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wolven7Gary Numan - [Dark]--- So, ladies and Germs, this is my 666th live journal entry. Love it. This is the entry where i shall discuss Everything that has been bugging me, intriguing me, interesting me, &c, of recent, because i fucking can. If you don't like it, i suggest that you don't read it. Moving right along.
TDotHT - [Mustard Gas]--- Firstly, the moving thing: This is getting on my gods damned nerves. I hate searching for an apartment, and i hate moving, with an unearthly passion. This ties directly into the Job situation. My job is odd, mainly, becase of the hours during which i'm available to work. Or not work. I can't work, most of the week. I have schoool, kids. So they schedule me, in the most fucked up way they can think of, Ingeneous, if you ask me. Now, about school....
School has become increasingly depressing. (Jack Off Jill - [Cinnamon Spider]). The more i'm there, the mre the classes get on my dam nerves, and the more wallow in the seeming fuitility of it all, and want to simply break down and cry, at the end of the day. Now, i've discussed what i would like to see happen, in school, but the real wuestion is, does anyone have a way to impliment these things, before i have to leave school, entirely? Will i ever get to Experience the applications of my ideas? Or am i like every other innovator, and must wait to give it to others, without getting the full benefits, myself? Damn you school. You make my life complicated, for so many reasons.
Jack Off Jill - [Lovesong (Cure Cover)]--- Dating. Dating Ruins Everything. Do you hear me?! A Friendship, is beautiful, and wonderful, and solid, and then someonegets the bright idea to date. Generally the guy. And things change. The Friendship is tempered by an increased emotional demonstration. There is more of a Caring, what the other person thinks, says, does, whatever. Things that one party used to be able to say, to the other, without fear of reprisal, are, now, emotional minefields, and pit-traps. (KMFDM - [Lust]). The parties, involved, must now dance around each other, carefukl not to step on the other's toes. Etc. And GODS HELP YOU IF YOU'RE EXCLUSIVE!!! Sorry.... What i'm trying to say, here, is that i envision a world in which Dating is simply an add-on to friendship, adding to or subtracting from the original, but leaving it, essentailly, unChanged. (Cake - [It's Coming Down]).But people don't seem capable of doing that. They get into a relationship, and all logic goes completely away. I like logic, i like emotion, i think the two can work together, DAMN IT.
Stabbing Westward - [Save Yourself]--- "Please Don't Take Pity On Me." Human beings drive me insane, and you are all, whether you like it or not, human beings, in copreal form, at the moment. Your minds are, at least a little, modulated by your shape, and incarnation. You're minds are, at present, human minds. Deal with it. (Pop Will Eat Itself - [Everythings Cool]). What this means, when it comes to it, is that you will, at some point or another, piss me off, confuse, startle, or otherwise upset my mental processes. I do it to you, and you can feel free to admit it. The thing is, just because you piss me off, or whatever, doesn't mean i don't still love you, like you, or whatever my emotion is, towards you, until i state, implcitly, that it is so. You got that? I hope so. So, if you got a problem with something i'm doing, saying, or whatever, or you're unclear, ASk me. If you can't do that, for the both of us, Lick Me.
Moxy Früvous - [Misplaced]--- I'm getting tired of the secrets, and the cadres, and the hiding. I refuse to do it, anymore. Honesty is to be blatantly and simply had, throughout. If there are problems, they can Lick me. 666, you know? Number of the Beast, and the Number of Man. Whatsoever you happen to think of those things. Of Beasts and Men, or what have you....
Luxt - [Cleanser]--- Regardless of your thoughts... heheh... Well, thoughts have power, and i believe this to be a number of power, for me, and my Self, Mind, Soul, and Being. So, this being this entry, i'm expelling all of this Shit, and letting it Go. Embracing the more Me aspects of me....
i am so tired....
Gute Nacht.
Dream Well
TDotHT - [Mustard Gas]--- Firstly, the moving thing: This is getting on my gods damned nerves. I hate searching for an apartment, and i hate moving, with an unearthly passion. This ties directly into the Job situation. My job is odd, mainly, becase of the hours during which i'm available to work. Or not work. I can't work, most of the week. I have schoool, kids. So they schedule me, in the most fucked up way they can think of, Ingeneous, if you ask me. Now, about school....
School has become increasingly depressing. (Jack Off Jill - [Cinnamon Spider]). The more i'm there, the mre the classes get on my dam nerves, and the more wallow in the seeming fuitility of it all, and want to simply break down and cry, at the end of the day. Now, i've discussed what i would like to see happen, in school, but the real wuestion is, does anyone have a way to impliment these things, before i have to leave school, entirely? Will i ever get to Experience the applications of my ideas? Or am i like every other innovator, and must wait to give it to others, without getting the full benefits, myself? Damn you school. You make my life complicated, for so many reasons.
Jack Off Jill - [Lovesong (Cure Cover)]--- Dating. Dating Ruins Everything. Do you hear me?! A Friendship, is beautiful, and wonderful, and solid, and then someonegets the bright idea to date. Generally the guy. And things change. The Friendship is tempered by an increased emotional demonstration. There is more of a Caring, what the other person thinks, says, does, whatever. Things that one party used to be able to say, to the other, without fear of reprisal, are, now, emotional minefields, and pit-traps. (KMFDM - [Lust]). The parties, involved, must now dance around each other, carefukl not to step on the other's toes. Etc. And GODS HELP YOU IF YOU'RE EXCLUSIVE!!! Sorry.... What i'm trying to say, here, is that i envision a world in which Dating is simply an add-on to friendship, adding to or subtracting from the original, but leaving it, essentailly, unChanged. (Cake - [It's Coming Down]).But people don't seem capable of doing that. They get into a relationship, and all logic goes completely away. I like logic, i like emotion, i think the two can work together, DAMN IT.
Stabbing Westward - [Save Yourself]--- "Please Don't Take Pity On Me." Human beings drive me insane, and you are all, whether you like it or not, human beings, in copreal form, at the moment. Your minds are, at least a little, modulated by your shape, and incarnation. You're minds are, at present, human minds. Deal with it. (Pop Will Eat Itself - [Everythings Cool]). What this means, when it comes to it, is that you will, at some point or another, piss me off, confuse, startle, or otherwise upset my mental processes. I do it to you, and you can feel free to admit it. The thing is, just because you piss me off, or whatever, doesn't mean i don't still love you, like you, or whatever my emotion is, towards you, until i state, implcitly, that it is so. You got that? I hope so. So, if you got a problem with something i'm doing, saying, or whatever, or you're unclear, ASk me. If you can't do that, for the both of us, Lick Me.
Moxy Früvous - [Misplaced]--- I'm getting tired of the secrets, and the cadres, and the hiding. I refuse to do it, anymore. Honesty is to be blatantly and simply had, throughout. If there are problems, they can Lick me. 666, you know? Number of the Beast, and the Number of Man. Whatsoever you happen to think of those things. Of Beasts and Men, or what have you....
Luxt - [Cleanser]--- Regardless of your thoughts... heheh... Well, thoughts have power, and i believe this to be a number of power, for me, and my Self, Mind, Soul, and Being. So, this being this entry, i'm expelling all of this Shit, and letting it Go. Embracing the more Me aspects of me....
i am so tired....
Gute Nacht.
Dream Well
logic? emotion? ......t-t-t-together???
Date: 2002-10-22 11:55 pm (UTC)wheaton the other-other white patrick
Re: logic? emotion? ......t-t-t-together???
Date: 2002-10-23 10:38 pm (UTC)Re: logic? emotion? ......t-t-t-together???
Date: 2002-10-23 11:37 pm (UTC)I bring you Hope...maybe
Date: 2002-10-24 06:41 am (UTC)Re: I bring you Hope...maybe
We fight, but not really more than we always have. I'm a Taurus, and his natal chart proclaims him to be a quadruple Taurus i shit you not. We're both complete bullheaded assholes sometimes. But he's the first person i've ever met who Talks while he fights. It's fucked up.
Last night we had a Very Important Conversation, in which there was enormous potential for toe-stepping, and we got upset, but guess what happened: we immediately toold each other why we were upset, and talked it out, even as we were arguing. There was plenty of twitchy emotion, but the conversation was logical and productive, and there was a whole lot of "ok, i'm sorry you feel that way, what can i do to fix it" and no "i don't know, i hate you" or "no, i'm Fine. (creeping away to cry self to sleep)". Sometimes in the middle of an argument we stop and go "I just thought how amazing it is that we can fight so productively," "Yeah, I love you so much." We then go back to arguing, but it has happened just like that several times. People who have observed this inhuman phenomena have told me that it was incredibly bizarre to watch, and they could never tell if we were fighting or having a logical discussion.
It was an incredibly strange transition from friend to lover, but sometimes it has made it easier, because we already had that bond of many years of comradeship. We're both abnormal freaks, but just to put in a good word for Hope...it can happen.
love whatever
saigh