Broken evening
Sep. 27th, 2010 03:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Queens Of The Stone Age - [Hangin' Tree]--- Been having a bit of a broken evening. Everything seems to be crumbling, slowly, and in that fashion where you know you have to run and jump from crumbling brick to crumbling brick, just to stay alive, just to stay on top of things and not fall several thousand feet to your watery, fiery, or just ever-abyssal demise.
Sin - [Hard Ebm]--- Something is always missing, these days. If it's not money, it's passion for work. If it's not passion, then it's confidence in ability. If it's not that, then it's a belief that it'll all add up to something, eventually. It's just... it's all in pieces, right now, and I don't know what to do about it.
I feel like I'm struggling to put together things that were already put together, and then people stopped holding the pieces and said "well I guess that's good" and they let go, and everything fell apart, because the glue was nowhere near set, yet. It was only just held together. (Otis Redding - [Cigarettes and Coffee]). So what the fuck am I supposed to do with all these sticky shards of things?
This is no one's fault, and it's not even a "people are busy" kind of thing. It's as if I'm speaking a completely different language, or that when I place emphasis on a topic, signifying need or meaning or yearning or importance, people hear a high-pitched whine. Urgent, and it definitely means something, sure, but it's really kind of annoying.
I meant to finsh and post this, an hour ago. Got distracted. that's what happens when you drink.
I'm going to bed, but I'll leave you with this thought: The entirety of T:SCC is an exercise in developing a living cybernetic system, on two simultaneous and interconnected levels: That of an Individual and a Systemic Bio/Mechanical Feedback Interface, in which both parts interact with and learn from each other across individual and societal levels, to different ends. This culminates in Cameron, John Henry, and (potentially) John Connor all learning how to learn from each other, and work together.
That's a much better movie, don't you think?
I think so. Good night.
Sin - [Hard Ebm]--- Something is always missing, these days. If it's not money, it's passion for work. If it's not passion, then it's confidence in ability. If it's not that, then it's a belief that it'll all add up to something, eventually. It's just... it's all in pieces, right now, and I don't know what to do about it.
I feel like I'm struggling to put together things that were already put together, and then people stopped holding the pieces and said "well I guess that's good" and they let go, and everything fell apart, because the glue was nowhere near set, yet. It was only just held together. (Otis Redding - [Cigarettes and Coffee]). So what the fuck am I supposed to do with all these sticky shards of things?
This is no one's fault, and it's not even a "people are busy" kind of thing. It's as if I'm speaking a completely different language, or that when I place emphasis on a topic, signifying need or meaning or yearning or importance, people hear a high-pitched whine. Urgent, and it definitely means something, sure, but it's really kind of annoying.
I meant to finsh and post this, an hour ago. Got distracted. that's what happens when you drink.
I'm going to bed, but I'll leave you with this thought: The entirety of T:SCC is an exercise in developing a living cybernetic system, on two simultaneous and interconnected levels: That of an Individual and a Systemic Bio/Mechanical Feedback Interface, in which both parts interact with and learn from each other across individual and societal levels, to different ends. This culminates in Cameron, John Henry, and (potentially) John Connor all learning how to learn from each other, and work together.
That's a much better movie, don't you think?
I think so. Good night.
