and i have, apparently, disappointed someone about whom i care, very much. And what am i to do, say, think, and feel, now? Now that this has lost me something, som integral, and so There, that i-- Sin above all others-- took it for granted? Hmm? What do i do, now? I apologise. I say "I'm sorry."
And i hope that these inadequate words can convey a simple Fraction of the loss i feel.
String Tribute to Tool - [Pushit]--- The things we do, in half-woken moments, oft reveal the most base, yet true, of our then-currnet natures. A touch, a placement of hands that, in waking hours would be nothing, holds, in the darkest hours of dawning understand, a new connotation. There is something Wrong, in me, and i have, apparently, disappointed someone about whom i care, very much. And what am i to do, say, think, and feel, now? Now that this has lost me something, som integral, and so There, that i-- Sin above all others-- took it for granted? Hmm? What do i do, now? I apologise. I say "I'm sorry."
And i hope that these inadequate words can convey a simple Fraction of the loss i feel.
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Down on your behoof.
Date: 2002-12-11 06:01 am (UTC)It's not that you didn't lose something important, or that you failed to convey some of that feeling. It's...well, sleep dep does something to someone, but to me...I usually get nine hours, man. I'm like...I'm drunk without it. No air in brain.
Maybe I need to snort cheyenne pepper. That'll wake me up.
Yep, definitely drunk. That's the kind of response I'd expect to have to being drunk, if I were drunk.
But at least my second final is done. I'll turn in the Megatokyo Report today, then the big walk home, then the grand crash, and waking near midnight and probably playing Mario RPG instead of studying Japanese like I need to.
Who did you lose?
Because of course I'm perfect and can handle any problem in the world if I'm given enough personal information about the person I'm going to abus-I mean, help. I can fix you up right pretty.
"Holy cow! The sarcasm detector's going off the charts!"
"Oh, a SARCASM detector. That's a REALLY useful device."
*Exploding sarcasm detector*
Bah, I need to get bed rest. I may be a little funny as a dep-drunk, but you don't really need funny, right now, do you?
Enough. Later.
Re: Down on your behoof.
Date: 2002-12-11 01:53 pm (UTC)