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wolven7Three by three, 9 & 9 three times 9= 9, 81, 27=999 inverted days that Healing the Heretics, and raise Hell above Heaven. Discussions of places & personas, past, passed & left us empty, left us w/o an ending Point or Purpose but purposeful, willed w/ a dread desire to do Something, anything. A perception to break and spill infection , a tiny glass vial of sand and psychic dust, Destined for the crevaces and fractal whorls, designed to make us sleep. Each dream a Heart, each Heart Beating its owner into oblivion, Beating the pulp to Powder and the dust and smoke of industry gets in.
We cough and choke on each others' dreams, as we work to create them, give them flesh and Fire, work to make them Real. And the deep red, dark black, gold and fire-warm core of your desire is Flayed & layed open Bare, before me.
You want money, you want Power, you want Sex & Everyone to love you, you want to take charge, to have a quiet life.
You want More. And I Can Give it to you.
Take my hand, believe in me, walk a dream, Follow beside me. Come with me. I'll show youthe core, the heart, the marrow, the bone, the sinew, even as it sticks in my teeth. I'll lay us bare and share us all over.
Your sin? I know your sins, and I Love Them. Your secrets, your coiled corners, I want them, and all the little details. The Voyeur of Psychic disturbance, disruption, destruction, You're the sadist of Existential Angst. And I think that's Beautiful.
Up from underneath. It's a combination of words, letters, intent. It's a missive, a communiqué, a Directive, primed and ready to dispense anything you need. Put your hand to the Pump and Push. And Pull.
The spell is not Broken. The spell is neverending. With each breath, each word, thought & Deed you will fulfill this Magick. W/ each Day that passes you will weave yourself in wonder and you will create a dance to Crack the Sky and Rain the Earth to Heaven. The Fires that burn us, turn us to Ice are simply the Lights by which we will read the destinies of suns and Kings and mayfly Babies.
This spell is Life & Death. Transformation, importance, renewal, re-creation, understand me. Know my will & intent. Hear Me, w/ your Ears, read my lines w/ your eyes. Build this Ziggurat, dig this Hole, Carve my name (her name, his name) into your name and carve our name into Eternity.
You may. You can. You have. You will. Realise it.
We cough and choke on each others' dreams, as we work to create them, give them flesh and Fire, work to make them Real. And the deep red, dark black, gold and fire-warm core of your desire is Flayed & layed open Bare, before me.
You want money, you want Power, you want Sex & Everyone to love you, you want to take charge, to have a quiet life.
You want More. And I Can Give it to you.
Take my hand, believe in me, walk a dream, Follow beside me. Come with me. I'll show youthe core, the heart, the marrow, the bone, the sinew, even as it sticks in my teeth. I'll lay us bare and share us all over.
Your sin? I know your sins, and I Love Them. Your secrets, your coiled corners, I want them, and all the little details. The Voyeur of Psychic disturbance, disruption, destruction, You're the sadist of Existential Angst. And I think that's Beautiful.
Up from underneath. It's a combination of words, letters, intent. It's a missive, a communiqué, a Directive, primed and ready to dispense anything you need. Put your hand to the Pump and Push. And Pull.
The spell is not Broken. The spell is neverending. With each breath, each word, thought & Deed you will fulfill this Magick. W/ each Day that passes you will weave yourself in wonder and you will create a dance to Crack the Sky and Rain the Earth to Heaven. The Fires that burn us, turn us to Ice are simply the Lights by which we will read the destinies of suns and Kings and mayfly Babies.
This spell is Life & Death. Transformation, importance, renewal, re-creation, understand me. Know my will & intent. Hear Me, w/ your Ears, read my lines w/ your eyes. Build this Ziggurat, dig this Hole, Carve my name (her name, his name) into your name and carve our name into Eternity.
You may. You can. You have. You will. Realise it.
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:33 pm (UTC)...just sayin'.
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Date: 2009-03-03 03:41 pm (UTC)nice piece
Date: 2009-03-03 04:55 pm (UTC)Nw, what are my sins?
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Date: 2009-03-03 05:19 pm (UTC)A general theme, or an itemized list? The list will be very long, and have many tiny little things on it that you might not see as sin, but certainly caused "harm," somewhere. A similarly long, nearly identical list could be made of your virtues.
Generally: Pride, despair, a kind of aggressive despondency and brick wall obstinacy toward a sense of more than the most fleeting of joys. Emotional Manipulation and a running full-tilt into the maelstrom of your various confusions, dragging anyone near you along for the ride.
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Date: 2009-03-03 05:44 pm (UTC)emotional manipulation, dragging others inside, opposed to a deeper Joy.
Please elaborate.
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Date: 2009-03-03 07:02 pm (UTC)It's a pattern of pulling yourself away from those around you, even as your actions seem designed to foster deeper connections. It's a strange combination that leads to those around you not knowing what to do in the situation of your troubles.
The Emotional Manipulation isn't conscious, but it happens. It's a part of the above, in the way you Present the situations. Not to get sympathy, not pity, but interest, investment.
The opposition is in the denial that anything more than the immediate will last, which could be a Good thing, a beneficial thing, all around, but your perspective tends to more present as the necessary consequent, ". . . And Everything Will Always Turn To Shit." Cut that off, or add in "And that shit will inevitably bloom new flowers," and the whole equation changes. It becomes a larger cycle, and that cycle simply Is, neither good nor bad, not embraced nor pushed away. A Null Set, and from there, anything else becomes possible.
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Date: 2009-03-03 07:56 pm (UTC)I read manipulation as having a negative connotation so I wonder what you mean by it. Before, I was ready to agree that I sometimes use it against people I dislike, but now I am not sure where you were going with the way you framed it. I do present things that way, that's the whole point: I don't want cheers, just opinions as to what I did wrong, if anything, to better evaluate myself later. So, what's wrong with that?
I would definitely like an example or 2 of the pessimism tag b/c I was not aware I wrote anything like that, at least not within the past 2 years. I've never seen myself as assuming e/t will inevitably turn sour, so where have you? I do act as based on historical evidence, but that doesn't always lead to pessimism on my part.
As for that first bit, not sure how to respond. I guess the general idea is that I will express my feelings, no matter the situation, and I expect everyone else to do the same, with no pretense as to how to respond: just be honest. If they choose to remain silent, as you tend to do, I fail to see how that's my fault.
To be clearer, sure I may seem to advocate solitude, in one form or another, but that's just a reflex; it's Tourette's. I don't expect people to pay attention, but pay attention to what I put thought in to, namely the deep connection bits.
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Date: 2009-03-03 08:49 pm (UTC)Exactly that. There's nothing "wrong" with any of the above, over-all, but your presenting and engaging in them are what have caused you to be where you are, caused people to not know how to Engage You, because "sure I may seem to advocate solitude, in one form or another, but that's just a reflex; it's Tourette's. I don't expect people to pay attention, but pay attention to what I put thought in to, namely the deep connection bits."
What you present, and expect people to pay attention to are not necessarily what will catch their eyes, ears, Attention. It causes a disconnect, a discomfort, a place where people don't know what to do with you.
For my own part, I can hardly ever tell if you're asking because you really want to know, or are asking just to ask.
When you come to me and ask, I know which it is, but that doesn't mean that it is always the case, unless you state that it is.
Is it?
And I know that situations change, so there may be times when words just need to be spoken. Typed. Whatever. But, for our part, for My part, a distinction between those isn't always clear enough for determining actions.
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Date: 2009-03-03 09:14 pm (UTC)The only way I can see to offer any clarity is to say that I never employ rhetorical questions. They seem pointless to me and I abhor anything that has no point. In addition to that is my ever present pleas for people to just be honest, regardless of what you expect of me. If you have s/t to say or ask, just say it. I find it dishonest, or disingenuous, to keep s/t in just b/c you are not sure how it will br reacted to.
I can understand the hesitance, but I don't approve and feel that if everyone just spoke up, it would make things more enjoyable and easier understood, at least for my part.
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Date: 2009-03-03 11:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-04 01:06 am (UTC)strange though, you're vaguely describing the dream I had last night- one which you hosted.
it was... strange.
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Date: 2009-03-04 01:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-04 05:11 pm (UTC)Okay, I've been getting into odds with another mystical-speaker about whether I live in submission to the Universal Will or not.
I contend that I do for any number of reasons. I generally act for the purpose rather than my purpose. I do things because they need to be done.
And even if I'm somehow being selfish, I am the Universe, so the dividing line is artificial.
Or maybe my dharma is to be a selfish bastard.
I guess the question lies in... how do I find my path? Who am I? What is my quest? Am I off-kilter? What can I do to be more authentically Me?
It's sort of a filter problem, since I should know better than others, but maybe I don't have perspective.
For more fun and games, maybe you and she have different views of my path.
(headasplodey)
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Date: 2009-03-05 04:52 am (UTC)So.
What is? The fact of you confounding yourself. Frustrating yourself. Seeking a static perfection, in the idea of someone Being Perfect For You. Not that this is necessarily a bad Idea. But it is a great burden to place on your prospective... Whatever. Let a thing be. Know that perfection isn't necessarily going to come to you Whole Cloth.
Work may have to be done, experiences had, changes made.
And signs and symbols will not always take the shape you're expecting.
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Date: 2009-03-05 07:42 pm (UTC)You just know.
... blood. All right, to work, then.