Gently disgusted.

[wolven7]

Things I've realised:

1) Things that matter to me may not matter a damn to anyone else, even if I see them as fundamentally connected to very important things about the world.

2) Other people probably don't care if I have gotten a haircut. Many people never notice, nor will they approach me differently. But I really really do care, and I find myself more attractive and approachable, with shorter hair.

3) I will most likely never be the person about whom people say "This writing will revolutionise everything about Topic-X! You HAVE to read this amazing manifesto!"

I will always be the voice quietly whispering in your ear, as you fall asleep, I will be the sentence made of particular key words you hear over the course of your day, and maybe no one will ever even know I said it. That's fine.

I'm going to bed, now.

Good night.

Comments

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

Re: 2.

No, I get it. It's the same way I feel when I'm not satisfactorily dressed, whatever that means at that time. When my roots grow in too much and I need a dyejob, like now. It's not just that I'm not happy with my looks...I feel less-than-me, and that's why I go through some ridiculous shit, in some cases, to be happy with how I look, because it affects how I feel.

And it shows when you get your hairs cut, that settling back into your Self. *kiss*

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Thank you for noticing.

[necrophonic.livejournal.com]

1. Everyone goes through that. Half the people on earth are willing to kill the other half to make them "see" those things. Well, both halves are willing to kill or die to make people see.

3. Everyone will find at least 1 fanboy who thinks they're a god. Usually, those are the people you DON'T want as fans. And ultimately, no matter who you are or what your beleif, no less than 90% of the world views it differently and won't hear you. Even a christian in a church will find their message fall on deaf ears in most other christian churches.

I'm pondering your comment in my journal, I haven't ignored it. I've had a week that is shitty in ways I cannot express, and I don't want that to spill into what SHOULD be a rational and thoughtful response to your comments to me. Despite our potentially massive differences in philsophical opinion, I value your input and I value you as a human being. Being rude to you directly isn't something I want to do, but I fear this week I'm capable of little else.

My apologies.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

1) Yeah, and that's... a very important trap to avoid.

3) Re: People you don't want as fans: Exactly. So annoying. It is rare to get to encounter the people whose work you admire and respect, who respect and admire your work, as well.

It's one of the really important things for me to remember about my interactions, here: I do respect and admire the people here, in various ways. Hopefully the same is true of them, for me.

I understand completely, about the comment, and I appreciate the heads-up. I hope the coming week is a lot better, for you.

[raidingparty.livejournal.com]

1) I, for one, love your brainmeats. I don't digest some of it, because we see different things, but I think most of it is still important.
2) ... eh, haven't seen you in ... almost a month now?
3+) Wizards' best work is rarely the crowd-amazing explosion. It's usually a stone placed just so and a messenger getting a sore foot a week later.

I've switched my most common complaint. Where's my time machine, dammit?