Did you ever have one of those days where it felt like someone poisoned your Soul?

[wolven7]

Manhattan Transfer - [Airegin]--- So, today, this morning, my vision started to blur, and there was this weird light at the edges of everything... i thought i was going blind. Everytime i tried to read anything, closer than two feet away, it got all shiny, and weird.. then i felt like i was going to be violently ill. My stomach, head, and pretty much everything just outside of my organs, felt really fucking weird. (Manhattan Transfer - [To You]). I was not amused, at all. But i ate some food, and then i felt better..... kind of...

There was this weird, jagged waveform of lethargy and nervous energy, today. It would spike up and down, in various people, and they would, generally, express it in ways, uncommon to them, or ways that Used to be common, but were, no longer. Falling into old patterns of behaviour, and so on. (Manhattan Transfer - [Meet Benny Bailey]). But, hey, whatever... i'm starting to hallucinate...

Today, twice, there were bugs on me.. The first one was one that everyone saw... or at least the person i was with... It was a very alien-looking bug, with a bifurcated tail, and it flew, or at least hovered... i don't know if it actually had wings... The second one was this tiny silver bug, that looked as if it was a piece of machinery, and it was on my hand. I tried to pick it up, or kill it, of something, and, when i opened my fingers, it was gone. It wasn't anywhere on my person, or around me. It was simply gone. (Manhattan Transfer - [Another Night in Tunisia]). I was very worried, about this... i'm having doubts as to my defenses, these days... I feel like i need ICE, for my soul...

Dreams about being poisoned, feeling that ill, all day, and the weird fucking vibe of the whole day... It makes me a tad nervous. That, and i've been getting weird, random pages. Someone left jazz music on my pager, tonight. Not that i Mind. I Like Jazz... Thank you, whoever you are... But i simply find it weird that someone would do that, and not take credit, or would simply want to make me wonder, that much. *shrug*

Manhattan Transfer - [Ray's Rockhouse]--- I did, however get to see a German film, tonight, by the name of "Drei Stern Rot," or Three Star Red... German border guard code... It was a really damn good movie... The ending was absolutely perfect. I highly recommend it, to anyone who likes Kafkaesque flashbacks... It'll be with me, for a while...

Now i'm here, sitting, thinking about sleep, really fucking early, for me.. Feeling like bugs are crawling on my skin... That's probably not good....

Wintermute. Neuromancer. Continuity. Steppin' Razor. Case. Angie. Count Zero.

I'm out, till later. Just in case:

Dream Well

Comments

Curious

[(Anonymous)]

Im not sure here but about the bug you were talking about being silver and looking like it belonged to a machine, were you talking about a silverfish? I know it doesnt quite fit with it being on land but I had an instance of what you had happen before and was just wondering.

Re: Curious

[wolven.livejournal.com]

No. not a silverfish. it looked as a Small chip of metal, with legs, crawling over the ball of my thumb. Less than a milimeter in length...

Gotcha

[(Anonymous)]

Man, its a shame you didnt catch that sucker, it would be interesting to look at and play with.

Re: Gotcha

[wolven.livejournal.com]

It didn't exist. As i said: I'm Hallucinating. i saw it, then it was gone, i.e, not in existence, any longer.

Ohhhhh

[(Anonymous)]

My bad. Then again, I never said it had to be caught in the realm of our physical existance. It could be caught in your head for instance, and redone on paper if you decided to draw it or something. Man I need sleep.

Re: Ohhhhh

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Sleep, then. Who is this?

[(Anonymous)]

Acting in ways they used to huh? Like finger sucking/chewing/licking on a street corner? And why was that, do you think?

Re:

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I don't Know why that was... But that, and other things. I'm made to remember my seventeenth birthday, in front of Avondale Pizza Cafe...

Ah well, things will be as tey will be, eh? Yeah...