wolven7 | When Animals Collapse

Why the Romans Cheered

He gives the thumbs down
(which was actually a sign
of Mercy),
and waits outside,
for the wolves to come.
If the Gods won't simply end it,
maybe the family will.

"Humans are more cruel than animals, that's why they invented Mercy."

Eminem - [Till I Collapse]--- i lost my pager, today. Early this morning, just after i got off of work. It's gone, and i don't know why, but i felt a lot of loss and sadness, when it was gone. I couldn't find it, anywhere. There are a great many other problems, in my life, as well, which haven't left, plus i get some bad news, tonight. One of my great aunts died, on Friday. My mother didn't want to tell me, until after my first day of work, for whatever reasons... I feel very... i don't know...

There's been a lot of talk of loss, and change, by me, and it seems that it's all building toward something. I've said that, before, too... There's so little for me to say, here, these days.. It's all me talking to myself, trying to figure out what the hell to do, maybe looking for a little input, a little help.. But not much.. No, never much... I'm looking for so much, and i may have gained some things, here and there, and i like that, but it seems like i'm losing far too much, in comparison...i Don't know if i'm supposed to be actively looking for change, or if i'm supposed to wait, and allow this shite to run it's course, or do i act like Me, and do my best to run the Truck over?But it seems, these days, that every time i run the damn truck over, i'm immediately confronted with a bigger and badder truck....

The White Stripes - [Fell In Love With A Girl]--- So... i don't know any more... maybe it's all some huge plan, in some supra conscious level of my Me, to make myself the biggest, baddest, most shit-handling-est motherfucker, ever. (Vangelis - [Blush Response]). "Able to Run Over Any Life-Truck, in a Single Arrogant Glare" kind of thing.... Fuck me, i'm out of it, tonight...

i'm going to go, i think... and try to deal with people talking at me,.. .then i'm going to go smoke [Shut UP] and curl into a little ball on the floor, and drink....

If i'm back later, it'll only get worse...

Later...