wolven7 | Personal Information: "All revelations are personal. That's why all revelations are suspect."

Eminem - [My Dads Gone Crazy]--- When i was little, i used to have two recurring nightmares, and one recurring Dream. (empire records - [Ready, Steady, Go]). One of the nightmares, i had when i was three.

I'm being chased, through my basement, by all of these demons and goblins, and whatnot. I'm running, and i'm trying to get to the stairs, to get out of the basement, because i know that, if i can get out of the basement, I'll be safe. I run and i get to the stairs, but before i get all the way up them, i wake up

Jack Off Jill - [Vivica]--- I have this dream, three nights, in a row, before i wake up screaming, and my mother asks me, what's wrong. i tell her about the dream, and she tells me that if i can say "It's only a dream," then i'll be able to control my dreams, and it'll be ok. That night i go to bed, hoping i won't have to try it.

I'm being chased, through my basement, by all of these demons and goblins, and there are more of them now. I'm running, and i'm trying to get to the stairs, to get out of the basement, because i know that, if i can get out of the basement, I'll be safe. I run and i get to the stairs, but before i get all the way up them, i try to say "It's only a dream, it's only a dream," and my throat closes up, and i can't speak. One of the things, behind me, sinks it's claws into my shoulder, with a feeling like it's not really there, and i hear a voice, whispered in my ear, and in the fabric of the dream, itself, saying "No. It's not." i wake up

Poe - [A Rose Is a Rose]--- I never had the dream again, after that. Another of the nightmares was much more subtle than that. (Poe - [Trigger Happy Jack]).

I'm on a huge steamliner, and i'm the Captain. I'm standing on the side of the ship, staring out over what Isn't water. We're sailing on this roiling Mist, and there's a deck swabby, with a weirdly large head, and a pale guy, in black, off to the side, watching. All of a sudden, this formless mass of a thing rams into the side of the ship, knocking a huge hole in it, and tossing me overboard. I fall over the edge, and down into the mist. I'm falling as if through air, but i'm drowning. i'm falling down a square hole, and i turn over, just in time to see the bottom, rushing to meet me. As my chest starts to touch the bottom, i wake up

Smashing Pumpkins - [1979]--- I had that dream when i was 4 or 5. Three nights in a row. There was another one, with a red Chinese dragon, flying in an infinity symbol, above some pagodas, with fireworks going on around it. And then, when i was twelve, the prophetic dreams started. I told my mom, and some of my great aunts about them, and they told me that it ran in the family. (Jack Off Jill - [Strawberry Gashes]). That the women were usually the ones to get it, and that i was probably the first male, in that entire side of the family to get them. They also told me that my grandmother would get them, from time to time. *sigh*

For those of you who don't know, my grandmother was one of the most important people in my life, and without her, i never would have discovered coffee. She died, a month before my seventh birthday, and shaped my ideas on Death, Change, and Crying. I miss her, a lot.

System Of A Down - [Chop Suey]--- There. Now you all have a little more information about the shit that fucked me up, as a small Child, and thusly helped to shape the horrendously convoluted and symbolic Maelstrom that is my life.

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