Now that's just mean....
Oct. 12th, 2002 12:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7You might feel lazy and lethargic, Wolven. Although you don't always give yourself permission to rest, try to do so today! Sometimes you push yourself too hard, running from one thing to the next. Give yourself a real day off, because you deserve it. A day off does not consist of running errands, doing chores, and taking care of others. A day off should be a vacation where you can read, relax, and simply be peaceful.
I have to be awake until 7, then i'm supposed to be going to a friend's birthday party, then i'm supposed to come into work, again, at three.... until 11 PM. Then... Well, then it's Saturday night. You think i'm going to sleep? HAH! You Fool. So, then i go in, at 7 AM, Sunday, until THREE. Then i go hang out with Mimi, then i go to a Kittie show. Which may simply be a continuation of the Mimi thing...
Hmm... Let's talk about some things, hm? There's been a... Different feeling going on, around me. I've made note of the potential that i've felt, in the world these days, and the disappointment i've felt, in the squandering of that potential. It may be a shame tactic, but it's also the truth: I really thought people could do better.
Well, here's this, about the Goth stuff, as i said: There is, in the Seeds of Gothic Culture, the potential for a great showing of what Darkness can accomplish. There is the ability to be cultured, learned, and sophisticated, while being Dark, Vicious, and Predatory. Think Hannibal, or the Visigoths, from Titus. They were, At least, as Cultured as the Romans, and if it weren't for that Vengeful streak, she would have been cool, but then, that was the entire movie... But i Digress. Back to the subject, at hand.
The Goth "Sub-Culture", as it stands, is a thing that has become as elitist, and vertically climbing, as the snobbery it, at first, sought to escape. Now, i'll accept elite-ism, as much as the next person... Wait.. no i won't... I hate it, really... Especially in those who claim to be all about individuality, and togetherness. Don't. I'm more willing to accept it, from those who State that they are going to be Elitist, who Revel in their Snobbery. At least they're honest about it. Goths, though, started as outcasts. They banded together Because they were Different... But then... Isn't that always the way? We start off, outcasts, gain our own status, and beginning to cast out others... Aren't we a stagnantly circular little bunch?
Anyway... This relates, because i've been wondering about the potential, in all of the people i know, and the potential, there, for romantic entanglement. I'll spare you all the sappy details, and just tell you that the Tarot reading i gave myself said exactly what most of you have been telling me: To stop worrying about the loss and Lack that i feel, when it comes to Relationship matters, and focus of the things that i have. When it's all said and done, i'll be ok, and i'll Understand Why. The Ultimate Outcome place was held by the Queen of Swords...
One good thing, about going to the chamber, is that i got to talk to people about Tarot stuff, and give a reading to Lauri, the free cigarette girl. I think that may be a weekly thing. She's pretty cool. I like making Friends. Babbling, now. Back later.
Ta ta.
I have to be awake until 7, then i'm supposed to be going to a friend's birthday party, then i'm supposed to come into work, again, at three.... until 11 PM. Then... Well, then it's Saturday night. You think i'm going to sleep? HAH! You Fool. So, then i go in, at 7 AM, Sunday, until THREE. Then i go hang out with Mimi, then i go to a Kittie show. Which may simply be a continuation of the Mimi thing...
Hmm... Let's talk about some things, hm? There's been a... Different feeling going on, around me. I've made note of the potential that i've felt, in the world these days, and the disappointment i've felt, in the squandering of that potential. It may be a shame tactic, but it's also the truth: I really thought people could do better.
Well, here's this, about the Goth stuff, as i said: There is, in the Seeds of Gothic Culture, the potential for a great showing of what Darkness can accomplish. There is the ability to be cultured, learned, and sophisticated, while being Dark, Vicious, and Predatory. Think Hannibal, or the Visigoths, from Titus. They were, At least, as Cultured as the Romans, and if it weren't for that Vengeful streak, she would have been cool, but then, that was the entire movie... But i Digress. Back to the subject, at hand.
The Goth "Sub-Culture", as it stands, is a thing that has become as elitist, and vertically climbing, as the snobbery it, at first, sought to escape. Now, i'll accept elite-ism, as much as the next person... Wait.. no i won't... I hate it, really... Especially in those who claim to be all about individuality, and togetherness. Don't. I'm more willing to accept it, from those who State that they are going to be Elitist, who Revel in their Snobbery. At least they're honest about it. Goths, though, started as outcasts. They banded together Because they were Different... But then... Isn't that always the way? We start off, outcasts, gain our own status, and beginning to cast out others... Aren't we a stagnantly circular little bunch?
Anyway... This relates, because i've been wondering about the potential, in all of the people i know, and the potential, there, for romantic entanglement. I'll spare you all the sappy details, and just tell you that the Tarot reading i gave myself said exactly what most of you have been telling me: To stop worrying about the loss and Lack that i feel, when it comes to Relationship matters, and focus of the things that i have. When it's all said and done, i'll be ok, and i'll Understand Why. The Ultimate Outcome place was held by the Queen of Swords...
One good thing, about going to the chamber, is that i got to talk to people about Tarot stuff, and give a reading to Lauri, the free cigarette girl. I think that may be a weekly thing. She's pretty cool. I like making Friends. Babbling, now. Back later.
Ta ta.
*snarl*
Date: 2002-10-12 10:15 am (UTC)I know you (and others who you like) may consider themselves such, but I don't. You may listen to some of the music, and wear some of the clothes, but to me you're not Goth unless you're TRYING to attain that particular air of 'I'm so miserable, dark and androgynous, and because of my suffering, lo, I am better than you'. And as for them...
FUCK THEM. They know about as much about darkness and predation as the little bastards who run around wearing metal t-shirts and smoking pot in the name of Satan and calling themselves Satanists or (gods forbid) witches. Which is NOTHING. Being dark and predatory has to be part of one's nature for one to understand it, and they get most of their ideas about that from Anne Rice novels. They aspire too be oh-so-sad all the time, and you and I both know that is Not a Fun Place to Be. Why anyone would WANT to be there is beyond me.
My point is, scenes in general are shite. They encourage the elitism you and I both hate, and the stupid sheep-ness I despise, and shouldn't be fostered.
(The preceding rant waws brought to you by Not Enough Sleep)
-Mech, hoping she didn't piss too many people off
Re: *snarl*
Date: 2002-10-12 12:57 pm (UTC)Thank you. *hugs*