I think it's time, again....

[wolven7]

For the teaing down of taboos and Social Structures. Walls, as it were. YOU! Yes you, the one reading this journal. I want, from you, in some form or another, an accounting of your comfort levels, with me. None of this "Feeling it out" shit. As i said, last night, "feeling out" comfort levels is like wandering around, with your eyes closed, in a semi-dark room, full of sharp thinks, slippery surfaces, broken glass, and random acid pits. Now, some would say that's half the fun, but you know what? I 'd like to know the easiest way not to piss off You, the reader, so i can decide if i Care enough, or if it's going to be Zen. Learn. Unlearn. Act as if you never knew.

Ya' Heard? (OhGr & Mark Walk - [Ratzez]). I'm feeling a little Punchy, a little Integration Happy, and i'm tired of Taboos, restrictions, and Social Moors. Deal with it. I know i'm trying to. In other news, i had a really fucked up dream, last night, during which i met Bobby Shaftoe's grandson. Bobby Shaftoe is a character, in "Cryptonomicon." In the dream, i'm a paranormal investigator, and i get strip searched at an airport, which turns into a secret government installation. (OhGr - [Water]). Then Bobby's grandson, Bobby, comes in, as a 20 year old, fucking with security, and freaking everyone out. Some other things happened, involving me and my partner, hiding things in the butts of our guns. Various explosives, hidden in compartments we had put there. I never see my partner, but know that she is female. Strange shite. Night before last, dreams about the Messiah, again, and Transformers, and a section, in my mall.

OhGr - [Devil]--- My Anti-Social tendencies are showing through... I seem to be able to switch my emotions on and off, today. And Keep them that way. How funny is that? I wish i had more to say here, but i wanted to tell you, J., i'm sorry i forgot to give you those poems. I had them with me and everything.... C'est La Vie. Sometime soon, i'm sure. On that first subject, i've been able to turn off feelings of lust/interest/attraction towards people, today, and simply Not Feel it. It wasn't There. Or, it Was There, but in that same way that the Homicidal Urges are There, in the Pope. If you can wrap your head around that one. (OhGr - [Kettle]). So, i'm going to head out of here, now, i think, and wonder what i'm going to do with myself, now that i'm done with the semster... Probably working, and saving up money, and paying bills... So many bills... And, for some reason, the fucks at work didn't give me any hours, next week. Oh well.

I'm out, and i May be back later. But probably not.

Dream Well

Comments

Future reference, in case it comes up...

[karishi.livejournal.com]

Don't kiss me. I've dodged enough of 'em from random people without having to dodge 'em from well-meaning friends, too.
Comfort levels...Man, whatchu talkin' 'bout?
Let's see. I'd say aside from the kissing and general "no touchy" zones, that room o' wandering aimlessly is pretty clean, and you can wander about as ye please. You'd really have to be banging on the walls on purpose to tick me off.

Oh, and about the switching on emotions..."how funny is that?"
If "amused" is one of the emotions you can switch on, I'd say it's pretty damn funny. Wouldn't you?

Re: Future reference, in case it comes up...

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Yep ^_^

my comfort levels

[(Anonymous)]

rules, social mores, taboos. oh my! how comfortable with you am i? and why? well the answer to the second question, is not known to me. in fact i dont think anyone could give you a real good reason for why i am at the comfort level i am at with people in general these days. it seems to be my thing this fall; being myself for once in my god damn life and not caring who sees and hears me. and its been fun it really has. you can say whatever you want/need to say, to me and i wont be offeneded. you could prolly bite/poke/(insert action here) me and i might do it back, depending on my mood and possibly time of day. (yeah that's a wussy way to get around it but its the truth and i know you value that, so when i say my actions are dependent on those things, i'm just5 giving you fair warning and being honest). i've even tried to show you my poetry, not that you ever got around to reading the bulk of it, but you caught some of the better pieces online and i wasnt uncomfortable doing that. which i consider a test of myself, you know i feel confident and assured when i'm willing to put myself out there for people to read. further, i feel i can say whatever i want to say to you honestly without incuring the kind of wrath others would bestow on such an action. so, i'd have to say that about sums up the major defining points of my comfort level with you. you can give me your poetry when i see you this weekend. thanks for listening.

--JMDC

Re: my comfort levels

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Cool... That means a lot to me. Thank you. Thank YOU for talking... :)

Comfort levels?

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not sure how to describe things, weird as they are. But I'd trust you not to let me fall into an acid pit. ^_^ And as for not pissing me off...Just continue as things are. You haven't yet.
-Mech

Re: Comfort levels?

[wolven.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Good. That makes things very happy. Talk to you soon.