Wanting Willing Won'ting. I need Jägermeister, Stat!

[wolven7]

This has been a rough couple of weeks.

What have I learned? So far, I don't know how to not want some thing. Some aim, some goal, some end. I want, I desire, I strive, and even if the thing toward which I'm striving is Acting From A Place Of Not Striving, then that has to be, for me, a goal. Or why am I doing it?

Add to this that my conception of what I want is tied very closely to seeking to attain. If I want a thing or state of being, why not seek to make it real? I think, sometimes, that I think that existence is a great-making quality; that if a thing Is it is better than if it simply Might Be. Then I remember that, no, I don't think that. What I think is that, unless something Is, we will never know which state is better. And, as it stands, I would always prefer to know.

So, again, the question is, can I be satisfied? Can I do other than want and then will?

Can I, in fact, Won't?

It all comes back around.

Good night.

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[catvincent.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, trying to avoid what Uncle Fester called Lust For Result is really over-rated.